LC 24

I am Tony, and I have been NY for fifteen months. I remember when I studied in ELI at QC one year ago, I was so scared when I spoke English in class. However, I am not scared any more to talk in class now, and I even gave a few times presetations in class. I think this is a big improving for me. Even though I am not as good as other public speakers and a little bit scared when stand in front of class, I will keep practicing and trying my best.

  There are two things that really annoy me. First of all, I am living in Queens with my parents. It is really annoying that it takes me 1 hour to go to school. I am getting tried to get up early in the moring every day. Second of all, assignments are my another annoyance. As we know that the mid-term is coming soon, so I need to be prepared. As other college students, the GPA is very important for me. I want to get a good grades on my first exam, so I will pay my 200% attention to this mid-term. In China, I never cared about how I will do on midterm and final because the scores which I got on midterm and final were not as important as here, except the last year.

  In short, I want to say I really get improved a lot at Baruch. I used to be afraid to speak English, but I can stand in front of class and give speech now. Also, I used to be a lazy student, but I try my best on every assignments now. No matter how hard is going to be in next few years, I will keep going and do my best.

The second post should be a monologue developed in seminar but I’m embarrassed to say that I can’t recall any topic we had in seminar. So, if I may, I’d like to write about how the school life is going lately.

We have A doll’s House quiz for Theater class on next Tuesday, Anthropology mid-term on Nov 2 and Politic mid term(+the essay) is two days after that, coming on Nov 4 (I looked up on calendar for you guys!) and also Fieldwork Data Collection Work Sheet is due on Nov 9, Rubin Museum blogging by Nov 19. And if you have MTH 2207, we are going to have the second test pretty soon, just don’t know the exact date yet.

Oh boy, I feel like I’m being chased by a serial killer. A friend of mine who is a senior in Baruch once joked that I will be dead until Thanksgiving. But the truth is, he didn’t joke it. He prophesied it and now I worship him.

My first impression about Baruch after first week of this semester was a hell packed with mad smart kids. Are they all came from Bronx Science and Stuy? Is it only me who came from one of the worst high school in NYC, namely Newtown? I’ve never been daunted this bad. I asked my friends who went to another college if they are having trouble assimilating like I do. And they responded ‘hell no I love my college:-D’       ………I know they are going to take that back soon because it’s mid term season for them too.

Well, I guess I habituated myself to an early-bird life and jammed subway in 8 a.m., but I still have trouble catching up with where we are now in our classes. Isn’t there a time that you tried your best to keep concentrated but you just can’t? You heard what professor said but next second you just have no idea what we are getting it and why we are talking about it. It’s like the lecture went in one ear and out the other. You don’t want to stop the class to ask question. Well, technically you CAN’T because you have no sense where we are and what it is for. You are just lost as a whole and you can’t help it. All you can do is just sit there and look pretty. That’s what happens to me almost everyday in Politic class and sometimes even in Anthropology and Math. I feel as if I’m treading on thin ice everyday. I’m desperate that the ice will break in any minute and I’ll be drawn. Not knowing when the Politic exam would be put more anxiety.

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And voila, he just announced our mid term will be two weeks from today. I hear the clock ticking.

I’m Wei Feng and I was actually born in China, but I moved here with my parents when I was really little and since then I stopped speaking Chinese and instead adopted English as my primary language.

I graduated from Baruch High School which is on 25th and Park, and we in fact use to go to school in the 23rd street building. However the college decided we were taking up too much space, despite the fact we only used 2 floors and the gym and they kicked us out. So then we moved to 25th and Park instead.

One thing i noticed different about Baruch High school and Baruch college is the amount of residents. In Baruch high school, there was roughly 400 kids; 100 kids per grade. So it was pretty crowded back in my high school and one thing i liked about Baruch college is the amount of free space there is.

One thing i see in common was the amount of clubs. Baruch High school also had a lot of clubs and i see the same thing in Baruch College especially during club hours, where they try to promote clubs.

i see myself as a guy who knows a lot about technology and is also cool and helpful at the same times. Although i spend a lot of time on the computer, i also like to go outside and hang out with friends too.

