Author Archives: pavel.tyan

It helped me a lot, since i was a lot about what I should be taking and how I should proceed in my college career. I knew about the tier I, II, III, but I never knew about what the specifications were and how to register. Now I know, and hopefully will be able to avoid problems that I would certainly have gotten. We’ll see, since everything is always bound to change 🙂

The carrier workshop was an enlightening experience where I was able to understand how a formal interview is done. I never knew that small talk would be such a huge part of an interview. I knew that to a formal interview you were supposed to dress in formal attire, but I never knew anything about the semi formal and how you are supposed to dress to them. It was a pretty interesting and resourceful workshop which I hope will help me in the future.

During the Conference with Charles Li and his colleagues, I have found it curious to see how each and every one of them have found their own identity through culture, nationality, study and experience. I did not agree with what they were saying since it felt as if they defined themselves for life after this one Enlightening event.

Later on they talked about reality how reality is just a matter of perception, since my reality does not necessarily go parallel with the reality of people around me. It made me start to think about how reality is rather not definite in any way, how my preconceptions, my point of view, me create a “reality” which is not in any sense real, but is rather confined to me.

I have been told by my friend to go soul searching. The way he does it is by listening to death metal while pacing the room. He said that he has learned a lot and I decided to do so as well. I had to revise the method that he has used since death metal makes my head hurt and pacing is just not my thing. I have decided to do it in an environment that makes me feel relaxed and comfortable. I turned on some trance, lied down with a book and as I was reading and listening to music I have gone into a sort of trance where I was able to think about myself.

I have discovered that I am not just one person: I am a son, a student, a gamer, even a passerby. I am a different person in every given situation: I am here before you as a student rather than a son, since none of you are really my parents…

So here I am imploring you to go soul searching, since you might find something about yourself which you were unable before.

I have been pondering on this idea for a while, it might be weird it might not be, but I really want to know your opinion on it.
The idea of Utopia has been around for a while, an ideal place, society or sometimes even anarchy. I understand that every person has his own idea of Utopia. Some friends of mine and I have discussed this question and what my friends agreed on is that the only Utopia possible at the moment is a place where there are no human beings, therefore there is no conflict, no war.
Another idea is a state of limited anarchy, where people are allowed to follow their own ideals and make communities based on the common goals without any outside influence.
Yet another idea was to genetically equalize everyone so that there would be no major differences between everyone, so everyone will be smart and attractive. The alteration will also put a limit on people’s choices because people today have too many choices and more often than not end up making the wrong ones. (Ignorance is bliss)
So I was wondering what is your idea of Utopia.

My name is Pavel named after my grandfather by my father. I was born in Uzbekistan, I speak Russian and my ancestors were Korean (from both sides of the family). I have come to US when I was 13 and have acquired experiences which help me describe myself.
I have come to a conclusion that people are ever changing. They are different from day to day and therefore no one can really say I am…..and be that person the next day. Whenever I declared myself as something, I found an error in it the next day. The only I am that has been constant over the years is I am lazy…
I do have expectations though. I expect myself to finish college being the most immediate one. I know that it is hard without a college degree out there and so I want to be prepared. There are obstacles in the way: the way I am unable to manage time, the way I do everything last minute (even this assignment). It is very hard to keep myself from sleeping in class and actually paying attention. Of course the source of all these obstacles is my laziness. Hopefully I will conquer it and then even the “I am lazy” will change.
I do look forward to see how I will be changed in order to define new me  time after time.