valmiki.amarjit – who do you think you are?

When I am usually asked this question I automatically associate myself with race and religion. I say i am an Hindu of Indian Guyanese descent.  I also like to throw in that I am 6″5 and some of my likes and interests, which include shooting pool, playing cards and dominoes, and basketball used to be one of them until I tore my ACL my junior year of high school in a game. Who I really am though is much different, especially depending on the setting. At home and with my family and close friends I act much more wildly and am somewhat of a charloton. As my grandmother says I laugh very heftily and make too much noise. In school though with people I am not that familiar with I am shy and reserved. I still talk but I am much more calm and seem alot more nice and pleasant than I really am. I am not saying that I am not a nice and pleasant person at home, but at school that’s what people define me as. My top three concerns at baruch right now are obviously grades, my organization and management of my life and also fitting in and getting to know some people. Grades are obviously my biggest concern. In high school I was a big slacker and thought of every situation and every excuse to not do work. Once for some reason my teacher thought that I was really down about something in my life, because I wasn’t doing homework but still getting good grades, so I went along with it and made up stories of how being injured for basketball was really bothering me, when in reality i was just really lazy, but intelligent, which was why i still maintained good test grades. Here in college I realize I can’t do that and have to study a lot so my biggest concern is changing my bad habit of laziness, which will take some time. Organization and management of time are also a big concern for me here at Baruch. In high school I just threw all my papers in my bag, and didn’t even right down my homework, I would just remember it. Now if i do that my grade will be reflected in my organization skills and we are loaded with so much assignments, that if I don’t write it down I will forget. Getting to know people is also another problem for me here at Baruch. Since there are no dorms or parties and everyone just goes home after class it is hard to get to know people, which I have trouble doing anyway. I really don’t feel college as much of a big difference from high school except for the massive workload we get here compared to high school. This is probably because Baruch is a commuter school and everyone just goes home after class like in high school. There is no experience of what the media put into my head as the ideal college lifestyle, which is dorms, parties, and other fun things. Hopefully I think that my first year of college will make me a more disciplined student and that I won’t be as lazy anymore. I can sense that it is already working because in high school I had to write blogs for Spanish but I rarely did them, and they were only supposed to be a hundred words. Now I am writing close to a 600 word blog. I just hope that I can stay on track.