LC 14

I’m a very easy person to talk to. Some may say I’m funny, slow, gullible, bubbly or even retarded. Five weeks ago, we entered a new school so it’s time for me to make new friends and adapt to a new lifestyle. Honestly I can say college is tough. In a way I’m also a very busy person. Every Saturday and Sundays I spend my days at church not just because I have to but because I love God. Sometimes I think to myself: I don’t really miss high school. I have more independence and more time to do whatever I enjoy. I love to talk and sometimes I get carried away in talking I never notice people around me don’t listen to me. I get less than five hours of sleep every night and I’ve been behind on everything because I have problems I need to deal with. It’s very easy for me to tell somebody my problems but it’s very hard to solve it. To tell you the truth, I’m not very good in English and I hate writing essays. College will be tough but I know I can go through it with the help of the people around me. The weather is getting colder and I’m in need to shop. Winter is my least favorite season and I really hope it would pass by quickly. I tend to get picked on quite a lot, maybe because I’m short and slow at time. But in the end I don’t mind cause I am who I am. 😀

Post Monologue: I felt like I became more open and who I really am because I’m closer to the people around me. Also I feel like everyone around me is so nice and they make me become a better student by studying and guiding me through college work. Also I opened myself up when I spoke about my Monologue because I love to talk and I just say what I have to say.

Lately i don’t know what to do anymore college life is hard for me because i don’t seem to be able to manage my time. yet i know i’m able to handle college work its just iv’e been making bad decisions. This month has been a struggle, i feel as if i’m constantly overloaded with schoolwork and general assignments that must be done. I feel as if my life has been flooded with opportunities and i haven’t been able to make the most of them, i always mess up.
When i was younger i used to be in awe when i would see a business man , i grew attached to the fact that they are respectable members, had status, were knowledgeable and i feel like they did what they could to get ahead and make the most of their lives. They are alive, they are living their lives just the way they want to. My father all my life alway made me work and thought me to be ambitious and earn everything in life myself. That you’re in full control in how you live your life. No one is to blame.
If their is one thing i fear its loneliness, i don’t know why i get attached to people or why i care about little things, i feel like nothing makes my day more than to know someone really put effort to make you happy , or if someone genuinely shows that they care. Unfortunately at times you feel like that doesn’t exist. I feel like no one really appreciates anything anymore, and they don’t see whats right in front of them.
I feel like i might be too emotional, and care about things too deeply and think about things too much. I feel like for those who really know me they want me to “man up”… its kinda makes me sad because i do care about everyone, i don’t like seeing anyone else sad or going through hard times, that mean nothing other than that i just care.
I feel like its hard to find genuine friends, people who care about you for you. The one thing that bothers me always and i think is the most valuable that people overlook is time. Time is the one thing in life we can’t buy, we cant stop, and that highly limited….its like we are only young once, this is the most valuable time of our lives and people don’t take advantage of it. they don’t spend it with the people they love they don’t LIVE there lives with their friends, its almost as if the majority spends their time at home, or in front of a t.v or a computer…they just exist, but they don’t live. Lets say you are wealthy in the future and you are old and looking back your gonna wish you lived your life more, done more, and just took advantage of it…but you can’t you can’t buy time. thats the one thing that really scares me, I just want to be able to be old and look back and smile and know i lived my life the way i wanted to , to just be happy.

Post Monologue: i feel as if i need to do my best to improve myself. and that i need to balance my life and that i need to do the most with the little time i have , schoolwork and socially. and when i comes to how i feel in general i need to just grow numb and live life know nothing is perfect. but i,m always gonna try to see the best in people and always hope for better things. I feel like everyone has stuff in their lives that bother them no one is much different. Everyone just wants to be happy.

