LC 14

It’s unfortunate that other LCs didn’t take the STARR Workshop seriously because I found it to be one of the most helpful workshops I’ve sat through since starting Baruch. Especially in this economy, finding a job is nearly impossible without proper preparation. There were so many things I didn’t know about the job application process that I learned at the workshop, like sending the employer a thank-you note. Its reassuring to know that we have the resources of the STARR Center to help us be the best that we can when applying for a job.

Hii,

To be honest, I really didn’t get much out of that workshop. Partly because I wasn’t listening, partly because when I was I couldn’t hear/understand much of what they were saying. But what I did understand was the emphasis on one’s personal journey to finding themselves. One of the teachers who spoke mentioned that college was the perfect forum for self-discovery, and I couldn’t agree more. I have already learned so much about who I am and who I want to become.

Maybe I can write down my journey to self-discovery and turn it into a book. TOTALLY KIDDING! I’m sure my journey won’t be as interesting and captivating as Charles Li’s. But that’s okay; my journey will captivate me and the people who will see me grow as an adult.

It’s amazing though to think about how every decision you make, no matter how big or little, will shape who you are and who you will become. It’s something to keep in mind…

Yeah, yeah, I know it’s a lame title…I’m bored xD

I believe that the second workshop is pretty helpful, considering STARR’s wide range of services. I definitely will find the mock interview helpful when the time comes, because I’m bad at those. I also never knew about the second type of resume nor the “thank you” note for post-interviews. The slideshow, I believe, could have gone a little bit slower so that I could read what it’s actually saying, but it’s not bad either ^^ No doubt, I will be using STARR in the future, especially when I’m about to graduate. Even now, counseling about future classes to take won’t hurt.

To be honest, I was a little dazed because I was still sick during the 1st workshop. But I do remember Charles Li talking about finding your identity. It is hard to find your true self when you are going through so many things, especially if you’re moving from China to the U.S. like Charles Li did. He also talked about remembering what reality is about. Not everything would be just the way you wanted it to be, so accept it. ^^ I felt glad that Li Na was able to achieve what he wanted in life. It took him a while to get to this point, but I’m sure it was worth the trip. The other commentators also stressed on the importance of finding your own self. There is no sense in trying to change yourself to suit others, just be yourself and everything will work out. There’s no need to stress about what other people think of you.

I think the career enrichment workshop was somewhat helpful. I already knew what to except for interviews and how to write resumes but i like the flyers that were handed out. I think I have a better understanding of what the STARR Career Development Center can help me with after hearing them talk. I will definitely go there for career counseling because i have no idea what i want to do when i get out of college or even what to major or minor in.

I honestly can say that my life is too easy compared to what Charles Li went through in his life. I really enjoyed reading his book The Bitter Sea. When I saw him in person, I was really happy. If I just saw him on the street without knowing who he is, I would have never pictured his life to be as though as it was, he looked like such a nice and happy guy. I idolize him and think he is an amazing person that lived a very exciting but hard life. I guess what he has gone through helped shape who he is. I’m glad that he succeeded in life and now that he’s retired from being a dean of the University of California, maybe he can enjoy his life.

I’m a very easy person to talk to. Some may say I’m funny, slow, gullible, bubbly or even retarded. Five weeks ago, we entered a new school so it’s time for me to make new friends and adapt to a new lifestyle. Honestly I can say college is tough. In a way I’m also a very busy person. Every Saturday and Sundays I spend my days at church not just because I have to but because I love God. Sometimes I think to myself: I don’t really miss high school. I have more independence and more time to do whatever I enjoy. I love to talk and sometimes I get carried away in talking I never notice people around me don’t listen to me. I get less than five hours of sleep every night and I’ve been behind on everything because I have problems I need to deal with. It’s very easy for me to tell somebody my problems but it’s very hard to solve it. To tell you the truth, I’m not very good in English and I hate writing essays. College will be tough but I know I can go through it with the help of the people around me. The weather is getting colder and I’m in need to shop. Winter is my least favorite season and I really hope it would pass by quickly. I tend to get picked on quite a lot, maybe because I’m short and slow at time. But in the end I don’t mind cause I am who I am. 😀

Post Monologue: I felt like I became more open and who I really am because I’m closer to the people around me. Also I feel like everyone around me is so nice and they make me become a better student by studying and guiding me through college work. Also I opened myself up when I spoke about my Monologue because I love to talk and I just say what I have to say.

