LC 14

I don’t like talking about myself.

I like the fact that I’m honest with people, but it can also be a flaw.

My favorite quote is “I give myself very good advice, but I very seldom follow it.”-Alice in Wonderland

I don’t like how shy I am at times and hate regretting not taking the initiative to do something I wish I had. I believe it’s better to do something and regret it than not have done it at all.

I felt empowered when I was lead attorney in Mock Trial and won my case.

An embarrassing moment is when I was on a date with a guy and he went to kiss me and my nose started bleeding.

Often when I sit in this class I need to pee, think about all the work I need to do, and I wonder why a certain boy hasn’t BBMed me.

I need to learn time management better.

I feel really stupid and like I won’t be able to handle the work. I’ve never had this much work in my life. I’m freaking out.

Being successful in life is important to be.

I’m an extremely competitive person and when I don’t achieve exactly what I want I get frustrated and rather just give up entirely, which causes me to be disappointed in myself and let myself down because I know I can do better.

Post-monologue, I see that other people in my block feel exactly the same as I do. So it comforts me knowing I’m not alone in feeling overwhelmed.  Freshman Seminar has helped me developed in managing my time and showing me the resources in Baruch I can utilize to help me with what I’m struggling in, such as going to SACC for help in calc.

I still see myself as a kid

The first five weeks of college have been…interesting. There is so much reading to do all the time. I feel like I’m being punished for not reading anything in high school. I’m falling into a pattern again. Doing everything last minute has got to change soon. And what’s up with Professor Friedman?! His laugh is so creepy. And Professor Staub is just awesome. Everything seems to be going along well. I’m having a good time. I do miss my old friends. I’m accustomed to just saying what is on my mind and…. with these guys nothing has changed. I’m comfortable enough to speak my mind already. I didn’t think that this would be the case after leaving high school. After only being in a class of 100 kids for four years I thought nothing could ever compare to that. Count me as surprised. I already find myself looking out for them as though I’ve known them for years. Maybe I’m just imagining it to be like this because I’m afraid to accept change. Or maybe this block is just plain, freaking awesome. Seeing as a lot of kids from my high school come to Baruch, I thought I would be hanging out with them a lot more than the new people I meet. But I managed to not have any classes with any of my high school friends. I look at it as a blessing in disguise. I might not have gotten to know these people so well. And as I look back to June 11^th, trying to decide between the Japanese Block or the Writing and The Law Block…well let’s just say I’m really happy that I didn’t pick the Japanese Block.

I don’t really see a difference in myself after reading my monologue. I see myself in the same light as I described in my monologue. I’ve come to better understand my peers in Freshman Seminar. When we had to choose if it was ethical or not, I saw a side of some people that I didn’t know was there. Not saying it was a bad thing; it was interesting.

I think that if you work hard toward you dream, then

Anything is possible 🙂

(Nate Robinson 5’9″, Dwight Howard 6’11”)

I wish I could dunk 🙁

I never have anything to say.  I’m addicted to bad ideas.  I’m a mediocre artist.  Being able to express myself through art is very important to me.  My friends and family are also very important to me.  So is succeeding, but not as much.  I’m an underachieving overachiever.  Making someone genuinely smile, and listening to piano music makes me happy.  Flying down a snow covered mountain without a care in the world also makes me happy.  On school related things, I need to learn how to study, instead of opening the textbook and not looking at it at all.  I also need to learn how to manage my time better because I waste a lot of my time playing my DS, watching television or going online, rather than doing homework.

Post monologue, I don’t really see myself in any different than how I had saw myself before the monologue.  I’m still the same person as I was before the monologue, though I am glad that I have gotten over it because I really dislike being the center of attention.   I feel like Freshman Seminar has helped me to become a little more open about myself because on my personal blog I’ve posted things that I don’t think I normally would have.

Usually, I just try to make the most of everything.  Also, Calvin & Hobbes is an amazing comic.

College is exactly what I expected it to be. The unfamiliar environment, the excessive workload, the apathetic professors, it’s all what my elders warned me about. I like the transition though. It is rather an abrupt one, coming from a year of doing hardly any work at all, but it keeps me on my toes. This independence and adulthood that I get is by far my favorite part about college. It definitely prepares me for the real world, like handling grown up responsibilities, and simply being grown up. I’ve made a good amount of friends already, which is a good start I guess. I’m pretty bad with first impressions though. I’m pretty sure my whole block sees me as this cocky, arrogant, obnoxious, narcissistic and intimidating guy. But I’m really not. Of course, that’s just for you to find out. My grades aren’t in the best shape, but I kind of like that. It gives me a sense of danger and panic that merely motivates me to improve, rather than slack off if I were doing really well. And that of course goes back to my argument in our morality discussion last week, if anyone still wants to argue. Just kidding. Anyways, I’m having a great experience in Baruch, minus the 3 hr commute everyday and my overly strict calculus teacher. I’m thankful for the great people that I DO have in my life, such as my supportive family, loving friends, and my wonderful, amazing, hardworking, peer mentor. I hope to get close to whoever I can, because I’m constantly learning from other people.  I will also try my best to build my character, using any mistakes I make as stepping stones toward my road to success.

