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When I started college this fall, I started a new stage in my life that meant a lot of change was coming. For one, I was definitely growing up and forever putting my childhood days behind me. Now I feel like I have to be mature all the time and have my focus for my future clear. All that could be overwhelming and some days I feel like there are a ton of bricks being piled on top of me one. This makes me afraid of the things that lay ahead. On the one hand I’m excited about graduating college, and being self-sufficient. On the other, I want to rewind time or maybe just slow it down a little. Just the other day, I remember walking into the new halls of my highschool as a freshman student. And four years later I’m here again.  I don’t want to get so caught up that I forget to enjoy life and remember all the important things like friends and family and love. Lately, I feel like I am always running out of time. I guess that’s just something I have to get used to. Anyway, I admit to being nervous but I am mostly excited.

so its been really hectic trying to manage everything, but I think I can deal with it. 🙂 I like the clubs so far. But I feel like I should be doing something productive. Like a businesses sorority..(or not) Coming to Baruch… I dont regret my decisions but still I feel like the opportunities are very limited here. I felt proud– first of all, when I got into colleges..which I highly doubted during my last semesters.  I was concerned with the whole “college” thing– I knew that my experiences in high school havenot prepared me enough. In some classes I feel like Im behind..already; hmm.. OH  “Learning Communities” is a very good idea. I feel that the friends i met here will be the ones that i would end up going to. 😛

After Monologues: I don’t feel any different, but I did learn what other people were thinking 🙂 which I related to alot. Freshman Seminar is …good.. for freshmans.. 😛 I learned of all the different things I wasn’t aware of.

Being in college is currently enjoyable. Being thing about college is the freedom. Freedom to choose your class and teachers, freedom from being told what to do. This new-found freedom makes me more responsible. I hate listening to other people telling me what to do, i like deciding for myself whether it is necessary or helpful for me to do it. Being taught by actual intellectuals is a nice change of pace. In highschool most teachers lacked the intelligence needed to understand their own material. They just recite what they read in a textbook. I feel that college professors are generally intellectuals for whom i may garner some respect. This makes learning and listening easier as well as more enjoyable. As for the work load it is far easier and less then i was led to believe in H.S. The work is overestimated compared to what i had in my AP classes in highschool. However the material is more challenging as well as we have to learn more in one month of college then in 4 months of highschool. Im enjoyign and having fun i ncollege atm.

a. Nothing new. I dislike talking about myself and nothing can change that. Still see myself exactly the same, nothing else i can add to this

b. No change… nope… nothing at all… is there supposed to be a change? if there is im quite lost on where exactly we should have changed. Still exactly the same as i was in my senior year of highschool.

c. Karsa Orlong, from Malazan: Book of the Fallen, a character i like and respect and feel like i can compare and relate to him. An extremely sneaky and clever character who carries demons with him wherever he goes. He believes himself a monster but he always manages to do the right thing and fights on the right side. It is him against the world and he always ends up winning. He is a huge braggart but he always manages to back his words up. He doesnt care who he pisses off because, in his eyes, hes the best there is and no one can stop or hold him down.

Karsa Orlong

I don’t like talking about myself.

I like the fact that I’m honest with people, but it can also be a flaw.

My favorite quote is “I give myself very good advice, but I very seldom follow it.”-Alice in Wonderland

I don’t like how shy I am at times and hate regretting not taking the initiative to do something I wish I had. I believe it’s better to do something and regret it than not have done it at all.

I felt empowered when I was lead attorney in Mock Trial and won my case.

An embarrassing moment is when I was on a date with a guy and he went to kiss me and my nose started bleeding.

Often when I sit in this class I need to pee, think about all the work I need to do, and I wonder why a certain boy hasn’t BBMed me.

I need to learn time management better.

I feel really stupid and like I won’t be able to handle the work. I’ve never had this much work in my life. I’m freaking out.

Being successful in life is important to be.

I’m an extremely competitive person and when I don’t achieve exactly what I want I get frustrated and rather just give up entirely, which causes me to be disappointed in myself and let myself down because I know I can do better.

Post-monologue, I see that other people in my block feel exactly the same as I do. So it comforts me knowing I’m not alone in feeling overwhelmed.  Freshman Seminar has helped me developed in managing my time and showing me the resources in Baruch I can utilize to help me with what I’m struggling in, such as going to SACC for help in calc.

I still see myself as a kid

The first five weeks of college have been…interesting. There is so much reading to do all the time. I feel like I’m being punished for not reading anything in high school. I’m falling into a pattern again. Doing everything last minute has got to change soon. And what’s up with Professor Friedman?! His laugh is so creepy. And Professor Staub is just awesome. Everything seems to be going along well. I’m having a good time. I do miss my old friends. I’m accustomed to just saying what is on my mind and…. with these guys nothing has changed. I’m comfortable enough to speak my mind already. I didn’t think that this would be the case after leaving high school. After only being in a class of 100 kids for four years I thought nothing could ever compare to that. Count me as surprised. I already find myself looking out for them as though I’ve known them for years. Maybe I’m just imagining it to be like this because I’m afraid to accept change. Or maybe this block is just plain, freaking awesome. Seeing as a lot of kids from my high school come to Baruch, I thought I would be hanging out with them a lot more than the new people I meet. But I managed to not have any classes with any of my high school friends. I look at it as a blessing in disguise. I might not have gotten to know these people so well. And as I look back to June 11^th, trying to decide between the Japanese Block or the Writing and The Law Block…well let’s just say I’m really happy that I didn’t pick the Japanese Block.

I don’t really see a difference in myself after reading my monologue. I see myself in the same light as I described in my monologue. I’ve come to better understand my peers in Freshman Seminar. When we had to choose if it was ethical or not, I saw a side of some people that I didn’t know was there. Not saying it was a bad thing; it was interesting.

I think that if you work hard toward you dream, then

Anything is possible 🙂

(Nate Robinson 5’9″, Dwight Howard 6’11”)

I wish I could dunk 🙁

I never have anything to say.  I’m addicted to bad ideas.  I’m a mediocre artist.  Being able to express myself through art is very important to me.  My friends and family are also very important to me.  So is succeeding, but not as much.  I’m an underachieving overachiever.  Making someone genuinely smile, and listening to piano music makes me happy.  Flying down a snow covered mountain without a care in the world also makes me happy.  On school related things, I need to learn how to study, instead of opening the textbook and not looking at it at all.  I also need to learn how to manage my time better because I waste a lot of my time playing my DS, watching television or going online, rather than doing homework.

Post monologue, I don’t really see myself in any different than how I had saw myself before the monologue.  I’m still the same person as I was before the monologue, though I am glad that I have gotten over it because I really dislike being the center of attention.   I feel like Freshman Seminar has helped me to become a little more open about myself because on my personal blog I’ve posted things that I don’t think I normally would have.

Usually, I just try to make the most of everything.  Also, Calvin & Hobbes is an amazing comic.