Monthly Archives: October 2010

I have many interests, but I have always had a passion for playing the clarinet. In elementary school my parents forced me to join the school band. Naturally, I was opposed to doing so, but I gave it a shot and to my surprise I loved it! I had a natural talent for it, and over the years I became a very good musician. I played clarinet throughout middle school and high school. I was apart of all the bands, orchestras and musical ensembles. I took private lessons and grew as a musician with each passing year. I eventually became the Orchestra student-leader, a coveted position within the band geek clique. I was assigned all the solos during the winter/spring performances and even had the opportunity to play in Disney World in Orlando,Florida. However, during my senior year of high school I decided to stop  participating in music class, to take up some APs needed for college; which led to me giving up the Clarinet. I haven’t played since, and I truly regret that I stopped playing. My music teacher always encouraged me to continue learning and perhaps take it up as a major in College. Altho I don’t see that as a viable option, considering the limited occupations associated with having a career in music, I will always regret giving up my passion for it. It’s unfortunate how we have to give up our passions in life just so we will have a “successful” future. Hopefully one day, I’ll take my dusty Clarinet out of the closet and play once more.

What makes me, me? This question always seems to randomly pop up in my head. My name is Kristie Ching, I am Chinese, I am a female, and the list would never end, but even with all these details how can I distinguish myself from everyone else? Well maybe what makes me, me, is my past, my dreams and how I plan on turning those dreams into realities.

As a young girl, I was always really shy and quiet. I barely talked to anyone outside of my family and I was afraid of pretty much everything. It was weird how my shyness reduced when I taught those who were younger than me. Eventually my weird shy personality changed when I moved back to Queens. Here, I made new friends and began learning how to be a better person, while still holding onto my love of teaching and finding new interests along the way.

Today, I am a student at Baruch College, although this was not my first choice, I don’t regret making this choice, because here I met some great people that helped me in my transition into this new learning environment. At first, I was so worried that my shyness would make it extremely hard to make new friends, which was probably my main concern about college, but I’m glad to see that it wasn’t as difficult as I thought it would be. I’m starting to enjoy coming to Baruch every day, and no I’m not talking about the commute. It’s nice to make new friends in a different environment while learning things that I’ve never learned before. So I may not be completely certain of who I really am or what exactly I want to be in the future yet, but I’m hoping that I’ll be able to figure it out here at Baruch.

hmmm. this is supposed to be 2 minutes long right? lol..

Every first week of school starts like this, whether it was second grade or now in college. I come in anxious and hope for the best. Not knowing what to expect, I’m excited over the most minuscule of details. Every assignment sounds intriguing and I plan on completing each with the utmost amount of gusto. I even want to start reading each and every textbook, devouring the information until I’m an expert on each subject. Its all so new and scary, no matter where I go, but soon this feeling will fade. That’s what I’m afraid of. That’s what I’m dreading. When this new-ness wears off, all that’s left is a pile of work I will never get through. Initiatives I will never take. Things I just won’t do. That’s what I need to change. It all matters now. This year. Everything about this year. I refuse to let this year be the same.

it was the first day of school and i have never felt so alone. i had no friends in my class. and all my old friends in baruch were in different LCs. college isnt what i expected. baruch is supposidly just like wagner. but its really not. my biggest challenge in school right now is probably making friends but its getting easier. also adjusting to all this new school work is a big challenge, balancing all the work and readings we get with midterms. its like just kill me now or my head exploding is gonna kill me anyway.  but with every bad thing theres a few good things too. we always have to keep the balance in order. my boyfriend, new and old friends, food, shopping and many other random things make me happy. im enjoying the city life of college. the long breaks and the freedom. i dont even have to ask to urinate anymore, i can just go! sometimes “you must give up what you could lose in order to gain what you could not lose” even if you dont wanna lose it. i dont have a personal motto but i believe in “no regerets” and “everything happens for a reason”. I have to learn that everything im going through right now is for a reason and it will mean something later on.

i really dont know if i did this right… lOL. -.-” fail. but atleast i got it out of the way [: first poster again c[: