My experience in Baruch College has hardly lived up to my expectation. Although this college is great, i did not satisfy my performance this semester at all.
To be honest, college is not an easy work. I can even equal it to the nightmare-like senior year in Chinese high school– Homework-filled abyss, well, in fact, it’s not that bad. At lease, we developed a precious friendship among classmates, had memory of dealing with troublesome together, getting through difficulty side by side, chasing the same dream hand by hand. Friendship just like breeze when I got frustrated in school works. However, in college, I have to learn to digest all stresses by myself. To be independence is a big lesson in college. I think I did not get a good great of it in first semester, but I still strive for it.
I promised to myself no matter how hard it is. I would never surrender to the challenges. But i did not do well so far. I’m a little bit frustrated. At the beginning of this semester I told myself that I should go to have more communication with new friend; I should be more activated in class; I should spend more time in practicing English; i should preview before class and review after clas; I should talk to professors when I have any problem; I should memorize more new vocabulary every day. But these “shoulds” which were I push myself to do before I came to college were ruined by my characters. I still cannot make a breakthrough of my individual personality. Until now, I am still unable to feel any improvement on my English.
My first semester is soso. It seems that I was working on essay every single day, even when I was sleeping, it’s definitely a nightmare. I think my problem is time management; sometimes, I hope I could have 30 hours a day. College is a place to gain knowledge and abilities. I should make full use of these 4 years. Grade is not important; the important thing is that you indeed learn something and you have tried your best. I do not want to be sorry for myself. Life is short, college is shorter. But college is not all about academic performance. i once describe myself that “play like a crazy, study like a lady.” now, i almost forget how to be a crazy. If I can do it again, I would make more friends in club, be more easy-going, and find a way to be myself. I believe that Each of us has a fire in our heart for something, it’s our goal to find it and keep it lit. I will find my fire sooner or later.
This semester is almost there; I make a conclusion about my “give” and “take” in this semester and try to do better next semester.
