Who Shot Ya

Who am I? Merely a disappearing thought? A dream forgotten among many? Or a king…of a land far greater than ever fathomed. A king of body and mind, the ultimate authority of cells and electric impulses. Who am I, but a young man whose thoughts could not possibly be original. A single mind among seven Billion, on a rock among several trillion, in a Universe among infinite others. I am a combination of things, you see. A combination of my upbringing and all people I’ve ever come across, with a twist of originality. No, I am much more. A son, a brother, a friend, an enemy, a leader, and a follower. Your Facebook friend, and your competition in life. I am merely the love child of a resilient  sperm and an awaiting egg. I am joyous. Joyous for the opportunity to experience this life. Joyous for taste, smell, touch, love, and more. I am somewhat of a thinker, as you can tell. I am passionate, emotional, and cold when the situation calls for it. I am a contradiction and a paradox. I am hopeful, hopeful that one day i can see the world and let it see me; a footprint among ever-falling snow. I am not really free, shackled down by responsibility and ambition. I am tired, and thus i depart.

College life so far has been pretty fun, active, and interesting. However, going to a CUNY is somewhat a glorified high school experience so my friends sometimes call college “Baruch-lyn Tech” since we went to Tech. My LC has been really great, and I think I can confidently say that we’re the most tightly knit and close compared to all the other LCs. I see a lot of LCs and they seem a bit quiet compared to ours. My LC is like always laughing and cracking jokes, a couple people in particular. I really like the freedom that college life gives you. I can just walk out of campus to get food or hang around whereas that’s practically impossible in high school. My classes are alright, but it’s not as interactive when you’re in a lecture hall with 100 other kids and teachers probably won’t learn the names of more than half their students. I mostly go play basketball in the gym or go work out whenever I’m not in class. I’ve made plenty of friends because of that and they’re fun to play games against.  Early on in the semester, I rushed for Lambda Phi Epsilon. The brothers of the fraternity were really chill and fun people to be with. Every rush event was guaranteed to be entertaining. Through them, I also met sisters of various sororities as well as their rushes. It’s too bad I didn’t get a bid to pledge, but I’ll definitely go for it again next semester. Here’s to hoping the rest of the year goes well.

The thing I like to do the most is paintballing. When I was younger I always had an interest in military related things and paintball allows me to live it without actually risking my life. At first the idea of shooting and getting shot at was scary but after a while it all just came naturally. Paintballing always makes me happy because having the adrenaline pumping through my veins gives me this amazing feeling that’s unlike any other!

I identify myself as a shy but nice guy. I always have problems starting conversations but once I get comfy I get to really show who I am and I love it! I’m still not in that hundred percent comfort zone at baruch but I’m getting there!

If there is one thing I’m sure I dislike it would be really stubborn people. In life I find it normal to have arguments and a winner and loser for each one. When it is obvious that my point is completely right with evidence to back myself up I think people should just admit their being wrong instead of fighting back or changing the subject!

My number one fear of all time would have to be of the darkness. It sounds childish but after all the scary movies and shows I’ve seen sometimes my mind messes with me. People say fear is all in the mind but unfortunately for me my mind is very creative when it comes to the ridiculous or unconventional! It is especially bad when I think up of zombies! I hate the idea of dead people coming back to life just to eat you. I always wonder why it has to be eating other live people to make more zombies. And in all of the movies where they make zombies, why does the scientist have to be dumb enough to not properly contain the virus or make a cure quickly! It is as if common sense is a rarity with those people!

For me my most empowering moments would be when I either learn something really hard or teach it to someone else. For example, in handball I learned to hit a shot called a hook which makes the ball change direction upon hitting the floor. This took me a full 3 year to get between muscle building, accuracy practice, and just plain experience. When I finally learned how to hit the shot it changed my whole game. I like to think I moved up a level from when I started.

My motto definitely has to be “Never give up, Never surrender”. I personally hate it when people have good things going for them and they throw it all away because 1 thing goes bad. I never quit unless its hopeless or I finish what I started.

The first semester is almost over and I have been doing pretty good in most of my classes.  The fall season for softball just ended.  I did pretty good for my first college games.  My first game I pitched and struck out five people.  I also hit two triples.  My second game I caught and I threw two people out at second.   Right now I am in preseason so I mostly just train and get ready for the spring season.  I am very excited for the spring season.  I can’t wait to go on all the trips to away games.  I am especially excited for the trip to Canada.  I hope the season goes well and we win again this year.  I also hope i continue to do good in all of my classes.

So far this year at Baruch, I can't complain too much. I like my learning 
community. The people in it are cool and we actually get along. My classes 
are... classes. Some, well most of them, are boring. I can't pay attention in 
most of them. Well, I try but it's hard to focus when I can't understand due to 
an accent or a really annoying voice.
However, I'm enjoying my time thus far. I've made 18 new friends and I've 
already got a close bond with some. I can't imagine what I'm going to do next 
semester when we aren't all together. I'll just adjust, I guess.

I used to be afraid of feathers. My grandma used to have these huge pillows, made of snow white, light feathers. The would sometimes sneak out of the fabric and I would start screamig on the top of my voice. I believed with my 4 year old mind that thoe feathers were huge, scary spiders, and I guess it’s normal for a 4 year old to be scared of spiders. Over the time, I reallized that feathers had nothing to do with the spiders. The time even helped me to overcome the the fear o the spiders. Now, I could even kill aspider with my thumb if I have to.

Now I’m afaid of the babies. My roommate is having a baby boy, and I don’t want to spend nights listening to him, crying. I hope I’ll be so tired by the end of the day that I’ll fall asleep the moment I put my head on the bed. I’m already thinking of moving out, but it’s going to be really hard, when I have so much collge work to do. Let’s hope, he’s not going to be as bad as I’m imagining him to be.Don’t gt me wrong, babes are cute, it’s just the sound they make.

Purple is my favorite color. The color of royalty fit for a queen-born on Thursday- definition of my name. Basketball is one of my favorite past times, the best sport ever. Currently “Life” has yet to be lived. Right now it’s at a halt, academics a stress. But I hope to find the meaning sooner than later; My goals, a universe surrounding. Family is the most important thing in my life. Independence however is a necessity. College; High school is nothing compared to this. They did not prepare me for this. However I am on the pursuit of happiness. Musically inclined, my words just flow on the sheets, blackberry like Drake- my instrument for my music 🙂

Man, I wish I was home right now. There is a Snuggie and 5 pillows with my name on it. I have acquired a cold and my foot fell asleep -_- Class is pointless. All I do is sleep. I don’t know what a Techne is nor do I really care.

Damn I hate having the sniffles. It prevents me from enjoying the things I actually like.

I want to play my guitar without having to stop halfway through a verse to blow my nose. I want to be able to play Beatles Rock Band without messing up my perfect solo due to a sneaky sneeze.

I blame my sisters -__-

I love them on most days, but today is not one of them.

They gave me their germs….

Being happy is important to me. Sometimes its best to let things go at its natural flow rather than searching. Searching takes time away and blinds you from the great things that are already there. At the moment i am really overwhelmed with work, school, my relationship and family life. Its a handful to juggle but at the end of the day i end up managing a few laughs and smiles. Its the positive thinking that gets me through the day. I must admist its difficult to have a liberal mind all the time but it is possible.

I’m working on having a sweeter attitude. it’ll lighten up the mood of everyone around me making my atmosphere less stressful. Especially with the new experience with college.