LC 14

hm..My name is Karxan Cao. It’s pronounced Carzan Cow and I really don’t like my name. I plan on changing it later on through the years. Everyone who knows me would think I’m an outgoing person, a person who LOVES to laugh at EVERYTHING, funny girl, bubbly, and very slow at times. In my opinion, I think I’m just a person who wants to live my life and be who I want to be. There are many moments in my life where I smile or I laugh just because I don’t want the people around me to worry about me being upset or sad. It’s true I have problems and I go through a lot of issues but I choose not to show it. I think I’m a type of person who doesn’t want others to know I’m upset or feeling down because I don’t want them to feel down either. If I had to chose between many friends or a few close friends I’ll chose a few close friends beecause I prefer true friendship over hi and bye friends. In my life I have many close friends that I trust. You can say (well people do say) I’m very naive and I tend to forgive and trust people too fast. In the end, I’m going to be the one that gets hurt. I admit I’m a hypocrite sometimes because their are many times in my life I said stuff but I did it one point in my life. I realized it’s not about me being a hypocrite, but its about the fact that I don’t want others to make the same mistake. I tend to tell people my feelings and eventually it leads to goosip. So in the end I keep everything to myself unless I feel like it’s necessary to say something to the ones I trust. Out of all my friends I only told two people everything in my life; my best friend and this guy I’m really close to. Ultimately, I’m a type of person who want others to be happy first, then its me. I would go all out to make the people around me happy. I love to talk, so I’m a talker but I also listen to everyone’s problems; maybe that’s why everyone talks to me. I can be tomboyish at times but other than that I’m a girl who just wants to have fun. I make friends very easily and I tend to talk nonstop about everything. It is very easy to pick on me because all you need to say is one word; short. I am a christian and although sometimes I don’t act like one, I love God with all of my heart. Humans perception of christians are different amongst different people. But I feel like even though I’m a christian, it doesn’t mean I can’t curse, or have fun like go drinking, partying, etc. I’m a hardworking person and I can be serious at times, but most of the time I tend to be naive, immature, and looking like a 14 year old kid.

My first main concern about my freshman year at Baruch is time management. I realize time management is hard and tough and it’s something I want to achieve throughout college. Things like hanging out, church and relaxation can draw me back from the work that’s needed to be done. Another concern about my freshman year are the grades I will be receiving. I can’t say I am trying my hardest, but I’m definetly not being lazy. Managing everything at once is hard but I don’t think I want to give up yet. To tell you the truth, I don’t know my third concern because so far college seems to be fun it’s just the work and my two concerns above. Other than that, college seems to be fine so far.

Baruch College is way different than high school. In high school, homework was not necessary and you could cut whenever you want. It was so easy to skip classes, and the teachers are so cool that they don’t even care. But in Baruch, I must go to classes because I realize we have to pay for college so we should take advantage of everything that’s being offered. Also in college, the professors expect you to go talk to them rather in high school the teachers approaches you. I rather like college because I’m more independent and it’s a more mature life where I can have fun but also work hard in something I would want to be in the near future.

I think the first year of college won’t change me at all. As of right now, I’m still naive, young, immature and “still in high school” while in reality it’s college and I should step up my game. I think college would be the starting point of me getting connections for things further on into the future. Eventually, I think I’ll change into someone who’s more mature and I’ll change not only mentally but physically and emotionally as well.