College college college. It’s a lot different.  I have to work on my time management.  The semester is still young, so I still have time.  I kind of miss high school, well I just mean my old routine.  I spent so much less time at school than I did now, and I was used to the my environment.  I’ve grown up, more ready for college and responsibility, but not all the way there.  I miss my summer, where it was more care-free and I didn’t have to do homework.  I miss those slow days, where I could do as much as I wanted or as little as I wanted.  But now I’m in college, doing my best to do well in classes, trying figure things out.  When people ask me where I go to school, I don’t even think of my high school first anymore, but Baruch.  Or I could say what my cousin said, I go to UCLA.  University on the Corner of Lexington Avenue.  It’s not that funny, but at least it gets all of those funny stares when people ask you where you are going to college.

Post-monologue I feel the same for the most part, I’m glad my LC liked my monologue.  That was my fear going into reciting the monologue, people might think that it was terrible.  I don’t see myself differently, I felt the monologue was a representation of me and I still feel like me.

I’m really a big kid at heart

It has been over a month that i have attended Baruch now. I have always been the shy and quiet type and hardly approached new people. Over the past weeks, i have gotten the opportunity to becomes friends with the people in the LC even though i don’t talk that often. Moving to baruch was a new experience to me because in the past, my friends and i would attend the same school together, but college opened to new doors beyond the city. I liked the idea of an LC because it has allowed me to see the different life that other people live and how it is so different from my own life.

Post Monologue i see myself trying to talk more. Regarding school work, i can tell i am starting to fall behind and i need to get more rest.

Freshmen seminar allowed me to interact with other classmates and to share things that are happening in our lives. The free writing sessions allowed me to take note of what i had in mind and it truly allowed myself to look back at what happened during that week and what worries i had. Overall, freshmen seminar is a great place for freshman, like myself, to take a break from our academic courses and really enjoy the community.

I’m just a shy boy…and i do turn red when i’m nervous ><“

I am a daughter, niece, cousin, granddaughter, and friend. I try to please everyone. I hate when I disappoint someone. When I try my best, it’s sometimes never good enough. I value my education, family, and friends. At the end of the day all I have is those three. I miss my carefree days when all I had to worry about was getting good grads which was easy for me since I learned pretty fast. I miss my childhood evenings where every evening we would go out to play. I miss some of my friendships. I don’t know where, how, or when those friendships ended. Even if I tried to fix it, I guess things will never be the same.

a. I don’t see myself any differently post-monologue.

b. I have been made aware of all the different things Baruch has to offer and I feel that we grew as an LC.

I still see myself as a senior in high school even though graduation was one heck of a bittersweet day.

I see myself as someone who is in need of a lot of things. I know no one is just going to hand it to me. I finally realized that  I need to get my act together and start doing what  I need to do. I guess through freshmen seminar I was able to get to know my classmates a little bit better and learned a lot of things about Baruch.

I want to go home. Why am I still here? It’s not like I hate the people here, they seem to be a nice group of people. I know I have to do well in school, but I lack the motivation to do so. Classes are getting harder, but I find myself to be a slacker. I don’t have a social life here, nor do I get good grades. I guess I’m just a sleeper according to that chart that Ana Lucia showed us. If there is one thing that I truly love, it has to be basketball. That one word could put the biggest smile on my face and make me forget about my problems. Kobe Bryant, my role model. I wouldn’t have an answer for you if you would have asked me the difference between college and high school. Actually in high school I guess I had more of a social life. But that’s about it. Pen to paper. Pen to paper. That’s all that I hear right now. One thing that I truly fear is bugs. Yea. People ask me, how can you be so afraid of bugs? I mean look at me.. I’m a pretty big guy yet I still fear those tiny creatures that fly around. It’s getting better though. I need money. I need a job. I need some friends. I’m a needy guy. I hate being sick. I have a weak immune system. That’s what I hate about myself. But I like the fact that I get sick a lot because then my girlfriend has to come take care of me. Oh, I forgot to introduce myself. My name is Matthew Song.

