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When i first entered Baruch i had college all planned out that i will get and maintain 4.0. The only thing I had to worry about was not being sucked into any parties that will divert me from my objective.

I realize my expectations evaporated. My whole plan was reaching red alert that need to be dealt with. Classes were going real fast, teachers did not repeat themselves. It as if I was in the twilight zone or God was punishing me. I did not know what was going, i was getting C’s or D’s.  The thought of me not performing well allowed me to consider to drop out of college. But I realize I made a promise to a friend and I wanted to keep my promise.

What realize the transition from high school to college was a test created by the institution to test Freshmens of their will to overcome challenges. What was my challenge was time management. I did not take the courses seriously, I did study often but as weeks go by I started making adjustment to improve myself. Everyday i see progress and I am happy of the man I becoming. College is making me aware of my surroundings and events. I realize high school their was a lot of help. College was the total opposite. It takes time to adjust.

Next semester is to apply everything I learn this semester to better improve myself.

The Rubin Museum of Art was an amazing experience. I feel like going again.

What I liked about the museum was the little Tibet room of worship. I realize the Tibetans have an amazing life. Critics will rebuke my statement with statements that Tibet is an occupied third world country that is suffering. But their life is so stress free especially in the mountains. The only thing they do is pray and meditate that relaxes the body. Now we experience that in America but their is so many distractions; work, school, relationship and economy. If I lived in the mountains with the Tibetans monks, I do not have to worry about work, school, relationship or the economy. My mind will be free and clear of any thoughts. The only thing that my mind will be processing is spiritual progression. Also, the Tibetans have amazing health that can no ethnic group can compare with.

If i graduate from Baruch early I will go visit Tibet for two months.

The career workshop was insightful. Their was information I already knew. I was really focused on the resume section. I applied to many retail jobs with my old resume from high school and I was getting a lot of rejections. So the speaker said that Star center look over resumes. I rushed the next day with my failed resume to improve it that it can go against other applicants. It was very helpful. I thought I knew it all, minutes into the session I was far from perfect. Their were so many errors it felt like an English teacher was grading it.

After reviewing my resume I felt relieved the mark-up of my errors were finished. What I learned is i do not know it all and the real world have so much to show me.

I can identify myself in many ways. I am a tall handsome African-American. I am physically fit; I played many sports that are basketball, soccer, rugby, football, volleyball and cricket. I am the second oldest but the first son so I am given a lot of responsibilities. I am a citizen of the world. I lived in America for 15 years, I lived in Nigeria for a year and I lived in England for two years. It sounds cool to live in different places. It is sometimes said that physical attributes contribute to a person identity. That can be true because if someone is tall, that person is filled with confidence and feel invulnerable. But I refute an argument. I believe physical make-up contribute to our identity but our environment. I lived in three places in my 18 years and only my memory of my life in England and America I remember. So, if anybody wants to know who I am, just ask about my past, there my identity will be revealed.

Even though my personality projects a confident young man, I fear. I am not afraid of death, loss, spiders, clowns or anything else. But I am afraid of one thing. I am afraid of failing the people I love. My father is man that does not accept failures. That principle has wrapped around my head so tight that I agree. I do not want fail the people I love. I want to count on me and witness that I can do no wrong. Many will say that this type of weakness is common but I do not want it to be common, it is a nightmare for me. Lately, I have so many nightmares.

Even though I am afraid of failure I believe Baruch will vanish that fear. As long I am surrounded by the friends I made in Baruch will succeed.

Who do you think you are? A question that is universal yet vague. The answer is never straight but open-ended. A question with a formulate answer to assert it. I am a flirt. I am shy.  I am short. Even though it is a universal and vague question, the hidden meaning is direct – Who am I?

 Who am I, Who do you think you are- I am a conflicted soul. I want to be ambitious and be rich like Rockefeller, Gates, and Buffett.  I wonder if can I reach financial success with humble or integrity like Andrew Carnegie or deceit, cheat, and steal like Bernie Madoff. I want to be inspiring and be model for future generations like Obama, Kennedy, and Clinton. I want to encourage the public to tap into their potential or I can steal their potential for my own success. I want to be innovative and creative like Edison, Jobs, and Toyoda.  I want to improve the world and make the impossible into possible or I can be innovative base on other people work. I want to be a great polymath like Franklin, Da Vinci and Aristotle. It’s amazing to be a Renaissannce Man, a specialist on a wide variety of topics or   I can be a Jack of all trade and master of none and lie my way to the top. So, tell you who I think I am. I am Amenaghawon Enoma that knows what he wants but conflicted on the type of direction to take to reach it. Shall it be Integrity or Hypocrisy?

Freshman year at Baruch have been amazing so far but I have some concern. The top 3 are:

Baruch is known for its business program but I have research schools and their career returns. It is not has much as the Ivy League especially during the stagnant economy we have. Will Baruch be able to help me to achieve my dream goal?
Another concern I have is the four teachers cannot teach well. I cannot say bad teaching but the four teachers except for professor Pyson do not bring life to the class, there is no enthusiasm. It feels that most classes in Baruch will be banal. Banal classes do have poor grades and I do not want nothing less than a 3.8.
My last concern is that events are held but no food. Food is huge a factor for social networking. It’s a universal and I am always hungry so I need food when events are being held.

The Baruch experience is different from high school is the diversity. College is the only institution where diversity connect the world together. So I am connected with different people with different background. While high school was majority African-American.

How do you think your first year at college will change you? I do not know I can be the same kid from high school or a different person. That’s what make college especially Baruch fun.