I definitely strayed from my original monologue:
To be honest, I held off writing this little speech for the longest time. I wasn’t sure of how to explain to everyone who I am when, in reality, I still haven’t figured that out for myself yet. We had a bunch of prompts for our free writes for these past few weeks. With each and every one of those, I had trouble coming up with a definitive answer for.
For starters, I can provide you with my basic information. My name’s Julia Leung. I’m eighteen years old. I live in Queens, New York, and I have for all my life. I have two younger brothers who enjoy picking on me. But even though I told you all those facts, there wasn’t anything substantial to them.
One thing that I can say about college so far is that it’s definitely not too different from my high school. The student body is large, so I feel at home in the midst of all these people, even though it’s harder to make friends. I wasn’t too happy about going to Baruch and I’m still not. It’s a great school but I have no interest in business. The only reason I feel obliged to be here is because of my parents. I understand that they want me to have a financially stable life, but I don’t believe that the only way to make money is to enter the business field. In retrospect, though, I honestly have no idea what I want to study; I’m incredibly indecisive.
I’m an avid food enthusiast and I pretty much eat anything. I have a short attention span. I’m addicted to the internet. I’m really bad at math, which is one of the reasons I shouldn’t be here. I’m incredibly afraid of pigeons and squirrels. But mostly pigeons. I start panicking when they get too close to me. Unfortunately, this proves to be an obstacle, especially since Baruch is surrounded by them. I’m still afraid of the dark.
I reflect back on these ‘likes and dislikes’, I feel that they’re the only things that are constant in my life right now. I know I said that Baruch isn’t too different from my high school, but there are some major differences. I was incredibly involved back in high school, being on the track team and the yearbook committee. And I realized in June, after the yearbooks were distributed and I had to announce the new captain that would take my place on the track team, things were changing. I understand that change is inevitable, but I was not prepared for how quickly one academic year had passed by. And I certainly wasn’t prepared for all of my friends packing up their belongings and going away for college.
But change is good. Change is something that’s going to happen whether you like it or not, and the only thing left to do is to go with the flow. Life is way too short for you to worry about every little thing. I believe that everything happens for a reason, and it’ll lead you to greater things in the long run. And, hopefully, as I begin my journey here at Baruch, I’ll be able to find some of the answers to these questions in the long run.
And I chose this photo, and doodled all over it, to represent me because I feel like I’m always going to be a kid at heart with an overactive imagination no matter how old I am. It’s bright and colorful and sort of obnoxious – everything that I believe myself to be.