In the past five weeks, I have gone through at lot of experiences. I was exposed to a whole new type of school social life for one. In high school, I knew everyone. My graduating class was less than two hundred students. At Baruch, there are thousands of students. Although I have met a lot of new people, I still rarely run into anyone I know because there are so many people. I love seeing new faces. It makes me wonder who the people behind these faces really are. This is why I love getting to know new people. Everyone I’ve met at Baruch so far is pretty open about their experiences and interests, which I love hearing about. Meeting new people has definitely been my favorite aspect of college life so far.

Post-monologue I still see myself as the same person, but I’m glad that I got to talk about how much I’ve enjoyed meeting everyone. People don’t get to show their appreciation for meeting someone new too often. I’m glad I got to share that information with some of my newest friends, my peers in LC14.

Free writing has been my main form of development in freshmen seminar. It’s a nice way to talk about the things on your mind. It’s also nice to be guided by questions. This opens your mind to simple questions that you, surprisingly, do not ask yourself as often as you should.

I am a sister, I am an aunt, I am a best friend. I’m a joker, I’m a writer, I’m a thinker. I am complex, but I like the adjective “colorful” better. I’m really comfortable with who I am and with the friendships I’m making. As for my grades, I’ve been working really hard and pushing myself to do well. Although I dropped Calc for pre-calc, I’m still worried about math. Math is really not my subject. I work better with words than with numbers. I like breaking molds and doing what people don’t expect. Most of the girls in my school go to Brooklyn college, but I decided to come here instead. Being “on my own” gives me an opportunity to grow and develop as a person apart from the community I live in. But I miss my friends. I wish I had more time to hang out with them. I wish I had more time for myself too. In college it’s pretty easy to feel lost in the crowd, but I just think of the song “shine on” by The Kooks and I don’t let anything dim my inner shine. I just really I want to have fun!! I’ve had tons of fun so far, and I’m finally starting to get excited about college.

—I’m sort of weird, but I love that about myself. I can ALWAYS make myself laugh 🙂 I think of myself as pretty open to talking about myself. I like to share things, and I like when people share things with me. I liked hearing people’s monologues because it gave me a sense of who they are. Also I realized that a lot of us are struggling with the same problems in college which is very comforting. Freshman seminar kinda taught me that none of us are alone. We’re all going through similar things, so we should all be there for each other. I don’t think Freshman seminar has changed me, I think it just taught me more about my surroundings and has made me more comfortable at Baruch. Is that considered change? I don’t really know lol….

 I loveee being silly! Especially with my friends, we can get reaaaaallly wild lol. We may embarras ourselves at times, but if we’re having fun we don’t really care

My monologue:

HOW’S IT GOING? THANKS FOR ASKING. IT’S OK I SUPPOSE. IF YOU’RE WONDERING WHY I AM WRITING IN CAPS, IT’S BECAUSE I LIKE TO FEEL LIKE I’M YELLING BUT NOT ACTUALLY BE DOING IT. Well, at least I hope I’m funny. People tell me I am. But then again, people always tell you nice stuff at least to your face. I hate the way I treat people sometimes. My family is super super important to me because I owe them so much. I would be nowhere and have no motivation without them. I know that sounds cheesy and stupid but I’m completely serious. I enjoy meeting new people. There’s so many different people here. I love it. Gosh I wanna get better already! I hate colds. I’d rather have a fever than a cold. Cause i can just sleep off fevers then I’m all better. Colds last like 1-2 weeks. It’s torture. FREAKING TORTURE. My personal motto or theme song…Life’s tough, get a helmet. Those are words I live by.

Post monologue: I see myself as sorta weird I guess. I’m kinda random a lot of the time. And as i was listening to all the monologues and writing the free write afterwards, I realized that I laugh at almost everything even if its completely inappropriate. ugh. lol but i just can’t help it. So sorry if i offended everyone by all my laughter. I guess i’ve developed quite nicely in freshman seminar? I like that it gives you a lot of tips about classes cause some of them turn out to be kinda helpful. And i feel like i’ve learned so much more about everybody in LC14. so that’s pretty nice.

I see myself as silly, funny, and i wanna say fun to be around? but maybe i'm not all those things. who knows. and that's my dad btw.