School isnt for everyone

My Biggest fear is to let down the people I love, to not make them happy. I place their happiness before mine. School started out easy, surprisingly well , my teachers are pretty cool, as well as my peers, I made a couple of friends . And then it began, i started to dj in clubs. The care for learning was already minimal but it reached a new low once I began. Trying to maintain good grades while balicing an always increasing music lyburry, has become one of the hardest challenges for me.  I push myself through this tho to make my mother happy,  Its not the easiest tast because I am the biggest procrastinator. My whole life Ive just gotten by with school, Ive herd the saying If he only applied himself. After a while its annoying to hear. School is a biggest job for me, I concider it to be volenteer work , just for the fact Id rather be in 100 different places. And I really dont do it for myself.  No matter what tho  Im getting it done, Im banging it out, hopefully if the way things turn out the way I planned.. I wont need a real job in the future.