LC 10

Baruch, as I mentioned a few times, was never a dream but definitely a start. Coming in I was determined to transfer out but now not so much. Not because I think more of the school but more because I’m not sure that transferring would be a wise decision. Tuition is great in comparison to most colleges. I also have no idea where I would go, and Baruch has a great reputation. One of the things that I was not looking forward to was having my schedule picked out but now that I’m trying to figure out my spring semester schedule, I have an appreciation for it. Don’t tell anyone but I also really like our LC class.

So how do I think I’m doing this semester? Hmmm Well I’m aiming for a couple of A’s. I’ve been very inconsistent in communications, and music is retarded on so many different levels.

I wouldn’t do much differently during my first semester except perhaps been a little more focused at building a better work ethic. I leave everything for the last minute and my problem is that I take things way too laid back. I never freak out until the last minute which is why I manage to put my assignments off for so long.

I don’t think I’ve changed since I started at Baruch. I’m always the same old me 🙂

MY FISRT SEMESTER EXPERIENCE AT BARUCH LIVED UP TO MY EXPECTATIONS ALTHOUGH SOMETIMES I FEEL THAT THIS ISN’T A COLLEGE BECAUSE IT’S RIGHT IN THE HEART OF NEW YORK CITY. THIS SEMESTER WENT BY REALLY FAST AND I THOUGHT IT WAS GREAT. HONESTLY I’LL MISS THE LC BECAUSE IT REALLY HELP ME I GUESS BOND WITH A GROUP OF PEOPLE AND WE WORK TOGETHER TO GET A’s. NON LC PEOPLE PROBABLY CAN’T DO THAT!

IF I COULD DO SOMETHING DIFFERENT IN MY FIRST SEMESTER IT WOULD BE BECOMING A PEER MENTOR! I DIDN’T KNOW ABOUT THAT FREAKING DEADLINE BUT IT DON’T MATTER IF I GOT THE INTERVIEW, I’D GUARANTEED THE JOB BUT, W.E GOOD LUCK TO THOSE WHO DID ATTEMPT TO BECOME ONE.

COLLEGE DIDN’T REALLY CHANGE ME MUCH, I AM STILL THAT SAME OUTGOING FRIENDLY PERSON. AND CONGRATS TO EVERYONE BECAUSE WE’RE ALMOST DONE THIS SEMESTER!!!!

“Spero che vada bene se parlo in italiano, non e un problema, no?… Vabbe, allora… a già si parlava della scuola. Insomma, e una scuola bellissima che funziona bene… oh almeno lo sembra. E poi si vede cosi tanta bella varietà. In questa classe ci sono almeno persone di sette nazionalità diverse, russo, indiano, spagnolo, cinese, africano, europeo… vabbe’ italiano. Eh poi, ah le classi… insomma ci piacciono abbastanza a tutti le classi, no? Vediamo che c’è… Inglese, Matematica, Public Speaking, quella di Communications, poi… quale altra… musica. Allora ci abbiamo tutti I professori. Sono abbastanza bravi quasi tutti… Inglese, vabbe, a parte quello che è successo oggi, tutto apposto. Matematica, lui e molto bravo a insegnare, e io oh quattro dieci e un dodici, voto perfetto. Public speaking e quello… che parla una voce tutta cosi, alta! Un giorno ero nel corridoio accanto la nostra classe mentre insegnava è sentivo lui insegnando dal dentro la classe, con porte chiuse! Quella di communications, va be’ non ci piace a tutti, ma ci insegna le basi giuste. E poi, l’ultimo, Musica! Ma quando mai… questo qua fa’ pisolare la classe dai, che rottura, e poi non ci insegna neanche mai niente in maniera chiara ohh. OK, a già giusto, e anche voi. Siete tutti e due dei buon’ professori. Grazie per avermi ascolto chiacchierare in italiano, ora mi rimetto a sedere.”

Monologue

Since I cannot find what I originally wrote I will just write about myself.

Who am I?
Well my english name is John Seo but my birth name is Jiwon Seo. I am usually kind, and an extrovert. I love making new friends and I love interacting with them too. There are times when I make silly jokes that may get out of hands but I usually like to make people laugh. However, from time to times when I’m laughing among my friends I cannot seem to tell if they are laughing with me or AT me because of something that I had said. But overall I’m a cheerful fellow. I do not like studying but when I really have to I do, and usually study for a long time to make up for the studying that I regularly did not do. I like to play games and watch korean dramas. Specific games I play are counter-strike, DotA, and Diablo 2. Even though I am a college student, I still play these games because I can never grow out of them. People may call me childish for playing such games but I am just being who I am. To conclude my monologue I always try to be myself and not to try to be someone else to impress someone because I like me as the way I am right now and nothing can change that fact.

Hi. My name is Melanie as you probably all know, and as you might remember from English class my last name is Vietnamese, but I’m full Filipino. I don’t really know how to describe myself at all, so I guess I’ll just tell you some basics. I love to laugh, and I’ll find any excuse to laugh. Unfortunately, I tend to laugh extremely hard at inappropriate times (i.e. Ji Won Seo’s story-telling speech in COM 1010). I tend to be really sarcastic a lot of the time, and I get scared very easily (i.e., Murder int he Cathedral). I know this is extremely random, but whatever – I’ve come to really hate tight clothes. I guess it’s because when I go out to eat and I want to stuff myself, at the end of the night I look really unattractive; plus, looser clothes are a lot more comfortable. I really like to eat; I love trying new foods, and I can’t name my favorite cuisine. I’ll eat almost anything, besides pigeon and chicken feet. I try to stay away from spicy foods too, but I love curry and kimchi. I listen to all different kinds of music and last Thursday I went to a Justin Nozuka concert – everything about it was amazing. I love romantic comedies, and comedies in general. I watch Gossip Girl and the Jersey Shore kind of religiously; other than that though, I don’t really watch TV… Ever. I dorm at 101 Ludlow, and it’s been fun so far. College has been alright. To be honest, it still feels like summer for me – school is only four days a week, there isn’t much work to do besides reading, and I still get to hang out with my friends a lot. I’m glad I’m in a learning community. It’s nice seeing familiar faces in every class and it’s helped me make friends. It really is nice to go to the same people for homework and whatnot. A lot of people say it’s like high school, but at Townsend nobody really asked anyone for help with the homework. Anyway, I feel like this is getting long so I’ll end it here.

