I have finally finished animating. It is currently 6:03 AM EST. I currently never want to do art ever again, but I know I will come back to it.
Looking back, I’ve noticed that I’ve changed. Maybe the anatomy I draw is a little better, and the emotions on faces are a bit more believable. The animation seems smoother and the lines are cleaner. Although I’ve seemed to have progressed a great bit, I’m still far from being satisfied. I always see what I make as inadequate, and I hate doing it. But I guess it helps me to get better.
There are seemingly still things that I’ve got to learn. I sometimes set the bar too damn high. I mean, a 2:00+ min animation?! IN LESS THAN A MONTH?! AM I CRAZY?! A good minute takes like around 1000 frames. So I’ve cut it down to less than a minute. I also expected the quality of the illustration to be much better, and the animation better as well. I’ve got to understand that such things take time. I’ve also got to set boundaries for myself, and certain limits. So what if it doesn’t look like what I expected. If I keep at it, the quality should eventually get there. I’ve got to learn that my expectations will usually not match the results, and that’s okay. And that I’ll only get better with time. The people I aspire to be like have been in the craft for many years, and even they are not yet satisfied.
I’ve got to learn that somewhere, someone is appreciating my art, even though I tend to think it isn’t good enough. Improvement takes time, as does bigger projects. Come back to it when you’re better, and maybe you’ll see what you wanted to see, or maybe you’ll want to see better.
If I sound weird, it’s because I’m talking to myself. Sleep deprivation will do that to you. But this shows how much I’ve invested into doing art. Hell, I’ve done so much, it would be a waste to stop now. So… I guess I should stop… Just kidding.
I am satisfied with what I’ve learned this semester. I’ve come out of it a little older and a little more experienced. With this experience, I can drive myself to learn more and to become more experienced. Now, enough with all this philosophical shit.
ART IS SOMETHING THAT TAKES A GREAT DEAL OF EFFORT AND TIME. Trust me, there will be times when you want to give up, but a determined artist will be able to move past it. Not everything can be completed within a day or week.
Also, doing art doesn’t take talent, it takes skill. Skills can be learned and repeated, talent is a one-time-deal.
It seems like I’m becoming delusional now, I should get some sleep… 6:21 AM.
Art takes effort.
Art takes time.
Art takes practice.
Sleep is for the weak.