Lately i don’t know what to do anymore college life is hard for me because i don’t seem to be able to manage my time. yet i know i’m able to handle college work its just iv’e been making bad decisions. This month has been a struggle, i feel as if i’m constantly overloaded with schoolwork and general assignments that must be done. I feel as if my life has been flooded with opportunities and i haven’t been able to make the most of them, i always mess up.
When i was younger i used to be in awe when i would see a business man , i grew attached to the fact that they are respectable members, had status, were knowledgeable and i feel like they did what they could to get ahead and make the most of their lives. They are alive, they are living their lives just the way they want to. My father all my life alway made me work and thought me to be ambitious and earn everything in life myself. That you’re in full control in how you live your life. No one is to blame.
If their is one thing i fear its loneliness, i don’t know why i get attached to people or why i care about little things, i feel like nothing makes my day more than to know someone really put effort to make you happy , or if someone genuinely shows that they care. Unfortunately at times you feel like that doesn’t exist. I feel like no one really appreciates anything anymore, and they don’t see whats right in front of them.
I feel like i might be too emotional, and care about things too deeply and think about things too much. I feel like for those who really know me they want me to “man up”… its kinda makes me sad because i do care about everyone, i don’t like seeing anyone else sad or going through hard times, that mean nothing other than that i just care.
I feel like its hard to find genuine friends, people who care about you for you. The one thing that bothers me always and i think is the most valuable that people overlook is time. Time is the one thing in life we can’t buy, we cant stop, and that highly limited….its like we are only young once, this is the most valuable time of our lives and people don’t take advantage of it. they don’t spend it with the people they love they don’t LIVE there lives with their friends, its almost as if the majority spends their time at home, or in front of a t.v or a computer…they just exist, but they don’t live. Lets say you are wealthy in the future and you are old and looking back your gonna wish you lived your life more, done more, and just took advantage of it…but you can’t you can’t buy time. thats the one thing that really scares me, I just want to be able to be old and look back and smile and know i lived my life the way i wanted to , to just be happy.

Post Monologue: i feel as if i need to do my best to improve myself. and that i need to balance my life and that i need to do the most with the little time i have , schoolwork and socially. and when i comes to how i feel in general i need to just grow numb and live life know nothing is perfect. but i,m always gonna try to see the best in people and always hope for better things. I feel like everyone has stuff in their lives that bother them no one is much different. Everyone just wants to be happy.

College college college. It’s a lot different.  I have to work on my time management.  The semester is still young, so I still have time.  I kind of miss high school, well I just mean my old routine.  I spent so much less time at school than I did now, and I was used to the my environment.  I’ve grown up, more ready for college and responsibility, but not all the way there.  I miss my summer, where it was more care-free and I didn’t have to do homework.  I miss those slow days, where I could do as much as I wanted or as little as I wanted.  But now I’m in college, doing my best to do well in classes, trying figure things out.  When people ask me where I go to school, I don’t even think of my high school first anymore, but Baruch.  Or I could say what my cousin said, I go to UCLA.  University on the Corner of Lexington Avenue.  It’s not that funny, but at least it gets all of those funny stares when people ask you where you are going to college.

Post-monologue I feel the same for the most part, I’m glad my LC liked my monologue.  That was my fear going into reciting the monologue, people might think that it was terrible.  I don’t see myself differently, I felt the monologue was a representation of me and I still feel like me.

I’m really a big kid at heart

It has been over a month that i have attended Baruch now. I have always been the shy and quiet type and hardly approached new people. Over the past weeks, i have gotten the opportunity to becomes friends with the people in the LC even though i don’t talk that often. Moving to baruch was a new experience to me because in the past, my friends and i would attend the same school together, but college opened to new doors beyond the city. I liked the idea of an LC because it has allowed me to see the different life that other people live and how it is so different from my own life.

Post Monologue i see myself trying to talk more. Regarding school work, i can tell i am starting to fall behind and i need to get more rest.

Freshmen seminar allowed me to interact with other classmates and to share things that are happening in our lives. The free writing sessions allowed me to take note of what i had in mind and it truly allowed myself to look back at what happened during that week and what worries i had. Overall, freshmen seminar is a great place for freshman, like myself, to take a break from our academic courses and really enjoy the community.

I’m just a shy boy…and i do turn red when i’m nervous ><“