Who am i? I’m an 18 year old South Asian girl trying to find her place in society. I’m an eighteen year old South Asian girl trying to tackle the responsibilities of being a young adult. In the mean time a couple of nods and smiles throw people off because they fail to understand the confusion i face. But each day starts off as a adventure by learning new things and meeting new people. So i guess you can say I am a seeker, simply looking for some form of acceptance and stability, and its a search that never seems to end.
My top three concerns about my freshman year at Baruch is: 1. My grades. i understand that its college and its time i take responsibility for my actions. i can’t complain about a teacher anymore and if anything goes wrong there’s a slight chance that it may be my fault. I can’t slack off and expect an easy A, i really need to work for it this time.
2. Fitting in. Although i have an outgoing personality and i get along with almost everyone i meet fitting in is one of my worries. i dislike being alone in classes and not knowing anyone. i don’t want to feel like an outsider. it’ll ruin my expectations of the college life as a whole.
3. Managing work and school. Now that i have a job, its almost shameful for me to ask my parents for anything. my job is my form of independence, its a way of saying that i am responsible and strong. However i don’t want work interfering with school. i still haven’t found a balance between the two, but i’ll come up with solutions somehow.
The experience at Baruch college is already notable. The school is a lot more diverse, and i feel so much more comfortable. But one thing that will set apart high school and college is independence! the word independence comes with its pros and cons. the good side is, i can finally have control and feel powerful about school. However, independence comes with responsibilities, which means i obviously should do the required work even if the teacher doesn’t check it, because the questions show up on tests!
I think my first year will push me into becoming more responsible. by the end of the year i will hopefully be able to menage my time, work and be organized with notes.