All of our free writes have been about ourselves and expressing ourselves. I find it almost impossible to describe myself and my feelings accurately, but I think maybe If I draw it out detective style I’ll be able to discover a definition of who I am. So I figure I have two main versions of myself. One is me at home with my family. With them I’m dependent, I’m a son, a brother and I’m the youngest. I rely on them to teach me and guide me through life and so I act differently there then when I’m out in the wild. This would be the second version of me. It’s the land of independence, consisting of here in Baruch or throughout the city with friends or essentially anywhere that’s not home. Here I need to watch out for myself, and provide food and entertainment all on my own. So maybe if I compare these two versions of myself, I can find a connection between them and realize who I truly am. But nothing obvious really jumps out at me. This ain’t no Clark Kent takes his glasses off and he’s superman connection, no this secret must be more hidden in the dark. I suppose now I have to find some out of the way, extraneous, connection to tie this all together. Perhaps by looking deep within myself the real me will appear from the darkness and confusion. All of this thinking has led me to only one logical conclusion.

I’m Batman!

Its been almost two months now into college here at baruch, and it’s really going fast. I feel like i basically know what its like being a college student, how different it is from high school. In college, i definitely have to study more and do my work not just the night before at 12 am. i’ve been doing my best to do that and i still need to get even better at it if i’m gonna be successful here at baruch. I want to do well in school not only for myself, but for my parents to be proud of me. My family means a lot to me, and they do whatever they can to help me out. I need to show them their time and effort on me isn’t going to waste. I’m motivated to do well because i want the people who mean the most to me in life to be proud of me. I definitely look up to my dad. I see the way he lives his life and i know he didn’t get there without hard work for years and years. My favorite thing to do is to watch football. Sundays are the best, there’s football on tv all day long. It’s hard for me to do a lot of work on sundays because I’m constantly watching.

From high school to college, it has been a huge change. From a small high school with a graduating class of around 200 to this abundantly populated Baruch. From little diversity to on of the most diverse colleges. Everything was new to me, the city environment, the commute, and the people. At first it was a little confusing and just a lot to take in at once that I didn’t know what to think of it. Now having experienced it for a while, I still don’t know what to think of it, all I know is it’s different. Sometimes it’s fun and exiting, but other times it’s dull. I don’t like the hours of my classes and I don’t like going home right after school and still getting home late. Sometimes I can’t help but think of how i miss High School, maybe not as much of the school part, but the people. I try and talk to my friends from High School frequently though. I also can’t help but think of what if? what if I went away? I talk to some of my friends that went away and I hear in the background people laughing, playing games, and having fun. Also, the main reason I chose Baruch was for its renowned business school and my parents were pushing me to be an accountant. Meanwhile, I have no idea what I want to do, so naturally I doubt my decision, and think if I would have been better off going to a more rounded school.

I can’t seem to find my initial monologue, I’ll start fresh I guess..

I don’t know what to do with my life, it doesn’t bother me much but it freaks my family out. Ideally I should have figured this out already, in fact I should be actively pursuing some sort of goal in some field, that is not so. It isn’t exciting to plan things out anyway. I don’t know where the next 4 years will take me in Baruch, but I know that these last few weeks have been different, sweet and sour, and much more demanding compared to H.S. Its been repeated again and again, but seriously the commute sucks. Where it took me 20 minutes to get to h.s, it takes me 3 times as much to get to Baruch. On the bright side, the environment is more exciting. The profs. seem okay but they seem at par with h.s teachers, not much different. The pace is faster though, which isn’t so bad. The best and worst part about this semester is probably the breaks, it really stretches the day. SO Baruch is a mixture of good and bad, hopefully the bad will in time subside. Hoping for some breakthroughs in the future but not planning it, what happens next? Gotta wait and find out!

I came to Baruch with a negative attitude. I didn’t think it was the school for me, and I still don’t think it is. At this point it is about making the best out of a given situation. I’m use to knowing what I want, how I’m going to get it, and doing it. College has taken that away from me it makes me very frustrated. I’m a very decisive person and I recently find myself being the exact opposite as well as very insecure. Almost all my friends think I’m a rock because I’m not affectionate and never say “I love you”, and I don’t. The only person I say “I love you” to, every single day, multiple times a day, is my mom. It’s just one of those things that go unsaid with me. If I love you, you should know it and not need it to be said out loud. Maybe I’ll grow out of this. I also never really take anything to heart and I can’t keep grudges. This was proven last year when I experience the worse betrayal and a couple of weeks later I talked to the bitch as if nothing happened and wrote nothing but good things in her yearbook and I wasn’t fake about it either. Let’s go back to Baruch and wrap this up. Although I’m not the happiest person at the school it’s a lot better then it was in the beginning. I really like our LC and especially the friendship I’ve built with the three other crazy bitches in our class (yall know who they are).