LC 24

I can’t believe this semester is going to end in less than 2 weeks! I felt like it just has started and I’m still adapting to college life. It is tough at first because there are tons of assignments, readings and adjustments of time between studies and work. Moreover, this is the first time I work and study at the same time. It is not easy but thank god, this semester, i got cool and nice professors for all my courses. They are not as scary and strict as I imagined. I actually regretted that I did not study hard enough for my midterm and got bad results. If only I have a second chance to do my midterm again but, there is no use crying over spilt milk. I will take this semester as an experience and work hard for another semester. There is another thing I regretted for not doing which is to get to know more about my fellow classmates of LC24. You are all nice friends but i’m too shy to approach all of you. I hope that we are still friends although in the future we all might have differents paths.

In this three months, I learned a lot in Baruch College. Its totally a different experience from high school and there are lots of different people from different country. This makes my college life in Baruch College an interesting one and fun. Next semester I will work harder in my studies and will not procrastinate anymore. That day my friend from Malaysia asked me about my life here and what I am studying in college. She said I should change my education info in Facebook to “I’m doing Bachelor degrees of Procrastination in Uni of FAcebook”. haha. Yes, I spend too much time in facebook. But not anymore next semester!!

Good Luck to all my fellow classmates in LC24!

Reading, Reading & moreeeee READINGSS!

College starts almost for 2 months already. The tense is more and more visible. Never ending readings and assignments. Gosh, its been weeks since i went shopping. 😛

But, definately during this 2 months, I learned a lot and changed a lot. At least now I have conversations with my classmates. I’m a shy and quiet person. I don’t know  how to start conversations and make friends. I realise that I can’t be like that anymore because this would seperates me from the society. I’m always scared that I might say something wrong or pronounce some words wrongly in English. I tried very hard to be perfect. Very often, I give pressure to myself to be perfect. Sometimes, I hate myself for being shy and quiet. Moreover, college life is totally different. Different type of people with different cultures. Loads of assignments and readings and I have to work part time during weekends. I get very stress adapting to this kind of life.  I once thinking of giving up and just go back to Malaysia. But, I realise that if I just give up like this and go back to my parents’ side, I will never get to learn anything and never grow up. I always tell myself, all I need is time and everything will be better soon.

Now, although is still hectic but it got better. Every obstacles makes me stronger each day and it makes my life more interesting. At least there are something I can tell my grandchildren next time and not just some other boring stories. Whenever I think everything is wrong, I remember how amazing life truly is and the fact I like being imperfect. I’m not weird, I’m just limited edition. Smile and think that nothing couldn’t be solved.

There is another problem that seriously can’t be solved. It is….. the subway!! Every morning, I felt like I’m going to the battlefield aka the subway station. Fight for what u ask? for SEATS! Its painful to stand from Main Street-Flushing to Grand Central. At least I can use the 40mins to take a nap. Since I don’t have much time to sleep, whenever I have time to take a nap, I wouldn’t let go of this opportunity.

Last but not least, this is one of my favourite quote I would like to share with u guys.

I am a freshman at Baruch College this Fall 2010. Like any other freshman, I’m going to college with the hope of getting good grades and gaining knowledge that will help us to success in the future.  Being a freshman in college is not as easy as I imagined. Everything is so different from high school especially if you are not graduated from high school in the states. But, I believe I can work things out and hopefully everything will go along smoothly.

The top three concerns about my freshman year at Baruch College are grades, time management and my personality. Firstly, grades are really important to me. Especially during the freshman year. I believe that if I don’t have a good foundation or base, I won’t go any higher. The freshman year is like the base of a building. In order to build a tall and steady building, we need a strong base. I’m not sure about my major yet , but since I’m in Baruch College which is famous for its business school, I might as well consider something to do with business. The required GPA to enter the Zicklin School of Business is high. Therefore, I must work very hard on my grades in order to be accepted. Second, I’m not good in time management. Back then at home, I have my parents to manage everything for me. I never think about what should I do first or do later. Now, I have to manage my own time. My life is really a mess during the first week of the Fall semester. I’m working and studying at the same time. At first, its hard to cope with the crazy schedule I had in my daily life. But then, it got better now.Third, I’m a really shy and quiet person. I find it hard to communicate with people around me. Speaking to a stranger and in the crowd are my biggest fear in life. I knew that this will create an obstacle for me from being a part of the society especially if I wanted to major something to do with business. I hope my experience in Baruch College would change me completely into an outgoing with high self-esteem person.

Experience in Baruch College is obviously different from high school. There is a huge difference for me between high school and college since I graduated high school in Malaysia. People here speaks perfect English. Although my first language is English but, I have no confidence speaking in English in the states. In high school, the number of people is not that many but in college, there are a lot of people around the campus. Since I’m a shy person, I find it uncomfortable to be in such crowd.

I hope the first year in Baruch College would change me into a more independent, well organized and outgoing person. Hopefully by joining clubs will give me courage to face my biggest fear in life.