KM 3A

For my final make up post I decided to attend the event on Thursday in the multipurpose room, it was basically a monopoly tournament. I missed the beginning of the session because my math class went on a little long but by the time I got there people were playing. Once I got there I sort of realized I hate monopoly and only came to the thing because I was required to do something in order to pass this class. But seriously who plays monopoly for fun? It’s the most annoying game ever. I don’t really like being thrown in to social situations anyway so basically this entire action was a bust. And so since it was rather boring and after getting something to drink I went to go get some real food because I was starving and cranky. The end.

To be honest Baruch hasn’t met my expectations. I haven’t really connected with anyone really, all I do is work- which compared to school I actually look forward to, at least there I can be myself. The work is pretty difficult. I hate my room mate, I quite literally mean hate. And I think a lot of things about the requirements are trivial. Pretty similar to high school really.
I suppose I did okay this semester. I didn’t fail out of anything. I’ve maintained decent or above average grades for the most part. If I didn’t hate school in general I’d probably enjoy it more.
The third question is stupid. Watch Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. This is highly relevant.
Since I’ve come here I’ve become more spiteful and angrier than ever. Thanks Baruch.

When this assignment was given I initially hated it because the topic was so ambiguous that there was no clear way to do it. Then I got to thinking about these “free” writes that we do in class. Most of the questions center around “who am I?” or “how do you enjoy college?”. One question that stuck out to me the most of all the questions was one that said (more or less) “how do you think your experience at Baruch will change you?” Well to tell you the truth I don’t think coming here has or will change me at all. Coming from the background that I have, I’m a pretty well defined person. I have a strict set of values that mainly include honesty, loyalty and integrity- which are, to me at least, the most important things a person can be. Otherwise I’m stubborn, emotional, intelligent, conceited and sarcastic, extremely, extremely sarcastic. I feel that in our society people can be swayed so easily into becoming something they don’t want to be if they don’t really know who they are, but maybe that’s just me. Typically people coming to college with the notion that here they will embark on some sort of path to self discovery and find out who they are. I went into college with it written in stone. So no, I really don’t think coming here will change anything about me, I already know, and all I am is all I’m ever going to be.bye.

I went with Professor Sitt’s “Psychology of Happiness” for this assignment because I’m already enrolled in his psychology 101 class and happen to enjoy is so it made sense to go with it. Professor Sitt is a pretty cool guy himself to begin with, he listens to indie music and never dresses too formal.. but for this lecture he went a step further and accessorized with these silly glasses and a hat.

I went into this lecture with pre-concieved notions of happiness such as how being truly happy only comes when you deserve it. Professor Sitt explained how happiness is actually something you have to work to obtain, the way an artist works on his masterpiece until it’s perfect. I found that to be very interesting. The entire lecture was filled with all these new ideas that I’ve never really took into consideration and gave me an entire new perspective on happiness.

To be honest, I have little to no desire to do this.
I’m doing it anyway obviously, but the truth is I don’t want to. That’s the thing about blogging though, you can be extra honest. After all who’s going to stop me?

So to answer these questions:

I’m reading this book right now called the unbearable lightness of being. It’s really a marvelous book. I feel that I can really relate to the character Tereza. She’s misanthropic, she has a big heart and she has this child-like captivation. I know it’s weird for me to look at myself from the outside in but that’s just the way that I am. I know the affects I have on people and how I can be manipulative and controlling.. but maybe that’s a little too honest. There’s basic things I could list here too like how I have this undying love for Audrey Hepburn; specifically her role as Holly Golightly in Breakfast at Tiffany’s or rather I’m completely enamored with all golden age Hollywood. I believe in loyalty, honesty and integrity- and you wouldn’t believe how hard that is to come by these days. I like being fashion-foward, photo shoots and dressing up are two of my favorite things to do. And above all I like intelligence, if you’re smart and modest I can probably tolerate you.

I have no “top three concerns” about college… Honestly I have one concern which is math. If I don’t pass math, I have to go home to Long Island. And quite frankly I don’t want to go there. I don’t like it there, which is why I moved here.

So far Baruch hasn’t really been much different other than the fact that most of my homework is online now, which is kind of a pain in the ass. I can’t do my homework anywhere but home or where ever there is internet access. Such as a cafe or the school.. still I like to do my homework when it’s convenient for me and the restrictions bother me. I like it here though, I mean I guess I like the experience. Going to Baruch has given me the opportunity to prove to my family I can survive (almost entirely) on my own.

This is going to sound weird but I don’t think going to Baruch will change me much at all apart from all the new class material I’m going to learn. At the end of the day I’m still going to hate math, I’m still going to love Audrey, I’m still going to want to look my best at all times,  I’m still going to make my life goals happen for me. Baruch is simply a means of conveying those goals into reality. It’s not a catalyst or something that I feel is going to change my perspective, eight teen years is not a long time, I know, but my views are pretty stagnant. Through and through I am me, the only thing this school can provide for me is higher learning.. Sorry if that’s not the answer you were looking for.

I wrote 500 something words, I am going to sleep now. Goodnight.