My first semester at Baruch is finally, and thankfully, coming to a close. There is one month till the end to be exact, and I couldn’t be happier. The awkwardness of being in a new school is slowly but surely beginning to fade, and my time management skills are sharpening by the day. However, I would be lying if I said Baruch has held up to my expectations. I naively hoped that college would be as great as it seems on television, only to be greatly disappointed. I suppose the only person to blame is myself. It’s my fault I didn’t research other schools, and it’s my fault that I didn’t go away for college. I’m still just as confused as I was a few months ago, especially now that registration for the next semester is coming around.
Despite my discontentedness at school, I do believe that my first semester of college is going fairly well, grade wise that is. I’m doing above average in most of my classes, all of them, as a matter of fact except for Calculus. Just as I had predicted, calculus has turned out to be a problem area, despite the fact that I get tutored for three to four hours at a time. Math has never been a favorite subject of mine, yet somehow I still managed to understand it and get A’s. However, Calculus is different. No matter how hard I try, or how hard I study, I just can’t seem to get it.
If I could do my first semester over, would I do it differently? Though I think this question is silly, because I don’t believe there’s any use in contemplating the past and the mistakes you have made, even if I could, I don’t believe that I would do anything differently in my first semester. Academically, I am doing all that I can, and as I said, except for calculus, I’m not worried. In addition, even though I’ve deemed it impossible to make friends if you’re not in a Learning Community class, I don’t regret transferring my credits- the reason I was taken out of an LC. After this semester I’ll be already considered a sophomore, which means I’m a step closer to graduating college and starting my life. The only thing I would do differently, is take Music instead of Theatre, because it’s a prerequisite for my major-Management of Music Enterprises. Music would have fulfilled both my Fine and Performing Arts requirement, and my prerequisite requirement.
As we approach the closing of the semester, and I reflect back on who I was when this all first started, I can’t say I’ve really changed too much. Perhaps I am a bit more self motivated, goal oriented, independent, and organized, but not enough that I can see the difference. Maybe one semester just isn’t a long enough period of time to completely change one’s self. Either way, whether I change or not after I come out of Baruch, I don’t believe it’ll be a result of going through college, just a side-effect of growing up.
