Monthly Archives: October 2010

Well my monologue was alright i guess i could have given more eye contact but other than that i thought my monologue was decent. i liked the classes monologue in general they were pretty cool & down to earth :). So about that monologue yea it went good lol

omgomgomgoshhh so late, I spilled water over my laptop so my keyboard doesn’t really work D:!! ehhh & then i totally forgot! So anyways, well I didn’t expect myself to have a super duper awesome monologue, cause I mean talking to myself in front of a bunch of people just seemed weird and I’m never really good at presenting stuff, nor do I like it either!! As I sat and listened to everyone’s monologues, I realized that they were all either meaningful or funny, and mine was extremely boring! So as I sat there I crossed out like an entire paragraph, and randomly added stuff!! I was as nervous since we got to sit on a chair while presenting! So I got up there, sat down on that comfy chair, and began talking gibberish. The presentation of the monologue was actually a lot easier than I thought it would be since we all pretty much know each other in the class now, it’s just not as awkward and nerve racking (if its spelled of phrased like that..). I enjoyed listening to the monologues by my fellow classmates, and did no completely freak out over mine either!

so im in class right now where i really should be learning. whats all this nonsense with derivatives, chain rules, and “important” stuff like that. gosh i hate being back in precalc. i took precalc my junior year and did quite amazing i might add. im asian math and me just go together. but as soon as i came to baruch, math no longer made sense. NO. the stuff is NOT HARD AT ALL truthfully. but i dont remember it. it was so long ago. but on top of that what makes it worse is that they way its being taught makes no sense truthfully. i have to look back on my old highschool notes to understand everything. that goodness for susan e wagners awesome math teachers. how is it that i took ap calc my senior year and im back in pre calc. stupid cuny assessment test. you dont prove anything. -.- i should be in regular calc not precalc. whats the point of taking ap calc if i dont even get put into calc again or something but being demoted to something lower. okay okay i understand i got a 1 on my test but SERIOUSLY -.- this is me ranting and actually entertaining me from my boredom in class. and minnie is sitting next to me and she was laughing cause im doing this.

i really like money. so im going to post randomly about interesting things hopefully? maybe everytime i see something interesting? or every class i have? lol

something smells good in this class. its like food being cooked or something. i wonder if baruch has any culinary courses that’d be awesome. my dream job is to be a food critic<3 i should’ve signed up for culinary school i love to cook and i love food.

oh college life. you’re not living up to your expectations.

I think i did pretty good on my monologue since i inlcuded all of the things we had written over those 4 or 5 weeks and i meant it from the heart. I tried to make it funny just so that it didn’t seem so serious but i failed since no one laughed or probably even understood me, but hey, i got one vote so at least someone thought i was good.

Clifford: It’s strange how the simplest of questions can be the most difficult to answer. Those small meaningless questions that we never quite focus on or ask ourselves in life since it will never appear on a test, unless you are studying philosophy, or because they seem so easy that a caveman could do them. And more often than not it’s those seemingly easy questions that reveal the most about us and can help us build connections with other people. Small questions like, what are you most afraid of? Suddenly you remember those times when you were young and afraid to go into the dark hallway to get to the bathroom, those nightmares you had after playing resident evil 3 nemesis for the first time and that still scare you now, or that time you almost drowned as a kid from wandering into the deep end of the pool, and suddenly, after sharing your fears and hearing everyone else’s, you realize that you guys have a lot of the same fears. Other questions like, what’s important to you? Make you realize that you all value the same everyday things like boyfriend/girlfriends, friends, family, video games and even strange things like a collection of unicorn paraphernalia. Then you start asking yourself about everything else you might have in common with the ‘strangers” around you. Did they also have a problem staying awake and focused in McCaffrey’s class instead of staring at his sweat stains while he kept forgetting what he was doing? Did they also find these college books really expensive and boring? Did they also believe that high school did not prepare us for college like our old teacher promised us and were now asking for those four years back? Did they also like law class because of those funny examples that the professor gave us? And did they also like those two hour breaks that gave us plenty of time to enjoy things especially girls that college had to offer? Finally you start thinking about all the other little details and embarrassing moments and if they also went through them, like middle school bullying and teasing or the occasional awkward discussion about whose you know what was bigger. So slowly but surely you start realizing that all these people around you are in the same situation as you with the same fears, values and worries about college and that you could really enjoy these next few months of college with them and hopefully the next four years.

Looking for my first monologue. Thought i did an ok job. Great job for having done it 5 minutes before class. Especially since it was a little exaggerated. By exaggerated i mean most of it was fake. Except the part about where i like to sleep and which class i hate and the small stuff like that. That was true. Im bored. I wish i didnt have to go to class in 40 minutes. I fixed up a draft of my analysis essay. Still not very good. ITs harder to do well in english in college. The teacher doesn’t love me as much my 10th-12th grade teachers did. It is definitely a lot harder. I have to go to class though. Bye LC26

i think i did pretty good on my monologue especially since i did it 10 min before class started. I think i did a good job on presenting my ideas and thoughts about college to the class. I wish i would have taken more time on my monologue and i also wish i would have went last. I think everyone forgot what i said after everyone else in the class went.

You have to go to college

it is important

that’s what they tell me

I ask myself why should I go? Why should i pay for something i can learn on my own?

I don’t need a teacher to learn this stuff

I would have more time on my hands

more time for work, family, and friends

midterm on Wednesday, essay on Monday, research paper Tuesday

work every wednesday and thursday

when do i get to breathe?

when will i have time to do what i enjoy doing?

it seems so bad and i ask again

why should i go?

unfortunately its a necessity

however it has its pros

status and that paper of a degree

will get you to those positions you need to be

and on the side of that there is experience

see new places and meet new faces

learn from the old life that this new one replaces

welcome to college!

My monologue was horrible I have to say. It was partially made up on the spot as I went up. Maybe I shouldn’t have made up the monologue 10 mins before the class started. If only my memory had served me better instead of people reminding me the day the monologue was due.

So I should have probably had props for my monologue. That would have been the only thing i could have possibly done to make it better. Maybe a sword or a wine filled skull would have given it that extra pizazz. Plus a costume! Imagine if I had a nice feathered hat or some parachute pants! So by performing my monologue, I’ve realized I’d be a way better stage director than an actor.
Either way, my performance was pretty solid; I’d like to think it was four out of five possible ninja stars. Martin’s was clearly five ninja stars, so note to self: be more emo next time. Orrrr reflect on more life experiences American History X style.
Actually, I don’t think I really thought about how it would go and being indifferent totally helped. I didn’t have any expectations so I didn’t fall short of them nor did I exceed them.
Basically my life is a win.