I have recently looked at myself in the mirror and I noticed a few changes. I looked more confident than I normally did. This is maybe because I have improved my physical appearance. This could be the result of taking a self help course on public speaking. It could be that I have become a college student and it requires me to stand out from my peers. I am not sure.

I am a shy person and like others, I feared getting up to make a speech. In the past I often hide as long as I could to avoid speaking in front of my classmates. However, now with a boost of self esteem and confidence, I am able to deliver a speech when called upon. Each time I am required to give a speech I think of it as practice. Practice for me to work on my articulation, eye contact, hand gestures and possibly enthusiasm.

Overall, I no longer doubt my capabilities to give a speech in front of a group of people. Although I am not a great public speaker now, I believe I have the potential to become one. This could possibly be my biggest ongoing challenge next to leaving my comfort zone. In the end, I think now that I am an adult I need to start improving myself to better succeed in the future.

Actually, I do not really know what my character is, because sometimes I will be in different way to face same problem. But in some way, I would like to say that I am a shy girl who is afraid of taking with people, a self-abased girl who will question about herself and a sanguine girl who is really good at inspiring herself.

I think I am a really shy girl. In China, I never raise my hands in class. And I never answer teachers’ questions, if teachers did not call my name. And after I went to the United States, I did not make any changing about that. But one day, my teacher who taught me something about SAT called me “3R” which means I really quiet and silence in class, because I never answer his questions and never ask him questions. He said it is okay if you are a girl in China, but in U.S.A, this character is really bad. No one will like a person who never talks. So I start to change my character. And I am more active for talking with people. Even though sometimes I am still shyness, I can say I am not “3R” anymore and I can talk with people.

And I am self-abased. I always question about myself. Sometimes when I have a challenge, I really want to conquer it. But I did not. So I feel bad and realize I am so stupid in some ways. I just want to give up. And I don’t want to do everything. I will be very sad after that. Also I will be lazier and lazier. Moreover, sometimes my friends made a joke about me. I will be brush and do not want to face that joke. I will ask myself why I am so bad. In this way, I am a really self-abased person.

I am also a sanguine person. Whatever I think about how stupid I am, I feel I am not that good, but not that bad. I think even though I cannot conquer the challenge, it does not mean I am a loser. I still can be successful in some other ways. I always encourage for myself that God is fair. He will let you be bad in this way, but he will let you be good at another way. So I think even though I am so bad in some way, I will be very good at another way. And I will be much happier and start thinking I am good girl. In this way, I think I am really good at inspiring myself.

I am a shy, self-abased and sanguine person. I believe that if I am really bad at some ways, I will be really good at some other ways. And I will inspire myself everyday and be more active during my life.

<—It is my first time to take picture with my teachers.

I just want to make sure you guys and I don’t forget about next post when we come back sometime in this week. Here we go-

Post #2 – DUE OCTOBER 22, 2010 AT 5PM

T.E.A.M. Baruch Recruitment
o The recruitment process has began and will continue up until October 22nd when applications are due. If you are interested in becoming a peer leader and didn’t get a chance to go to the Club Fair, please stop by the information table during club hours on Thursday, October 7th to pick up an application and other related material. The table will be located on the 2nd floor right outside of the Student Life Office.

Building Your Brand
o Monday, October 4th 3:30PM – 5PM VC 2-190
o Learn and practice how to give a short verbal “advertisement” for yourself to help with networking and job interviewing.

Freshmen Social
o Thursday, October 7th Club Hours Multipurpose Room VC 1-107
o Hosted by Baruch’s Undergraduate Student Government, first year students will have the opportunity to meet their fellow classmates at a party exclusively created for freshmen. Stop by for an afternoon of food, games, and making new friends!

Small Talk: It’s A BIG Deal
o Thursday, October 7th 5PM-6:30PM VC 2-190
o In this two-hour workshop, students will learn more advanced small talk techniques and how they can be applied to various situations ranging from job interviews to social events.