I think that I am more straightforward in writing than I am in person. When I’m writing, meaning comes from just the words themselves. There is no voice level, accent, or any other factor that could change the way the sentence is being read off the page. And I don’t use pretty language, or I guess, creative devices, to change up the way I communicate in writing. What I mean is the words that I’m saying. If the words give off a different meaning or impression, then there is no point of writing those words. So I try to be as concise as possible.
I am concerned about finals. The schoolwork will be laborious and constant, but it is always the finals and exams that I am worried about. I fear that since they are such a big factor of the grade I will receive in class, and therefore also a factor of my overall GPA and academic standing, the pressure will be overwhelming for my capacity. I kind of wish I was smart, just so I could have the relief of not needing to study as much.
Surprisingly, I have no trouble staying awake during classes. I thought that since college classes were so much longer than high school periods, I would struggle to stay awake. I don’t though, but I think that it is only because the semester just began. I know that later in the semester, there will be days where I can’t stay awake. I am concerned about those days. Everything in college counts, and I need to be attentive at all times, know everything that is going on.
I am terrified of writing in college. I have absolutely no creativity, and I think that will hinder me in writing essays. My level of vocabulary is pretty bad too. I think reading would help. I hate reading though, and I don’t think I have ever finished a book from start to finish–only in the books that I read for fun, but never the class-assigned books. The readings I received so far aren’t that bad. In fact, they’re not as heavy as I expected them to be. Yay!
My first year at college will definitely help me grow up. My parents have spoiled me my entire life, and I am so glad that this year will allow me to become more independent and better adjusted to the how the real world functions. I need to grow up. College will be good for that.