Like a balloon floating, I am very optimistic

likewise, I am also easily let down, or in the balloon’s case, deflated.

Born into the first generation of my family in America, both my grandparents and parents really expected a lot from me. It was already engraved in my mind that I had to teach my sister the rights and wrongs of life and also everything I learned in school so she would have a headstart. At the age of five, after learning the alphabet, I taught my three year old sister the ABC’s by writing on the wall, pretending I was a teacher. “Won’t we get in trouble?,” I remember her saying. I figured it was alright as long as it was for a good cause. But, of course, I got a good lecture after my mommy found out. As I grew up, I’ve become more independent, yet very dependent. I can wash everyone’s laundry, clean the whole house (bathrooms included!), make different varieties of dishes for dinner, and help my siblings with their studies. I’m practically a second mom in my house! Yet, even after accomplishing these tasks, I still need help opening a water bottle, I’m terrified of birds (even pigeons), insects (like butterflies even though I think they’re beautiful), and rodents (even bunny rabbits and squirrels)!! I’m still scared of the dark. At night, I leave the hall light open and the door cracked at at least an inch. I’m always insecure when I’m alone. I can not eat dinner by myself nor go shopping by myself and it makes me sad when I see others by themselves. Something unusual about me is that I am not ticklish unless I’m already laughing. Many people feel that they were deprived a lot from their parents, but I see it from a different perspective. I think I am very spoiled and as a Christian, I feel that God has given me so much. I participated in both Korean and Chinese Fan Dances in my high school. These activities definitely took part in building up my happiness in high school and will forevermore stay with me.

These are photos of Korean Fan Dances from 2008, 2009, & 2010.