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Baruch, as I mentioned a few times, was never a dream but definitely a start. Coming in I was determined to transfer out but now not so much. Not because I think more of the school but more because I’m not sure that transferring would be a wise decision. Tuition is great in comparison to most colleges. I also have no idea where I would go, and Baruch has a great reputation. One of the things that I was not looking forward to was having my schedule picked out but now that I’m trying to figure out my spring semester schedule, I have an appreciation for it. Don’t tell anyone but I also really like our LC class.

So how do I think I’m doing this semester? Hmmm Well I’m aiming for a couple of A’s. I’ve been very inconsistent in communications, and music is retarded on so many different levels.

I wouldn’t do much differently during my first semester except perhaps been a little more focused at building a better work ethic. I leave everything for the last minute and my problem is that I take things way too laid back. I never freak out until the last minute which is why I manage to put my assignments off for so long.

I don’t think I’ve changed since I started at Baruch. I’m always the same old me 🙂

I came to Baruch with a negative attitude. I didn’t think it was the school for me, and I still don’t think it is. At this point it is about making the best out of a given situation. I’m use to knowing what I want, how I’m going to get it, and doing it. College has taken that away from me it makes me very frustrated. I’m a very decisive person and I recently find myself being the exact opposite as well as very insecure. Almost all my friends think I’m a rock because I’m not affectionate and never say “I love you”, and I don’t. The only person I say “I love you” to, every single day, multiple times a day, is my mom. It’s just one of those things that go unsaid with me. If I love you, you should know it and not need it to be said out loud. Maybe I’ll grow out of this. I also never really take anything to heart and I can’t keep grudges. This was proven last year when I experience the worse betrayal and a couple of weeks later I talked to the bitch as if nothing happened and wrote nothing but good things in her yearbook and I wasn’t fake about it either. Let’s go back to Baruch and wrap this up. Although I’m not the happiest person at the school it’s a lot better then it was in the beginning. I really like our LC and especially the friendship I’ve built with the three other crazy bitches in our class (yall know who they are).

I don’t know why, but I could not get myself to write this blog post. As everyone has more or less stated, being asked to describe yourself, let alone asked “who are you?,” can possibly be one of the hardest things to answer. But here we go. I am a driven student, an AFS volunteer, an alter server, a great friend, a loving daughter, a funny sister, a crazy Latina, a responsible individual, a good listener, a leader. Someone who is outgoing, painfully shy, ambitious, realistic, impatient, reliable, sweet, loud, decisive, independent, thoughtful, competitive, adventurous. A person who loves to smile, laugh, travel, dance, go on roller coasters, listen to music, watch movies, watch television, study languages. A girl who loves her Italian host family, her friends, her crazy family, to meet new people, live for the future, and enjoy her present. I want a big family and get married, but not before the age of 27 and I’m a person with a lot of hopes and dreams. I guess this pretty much describes who I am. There’s a lot I probably can’t think of right now, or simply haven’t figured out yet, but this is a good start.

As a freshman my greatest concerns are my grades, and having the time to get involved. I’m really good at convincing myself to put things off until it is 3 am and my assignment is due in just hours. It was a continuing cycle in high school and there were times when I didn’t do my work all together. But my grade always remained high somehow. That’ll be one of the biggest differences between high school and college. In college you can’t bullshit your way to a good grade. A’s are obtained through sweat and tears, and I fully expect to shed a few tears. Time is very valuable; it was endless in high school, but not anymore. In high school I had all the time in the world to join a long list of clubs as well as run my own. Now, I feel as if I don’t even have time to sit and have lunch. Which brings me to my second concern; I need to find the time to get involved with the school. Clubs and organizations, made my high school experience as memorable as it was. I met great friends, attended fun events, and experienced being at the top of an exclusive club. I had a great time getting involved and I just hope that I find a way to do the same at Baruch.