Monologue about my self-portrait
by luyao.zheng
Actually, I do not really know what my character is, because sometimes I will be in different way to face same problem. But in some way, I would like to say that I am a shy girl who is afraid of taking with people, a self-abased girl who will question about herself and a sanguine girl who is really good at inspiring herself.
I think I am a really shy girl. In China, I never raise my hands in class. And I never answer teachers’ questions, if teachers did not call my name. And after I went to the United States, I did not make any changing about that. But one day, my teacher who taught me something about SAT called me “3R” which means I really quiet and silence in class, because I never answer his questions and never ask him questions. He said it is okay if you are a girl in China, but in U.S.A, this character is really bad. No one will like a person who never talks. So I start to change my character. And I am more active for talking with people. Even though sometimes I am still shyness, I can say I am not “3R” anymore and I can talk with people.
And I am self-abased. I always question about myself. Sometimes when I have a challenge, I really want to conquer it. But I did not. So I feel bad and realize I am so stupid in some ways. I just want to give up. And I don’t want to do everything. I will be very sad after that. Also I will be lazier and lazier. Moreover, sometimes my friends made a joke about me. I will be brush and do not want to face that joke. I will ask myself why I am so bad. In this way, I am a really self-abased person.
I am also a sanguine person. Whatever I think about how stupid I am, I feel I am not that good, but not that bad. I think even though I cannot conquer the challenge, it does not mean I am a loser. I still can be successful in some other ways. I always encourage for myself that God is fair. He will let you be bad in this way, but he will let you be good at another way. So I think even though I am so bad in some way, I will be very good at another way. And I will be much happier and start thinking I am good girl. In this way, I think I am really good at inspiring myself.
I am a shy, self-abased and sanguine person. I believe that if I am really bad at some ways, I will be really good at some other ways. And I will inspire myself everyday and be more active during my life.
<—It is my first time to take picture with my teachers.