After my monologue, I don’t really see myself differently. All I did was express myself, about stuff that I obviously had already known. In freshmen seminar, I have developed my “expressing skills”. Each class we do a free write, which gets stuff off my mind. I honestly feel that that is very beneficial. Not to suck up or anything (I doubt Ana Lucia is reading this anyway), I’m always looking forward to freshmen seminar. If only it didn’t end so late..

Chris Paul is short, but he makes up for it in size. Here he is dunking on a 7 foot Dwight Howard. This represents me because I try to compensate for my weaknesses through my strengths and capabilities (in basketball and in real life).

Why hello there. As you all may know, my name is Billy. What you may not know is that I have an older sister and a younger brother. Yes, I am the middle child. My older sister is named Arlene, and my younger brother is named Charlie. Prepare to be blown away. I say this because if you notice that in order from our age, the beginning of our names spell out ABC. ABC can also mean “American Born Chinese”, which we also are. Mentioning this random tidbit shows a lot about who I am. I like to say random things that come to mind and I can be really corny at times. A lot of things catch my attention and I like to make the most of it. Entering into Baruch College was a really new experience for me. It makes it easier when I have my friends, Serena and William, along with me. I also made some amazing new friends. Something that is definitely new to me is reading. Yes, reading. The amount of textbook pages is unbearable and I feel like I am not ready for college. My studying habits definitely need to be changed and I feel very uncomfortable when it comes to tests. Hopefully I can adapt to this new experience and still take time to be myself.

I dont feel any different after reading the monologue. It explained me as a person and I do not think i can really change my ways to what i stated. I still see myself as random and etc.

I think i made a lot of friends in freshmen seminar and i developed a little. I enjoy socializing and one thing that has changed is my habit of reading the textbooks. I am definitely reading them a lot more.

I see an opportunity and i take it

Being in college is definitely a change from what I’m used to in high school. For one thing, it’s easier to fit in with your peers here…Maybe it’s because we never actually separate ourselves into cliques based on our nationalities (like my high school sort of did)…I am very shy and I don’t talk much at first, so it was quite interesting for me to be comfortable here so easily. I am tired from all of the assignments that we have to do, but I don’t regret spending time with the group. They’re funny enough to keep me awake in class. The only exception would probably be Poly Sci, since everyone seems to fall asleep there…Other than that class, my courses are enjoyable so far…Even calculus has its points, surprisingly. I like math and games, but I’m afraid of insects, especially spiders, and of failing (haha, nerd!) Despite that, time management is the most challenging thing for me to do right now. I am used to having weekends as my free time playing games or whatever. Now I actually do some work in order to keep track with my courses; business law is the worst for me though…Sigh…

Post Monologue: I actually hated doing the monologue. I like my classmates and all, but speaking in front of a class is not my forte. As I said before, I’m very shy in front of my friends and I’m not as open at first impression. I prefer to sit down and talk instead. The experience was still new to me, even though I had to present projects numerous times in the past. I also had to present speeches during my sophmore year, but it didn’t help calm me down. I learn that I want to be friends with everyone, to help them out in anyway I can, in my own way. Just not in presentations. As my peers read their monologues, I realized that I’m not alone. Like me, most of them are nervous or just didn’t want to describe themselves. They are more nervous than  my overachieving high school friends, usually peers…And what was the next question? Haha…I’m still shaken from my presentation…

What are you staring at? Lol~ I like birds, and I sometimes give that expression (or the clueless one) to people too…

I really like the people that i’m meeting in college because everyone is a lot more mature then in high school. I love the people in my block, everyone is just too nice. School is going pretty well for me right now but there is just so much homework. The reading is crazy. i hope i can at least get a C+ in all the classes. Its too easy to fail. I don’t have much timee to do anything anymore. Even though now there’s not classes on fridays, theres work. I only have sundays free but there’s school on monday so not much time. I’m terrifed of the dark, I don’t even sleep in the dark. Before I go to bed every night, I set a timer on my TV and sleep with that on. I don’t want to think about goin ghome at 5:30 after freshman seminar every wednesday in the winter when it gets dark.

Post monologue: I don’t feel any different or see myself as any different after presenting the monologue. I think i am more confident at presenting than I was in high school. I wasn’t nervous while presenting which was good and I am happy about that.

I don’t think I have developed much throughout freshman seminar but I did learn a lot of material that I did not know prior freshman seminar.

This is my baby and her name is Kiwi. I love cats soooooooooooooo much.