LC 24

I feel the time is passed so quickly. The fall 2010 almost ends. I always think that this semester just begins and I am still “new” for this college. I don’t realize that this semester almost is over and the final exams are coming soon.

The student life in college is not that hard and not that easy. When I entered Baruch College, I want to get A in every course and try to work hard for it. But after I taking midterm exam, I feel it is impossible to get A in every course. The reason is actually I I am not very interesting at some courses and don’t work that hard for studying. I just waste all of my time on some non-sense stuff and I don’t really know what I did. And during class time, sometimes I just think something else and didn’t pay attention to professors. Sometimes I do pay attention, but I don’t know what the professors are talking about, especially in POL. I felt upset and I feel that I am so stupid. But right now, I feel better, because I think if I work hard and prepare for the final exam as well as I can, at least I can get B. So right now I just encourage myself and prepare the final exam earlier.

I think if I can do my first semester again, I will do better. I will not waste my time again and I will work harder for my class. If I can rate my first semester, the rate will be 2 out of 5. But if I can do it again and rate it, I think it at least will be 4 out of 5. I really need to take a class for time managing and paying attention to class.

Actually I have changed since I started at Baruch College. First I feel there are so many assignments need to be done, and I never feel there are any works in high school. Second I feel busy and nervous in college. There is no marking periods in college at all. Every single test needs to get a great grade otherwise there is no making up stuff for replacing the grade. So I feel nervous.

In the first semester in Baruch College, I feel happy even though the life of college is so busy and nervous. I know new friends and I learn some new things which are totally different from high school. And Baruch College brings me different experience from any periods of my life.

For my freshman seminar, I have to go to the Rubin Museum of Art or the Sidney Mishkin Gallerty. Before I attending to these two workshop, I thought it will be bored and unexcited. But I have to complete it. So I decided to go to the Rubin Museum of Art, because I thought art will be much better than the other one. Then on the November 10, I went to the museum and this museum is amazing. I never realized it is so good to visit and get some knowledge about art.

The Rubin Museum of Art is the premier museum in the West showcasing the art of the Himalayas and the surrounding regions. There is the rich cultural heritage of the region and it also offers an uncommon opportunity for visual adventure and aesthetic discovery. The most interesting art piece that I saw is the Padmapani Avalokiteshvara. He or She (the avalokiteshvara does not have sexuality) is holding the lotus. He or she is covered by gilt copper alloy. He or she is 15*5*4 in. And he or she had existed since 13^th century. This avalokiteshvara is so beautiful and amazing. It has smooth lines, and wears some bracelets, ear rings, and necklace. There also is some special and gorgeous adornment on the avalokiteshara. Its facial expressions are peaceful and kindly. Its eyes are really small and long. Also it is smiling. How great it is, even though it got some rusty. The maker of this avalokiteshvara was so good. And the worker of this museum said that a lot of exhibits are directly taken from Tibet and somewhere around the Himalayas. Also there is a room which is putted a lot of avalokiteshvara on the second floor. I stood like 20 minutes in the front of this room. When I saw those statues, I felt peaceful and amazing. I like those exhibits.

After I going to the museum, I didn’t feel disappoint about attending the museum. And I want to go to this museum again if I have a time.

Actually, I do not really know what my character is, because sometimes I will be in different way to face same problem. But in some way, I would like to say that I am a shy girl who is afraid of taking with people, a self-abased girl who will question about herself and a sanguine girl who is really good at inspiring herself.

I think I am a really shy girl. In China, I never raise my hands in class. And I never answer teachers’ questions, if teachers did not call my name. And after I went to the United States, I did not make any changing about that. But one day, my teacher who taught me something about SAT called me “3R” which means I really quiet and silence in class, because I never answer his questions and never ask him questions. He said it is okay if you are a girl in China, but in U.S.A, this character is really bad. No one will like a person who never talks. So I start to change my character. And I am more active for talking with people. Even though sometimes I am still shyness, I can say I am not “3R” anymore and I can talk with people.

And I am self-abased. I always question about myself. Sometimes when I have a challenge, I really want to conquer it. But I did not. So I feel bad and realize I am so stupid in some ways. I just want to give up. And I don’t want to do everything. I will be very sad after that. Also I will be lazier and lazier. Moreover, sometimes my friends made a joke about me. I will be brush and do not want to face that joke. I will ask myself why I am so bad. In this way, I am a really self-abased person.

I am also a sanguine person. Whatever I think about how stupid I am, I feel I am not that good, but not that bad. I think even though I cannot conquer the challenge, it does not mean I am a loser. I still can be successful in some other ways. I always encourage for myself that God is fair. He will let you be bad in this way, but he will let you be good at another way. So I think even though I am so bad in some way, I will be very good at another way. And I will be much happier and start thinking I am good girl. In this way, I think I am really good at inspiring myself.

I am a shy, self-abased and sanguine person. I believe that if I am really bad at some ways, I will be really good at some other ways. And I will inspire myself everyday and be more active during my life.

<—It is my first time to take picture with my teachers.

I think I am a student who wants to get a great GPA in college. And I am a freshman. I think every freshman wants to get high GPA in college. The GPA is not the most important things for people, but it is the most important things for students.

The top 3 concerns about my freshman year at Baruch College are GPA, club, and job. First, to me, the GPA is really important. I am interesting at being a business person. If I cannot get at least 2.5 GPA, I cannot choose business as my major. Second, I want to be personality in college. My character is shy and do not like to talk with other people. In high school, if teachers let me answer questions in class, I will be blush and afraid of speaking loudly. Moreover, I went to tutoring center for preparing my SAT before. I never ask teachers any questions and never answer any questions. So one of my teachers gave me a nickname, which is “3R”. I forgot what exactly the three words are, but this nickname means I am really quiet and shy. I want to change myself. It is better that talk more in American. Nobody will like someone never say their own opinion and never talk. And I think I can be more activity as someone else. So I decide to join a club. I want to be member of a club which can let me be “outside”. Third, one of the top 3 concerns is a job. My family income is not so high. Even though I can get some money from FAFSA, I still need to work. I need some pocket money, and I want to reduce my parents’ burden. They work hard, and they are tired. So I am looking for some part time jobs now. I hope I can get a nice job. In conclusion, I want to get high GPA for my BBA at Baruch College. I decide to join a club for being more activity. And I need a job for reducing my parents’ burden.

I think joining a club and beginning working will make my experience different from high school. Club can let me be more activity. Job can let me have some social experience. I never join a club and have a job in high school, because I think I have to improve my score in high school first. Right now, I think a high GPA does not mean you are successful. That just means you have a good grade. I will learn a lot in college. Not only get some knowledge about subject, but also social experience.

I will be changed a lot in my first year at Baruch College. I will be personality and be more activity. I don’t want someone else call me “3R” again. It’s not me anymore. I can talk and I can express my opinion by myself. I won’t be a person who just nods her head, when another person is talking. As Lawana Blackwell said, “patterning your life around other’s opinions is nothing more than slavery.” I will be someone who is totally different from me before. I hope I can be brave to speak loudly.