The worst thing i have seen on the Internet lately…
http://indigoemptied.blogspot.com/
This is the worst thing I have seen on the internet lately. This girl is so sick, and she is just one of thousands suffering from such a crazy disease. She is willingly harming her body, and she has so many supporters. It sickens me to think of how much pain she must be in to inflict such a horrible disease upon herself.
She doesnt realize that she will never be good enough for herself, her waist will never be small enough. She will starve herself into unconsciousness, maybe even death. She will continue to hate herself, and she will be disgusted every time she looks in the mirror and every time she “binges” on a piece of lettuce.
In truth, my heart goes out to Indigo, who will forever be trapped in her mind and blinded to the reality of what a human being has the capacity to be, aside from skinny.
4 responses so far
I agree. This is very sad. People are more obsessed with the way they look than with the way they feel. You will never look good if you don’t feel good. But, really, who could blame her? Not a day goes by without young, impressionable women seeing underweight, unhealthy women being featured as the paragon of beauty. You see it once, you see it twice, you see it three times…you begin to believe it. You begin to believe that the way these emaciated, made-up photo-shopped women look is the way you are supposed to look. And you believe that the reason that you don’t look like them is your fault. When an advertisement features a “normal looking” girl it is out of the ordinary, baffling, and controversial. Why? It shouldn’t be like that. It should be common-place, logical, and uncontroversial. (The same applies to men.)
The part of this that is most disheartening for me is how she refuses to accept help or criticism.
“IF YOU THINK WHAT I AM AND WHAT I DO IS WRONG, PLEASE LEAVE NOW. I WILL NOT TOLERATE ANYONE WHO HATES ON ME OR MY DISEASE. IF, HOWEVER, YOU DO NOT COME TO JUDGE, MY ARMS ARE OPEN TO YOU.”
Indigo, no one is hating on you, or your disease. Someone who is obsessed with something will always deny their obsession until someone opens their eyes. Indigo turns the other way to avoid confronting the real problems in her life. Not how skinny she is, but her physical and mental health, both of which are faltering. It worries me to see things like this, because it makes me worry about my younger sister, who I don’t want to see end up obsessed with being “skinny” like Indigo. People like Indigo will always be there, and it’s our responsibility to help them.
I agree with Ben. The sentence he quoted was the one that stood out to me the most. I don’t think Indigo understands the severity of what she’s doing. People can try to help without judging, and unless Indigo gets help, she is in serious trouble. What worries me is all the support she has and how this could influence other girls. They could see this site with Indigo and all her support and decide that it is ok have an eating disorder when it is not. Other girls can’t be influenced by girls like Indigo, or a generation could be plagued with this self-caused disease.
I did a lot of research about thinspiration blogs and the pro-ana and pro-mia movements in high school, and even though it was supposed to be an objective search for the facts, I couldn’t help but feel disheartened by what I found.
It upsets me that Indigo and others like her feel the need to destroy their bodies to achieve an empty ideal. Women (and men) face all sorts of societal pressure. They are expected to act, speak, and look a certain way in order to be deemed beautiful or attractive. But the thing is, beauty is a construct, and it’s not fair that a flimsy construct should engender such self-destructive tendencies.
Indigo outright refuses to tolerate anyone who hates on her or her disease. At the very least, she recognizes on some level that her anorexia is a disease rather than a source of strength. But at the same time, it seems like a vicious cycle of self-loathing. She began her foray into anorexia as a means of appeasing societal standards. But now that she’s on her way to achieving her “goal weight,” she still faces a different kind of judgement. Now she has to deal with people pitying her, too. And so, she’s stuck and she’s frustrated, and the only thing that she can think to do is to go with what she knows best.
I don’t know what to say other than I hope she can learn to accept herself without having to further harm her body. She deserves a positive, self-made identity. But first I feel like there needs to be some sort of recognition that her disease is at least partially a reflection of society.