My name is Derek Xiao and I’m going on 18. I never really discovered who I was until around 10th grade, before that I just stayed home and played video games. I probably would still be doing that till this day had it not been for dance. Dance has created who I am today. A little more confident, a little more open, and overall a more easy person to approach. I’m not perfect but I do try my best in most things except for school (when it doesnt really count). So to answer the question: I think that I am an artist that tries to get others to discover their hidden talent and also an artist that tries to express himself as pure and raw as possible.
When I first entered Baruch I was like, “This place is pretty nice” and my initial impression still stands. It feels a lot like high school with more freedom but after my first few tests and papers I do have a few concerns now. There are only a few tests and/or essays per class that ultimately determine your grade and thats pretty scary because if you mess up then you’re done, but that only encourages me to study more which is going to be so hard because I’m so busy. The second concern is what am I going to do with my free time? Theres a lot of free time that I need to manage and I know that with my free time I tend to hang out with my friends and just chill and dance so I need to learn to control myself as I am doing now and do work! My last concern is that I wont fit in as well as I’m used too because I came from a small school and it was easier to fit in there. Now in college there’s so many people and I have to get used to and accept the fact that I’m not going to get to meet and know everyone in the school, and I feel different because I have passions that may not coincide with others interests and that makes it hard for me to spend time with them when I could be doing what I love with people that do what I love.
First off Baruch is a lot bigger than my high school with a graduating class of about 200. And theres also a lot more freedom that I’m not used to having and this means a lot more responsibility and a lot less hand holding. Teachers wont go out of their way to come and see if I need help, I need to now go to them if I’m having trouble understanding something or go find other means to solve my problem.
Honestly I dont think that I will change a lot but you never know stuff happens. If I were to change however I think that (I hope that) I will become more responsible with my time because I have a lot of activities but school is important as well so I’m going to have to learn to balance the two out or go crazy.
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