Reading, Reading & moreeeee READINGSS!
College starts almost for 2 months already. The tense is more and more visible. Never ending readings and assignments. Gosh, its been weeks since i went shopping. 😛
But, definately during this 2 months, I learned a lot and changed a lot. At least now I have conversations with my classmates. I’m a shy and quiet person. I don’t know how to start conversations and make friends. I realise that I can’t be like that anymore because this would seperates me from the society. I’m always scared that I might say something wrong or pronounce some words wrongly in English. I tried very hard to be perfect. Very often, I give pressure to myself to be perfect. Sometimes, I hate myself for being shy and quiet. Moreover, college life is totally different. Different type of people with different cultures. Loads of assignments and readings and I have to work part time during weekends. I get very stress adapting to this kind of life. I once thinking of giving up and just go back to Malaysia. But, I realise that if I just give up like this and go back to my parents’ side, I will never get to learn anything and never grow up. I always tell myself, all I need is time and everything will be better soon.
Now, although is still hectic but it got better. Every obstacles makes me stronger each day and it makes my life more interesting. At least there are something I can tell my grandchildren next time and not just some other boring stories. Whenever I think everything is wrong, I remember how amazing life truly is and the fact I like being imperfect. I’m not weird, I’m just limited edition. Smile and think that nothing couldn’t be solved.
There is another problem that seriously can’t be solved. It is….. the subway!! Every morning, I felt like I’m going to the battlefield aka the subway station. Fight for what u ask? for SEATS! Its painful to stand from Main Street-Flushing to Grand Central. At least I can use the 40mins to take a nap. Since I don’t have much time to sleep, whenever I have time to take a nap, I wouldn’t let go of this opportunity.
Last but not least, this is one of my favourite quote I would like to share with u guys.
