Monologue

The question I have been getting a lot lately is “how is school going?” or “do you like school so far?” My answer is the same to everybody. “It’s okay,” I would say, “Nothing too special.” When I say this, everyone starts to feel bad and wonder why college is just okay. When they ask me this, I have to ask myself first before I can answer.
I grew up in the city and went to school in the city all my life. When choosing a college I knew for sure I didn’t want to go away. Not being in the city and not being able to walk out my door and be a block away from Broadway and stores seemed so strange. I never have gotten home sick before, so that wasn’t a fear of mine. I just knew I was a city girl, so staying in the city felt right. I’ve been told that all college kids do when they go away to school is party and I’m not a party freak. I’ll have a good time once and awhile, but they way some kids go out at night and have fun, just isn’t me. Knowing this, I just felt that staying in the city where I grew up would be safe.
Since school has started, I wonder if I made the right decision. I feel like I am back at high school again, walking into and out of a building in a neighborhood that I am so familiar with. Maybe I need a change. Even though I live in the city, I am dorming about 10 minutes away from my apartment where I grew up. I felt dorming would have me experience somewhat of the college experience minus actually putting all my stuff in boxes, and driving about 2 to 3 hours away to campus. Maybe I need more time to actually have it sink in and realize that I am at college, but as of right now, I feel no difference.

city kid - posing on the streets of new york