I’d like to think that I’m unique, but then again, we’re all unique because no two people are the same. I haven’t quite figured out who I am or who I want to be but I do know that I’m well on my way. There isn’t one specific word that I would use to describe myself because I honestly don’t think I’d ever be able to make up my mind. I’m extremely indecisive and I have the attention span of a walnut so I really wouldn’t be able to sit down and think of one. I’ve been told that I’m blunt yet considerate, opinionated yet open-minded, tough yet sensitive, and closed yet outgoing. I know that right now it may just seem like I’m contradicting myself but I’d have to agree that all of those adjectives, together, are a good place to start describing who I am.
I have a lot of concerns in regards to my Freshman Year at Baruch. My first would be achieving and maintaining a 4.0 GPA. I know that that’s near impossible, but a girl can dream, can’t she? I feel like having a high GPA, especially this year, would really seal the deal on my future because I’m hoping to transfer out of Baruch. I need to do this for myself and for my parents because I want them to be proud of me, I want to give them something to brag about, and I feel that the best way for me to do that is to transfer to Binghamton and get into the business school there. My second major concern would be procrastination and time management. It has always been hard for me to push myself to start my work on time although this is also a major problem for most other students as well. I know that in order for me to achieve my 4.0 GPA, I would have to attack this problem head on. My third concern would be my ability to come out of my shell and making new friends. Ever since high school, I’ve always been told that I’m extremely outgoing and fun to be around. I’ve never found it hard to socialize and make new friends. But lately, I feel that it’s getting harder and harder for me to come out and just open up to new people. I’m not sure why but I hope that this problem will go away as soon as I fully adjust to the Baruch environment.
So far, Baruch is on a whole different playing field than Brooklyn Tech. I kept hearing that Baruch would just be a bigger version of high school since so many of my former classmates were coming here as well. Right off the bat, I noticed that it really didn’t make a difference because the school is large enough that I rarely run into them, although I’d love to. That’s one of the main differences between the two schools; in Tech it felt nice to see familiar faces everywhere I went but in Baruch I feel so alone at times because everybody seems to be doing their own thing and there’s just not enough time to slow down and say hello. Another big difference is that there are so many more resources here are at Baruch than there were in high school, I like the fact that it’s so easy to get access to a computer. On the bright side, a larger school also means that there are more opportunities. I’m able to take advantage of more clubs, more diversity, and more connections.
I think that my first year at Baruch will greatly change me, especially in terms of my work ethics. I’ve never really had to push myself at much but I know that I will have to this year if I plan on have a successful career. This year will shape me because I will have to shed my bad habits and develop better ones that will undoubtedly help me later on in life. I hope that this first year will set me on the right track to success.
