“Who’s that girl I see staring straight back at me.”
October 18, 2010 by Ari
Everything I hear and see always ends up relating back to a song, hence the title.
After doing the monologue, I don’t really see myself differently. I see everyone else differently. At first, I thought I’d be all confident and I would run through it easily; however, I never have to really open up in front of people. Reading my monologue made me vulnerable. I had to be honest and sincere, but still felt the need to keep an “image” of idk what.
What I did like about the monologues excersize was that I got to find out a lot more about all the other kids in my LC. I realized a lot of us are really self concious, but I believe that as we grow closer as an actual community and not a group of cliques, we’ll feel comfortable enough around each other that we feel free to be ourselves fully.
I feel like so far I’ve developed so much from where I was before college started. Socially, it’s still kind of a challege. I feel like everyone is in their own cliques, and as much as they may say “you’re more than welcome to join us”, I still feel like my prescence is an imposition. I also feel like I’ve changed in maturity because most people I actually speak to in school are significantly older than me, but they still speak to me like I’m at their level. That makes me feel nice because I know I can carry myself amongst adults. Although I feel comfortable with the LC, I’m not sure if I really feel like I’ve made friends, but we have the rest of the semester to work on that.
Anywayssss….
One Response to ““Who’s that girl I see staring straight back at me.””
The monologue makes you vulnerable because we aren’t used to speaking about ourselves. It’s always giving a presentation on a subject & as long as we know our material we’re confident that we’ll do well enough.
Through the course of your time in college dont be afraid to open up; try hanging out with different kinds of people – you’ll find that one person you can hang with.
Dont be so quick to tell people your age – thats something I learned last year. I was 19yrs old when I first started my job as an Executive Assistant at a luxury sports and fitness club. Since I have those days that I look like I’m 10 years old – EVERYONE asked my age when I started & I answered real quick. But one day my boss overheard me & said: “dont be so quick on answering that question. Make them guess – hear their answer & say close. It’s no one’s business anyways.”
You don’t need to find a best friend right away – just learn to have acquaintances that you can call up for anything.
At every job I’ve always been the youngest but because I carried myself the way that I did no one knew whether I was 17 or 24.