Monthly Archives: November 2010

Entering college you of course have some expectations but i was mostly complacent about what to expect.  I sort of developed my idea of what i wanted out of baruch while i was here instead of before.  I’d say it was the first time i really put thought into what i plan on doing with the rest of my life.  To be honest im still figuring it out.  I’d like to think that this semester was an introduction and now that i have become more familiar with baruch i can make the most of what it can offer.  If anything baruch will be a stepping stone as i transition into my adult life.

Frankly, my first semester sucked.  I really wish i started off better.  I would have expected some more competant teachers but perhaps they just didnt sync well with me.  Dropping a course is not something i would like to explain to anyone especially math at baruch.  its kind of embarassing.  If anything positive came out of this first semester it’s that im going to push myself hard next semester to make sure that i never have to experience the humiliation of dropping a course again.  This is the first and last time.

Everything.  I know its simple but thats honestly the best answer to that question.  I would manage my money better, studied math harder every possible thing i could have done for a happier end of semester.  Not that im not happy now but i have too many regrets and having regrets about anything sux.  But in retrospect if you aways know you could have done better after everything is done.  Im not quite sure everyone is entirely satisfied the first time you do something.  So really the one thing i would have changed is the fact that i dropped  a course.  That would have made my 1st semester golden but you live and you learn i guess.

Im not quite sure if i changed at all since arriving here.  You’d have to ask someone that knows me since my high school days.  i do think that i have a healthier perpective on the value of studying but i need to actually implement this new way of thinking in my school work.  Im not quite sure i wanted to change since coming to college.  I just wanted to do great work to make up for all wrong things i did in high school.  I dont think i have gotten far in this goal but i do think ive made the first couple steps. 

And so i (hopefully) lived happily ever after. . . . . .

THE END  

Special thanks to ari and ben for being our punching bags 🙂

It has been about three months since I’ve started in Baruch. I think it did not live up to my expectations at all. I didn’t really have any specific expectations but for some reason I thought it was going to be totally different from high school and stuff like that. Once I went to class for about two weeks, it felt just like high school to me. Maybe it was because my high school classes and environment felt like college. I feel like I graduated high school to go into a harder high school. The only thing that I really like is the massive amount of freedom I have and the fully equipped computer lab.

I think I did pretty well in the beginning of the semester. As the days go on, I feel like my head is absorbing so much information that it’s hard for me to absorb some more. My exam grades now are a little lower than what I received in the beginning. Overall, I don’t think I did too badly. I just hope I do well on the final and my professors will not do anything crazy and change dramatically.

What I would do differently during this semester if I could do it all over again is not procrastinate. I feel like I procrastinated a lot and when I handed in my work, it wasn’t my best. I also would have not bought some of the textbooks I bought because in some classes, the professor barely used it.

I do not think I changed very much since I started in Baruch College because I feel like I’ve been this mature since high school. All my high school classes have trained me to feel like they were college classes so I don’t feel any different than I was last year. I just love the freedom I have now. Baruch College is a good school though with good classes and has a lot of programs for students to interact in. I don’t think I’m going to transfer because even though it feels like high school, I like it here.

So, my first semester is FINALLY coming to an end. If I’ve learned one thing about myself, it’s that when it comes down to getting something done, no matter how badly I may not want to do them, there’s a part of me that pushes to get it done anyway. I’ll do whatever I absolutely have to… If I’ve realized anything, it’s that I’m really lazy and that needs to change. On a rare occasion, I’ll really be in the mood to work and study, most times, I push work off until it’s ABSOLUTELY necessary to get it done. Aside from really hating this semester and realizing that Baruch may not be the school for me, and regardless of whether I care or not, the procrastinator’s side of me needs to go a.s.a.p.

As I’m sitting here typing this… It just dawned on me that the only reason I may not like Baruch, is because it takes hard work. Yeah, this semester is crap, but it’s only the beginning. Whatever I think is hard now, is only about to get worse. I guess it’s my fear or rising to the challenge. I’m not incapable of excelling, i don’t believe anyone is. I just don’t apply myself like I should, and I’m not sure why I can’t break this phase. Maybe I need to attack this issue Sigmund Freud style and swing a bat at hypnosis… (0_o)… Cutting off this laziness with the snap of a finger isn’t happening. maybe I don’t like Baruch because I’m scared to be challenged. I’d rather take the easy route and go somewhere that doesn’t have such high expectations for math (not my strong point)… Maybe if prerequisites and core curriculum’s were tailored to people’s needs… I mean, I still don’t know what I want to do, but I’m too much of a free spirit to be working a job that requires me to know a lot of math & science… If I wind up becoming an author, how is pre-cal or physics going to benefit me???… sighs… (-_-)… guess I’m done with this part of my rant…

I didn’t apply myself a lot this semester, I know for a fact my GPA went down… unfortunately. At this point, whether my marks are remarkable or not, I’m just hoping that I pass everything…

If I were able to completely start over, I think I’d prioritize and spend more time studying… It’s hard to make yourself care about something you really don’t care about. I’m the type of person, whether it’s mandatory I learn something or not, if I don’t see the point, or understand the subject’s relevance to my life, I don’t want to learn it. And once I’ve established I don’t want to learn something, it’s hard to force myself to spend the time it takes to learn it… School… I’d rather learn from experience, or get a taste of history through someone who has lived it… I’d rather travel and see the world, and learn about people than sit in an English class writing a research paper about “Satire.” Like really, how in goodness name will stuff like that benefit me. Life is the best professor… There’s no better coach, or educator… and between life and love, there are no better lessons to be learned… hands down.

I’ve noticed a change in myself, but it has nothing to do with Baruch. So I guess it’s safe to say, Baruch hasn’t changed me… at all… Not yet anyway. Although, losing love has made me a little bit wiser… But like I said, life & love are the best educators.