I identify myself as a humble person but sometimes this is not seen because I’m very shy. I live an extremely safe lifestyle, its sickening. I’m afraid of making mistakes and disappointing those around me. I judge myself harshly, I worry a lot and I fear that I’ll do something very bad and I won’t be able to forgive myself. I feel like this is one of the major things that prevents me from living the life I want to live. However, I am in the process of my own little life-fixing program, where I’m trying to accept that its alright to make mistakes, life goes on and life is too short to live the way I do. It’s in the process, I’ve seen a little progress since I’ve start but we’ll see how it goes.
My sister is very important to me because we have a very close relationship, we understand each other very well. But we’re COMPLETE opposites, I think that’s what adds to the strength of our relationship. We need each other to balance our personalities, most times I’m the one who does the balancing/checking because she can crazy at times.
I enjoy talking, texting or IMing with friends, but most times I play the role of the listener, which I’m not even good at because my mind wanders easily. Even during some classes I find myself wandering off. I hate being the listener but because I haven’t really been living my life I don’t really have that much to contribute to a conversation.
School is going fairly well right now, I still need some mind adaption to the pace and work load but in time I’ll get used to it. I’m also thinking about joining some clubs starting this week. But that’s another problem that I have to deal with: I say I’m going to do something but never do. Hopefully I do.
