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Entering college you of course have some expectations but i was mostly complacent about what to expect.  I sort of developed my idea of what i wanted out of baruch while i was here instead of before.  I’d say it was the first time i really put thought into what i plan on doing with the rest of my life.  To be honest im still figuring it out.  I’d like to think that this semester was an introduction and now that i have become more familiar with baruch i can make the most of what it can offer.  If anything baruch will be a stepping stone as i transition into my adult life.

Frankly, my first semester sucked.  I really wish i started off better.  I would have expected some more competant teachers but perhaps they just didnt sync well with me.  Dropping a course is not something i would like to explain to anyone especially math at baruch.  its kind of embarassing.  If anything positive came out of this first semester it’s that im going to push myself hard next semester to make sure that i never have to experience the humiliation of dropping a course again.  This is the first and last time.

Everything.  I know its simple but thats honestly the best answer to that question.  I would manage my money better, studied math harder every possible thing i could have done for a happier end of semester.  Not that im not happy now but i have too many regrets and having regrets about anything sux.  But in retrospect if you aways know you could have done better after everything is done.  Im not quite sure everyone is entirely satisfied the first time you do something.  So really the one thing i would have changed is the fact that i dropped  a course.  That would have made my 1st semester golden but you live and you learn i guess.

Im not quite sure if i changed at all since arriving here.  You’d have to ask someone that knows me since my high school days.  i do think that i have a healthier perpective on the value of studying but i need to actually implement this new way of thinking in my school work.  Im not quite sure i wanted to change since coming to college.  I just wanted to do great work to make up for all wrong things i did in high school.  I dont think i have gotten far in this goal but i do think ive made the first couple steps. 

And so i (hopefully) lived happily ever after. . . . . .

THE END  

Special thanks to ari and ben for being our punching bags 🙂

Hey itz Matthew Beer.  Im no exactly sure how this Blog iz meant to be formatted .  I figure itz basically rewriting our Freewrites from class.  Here goes. . .

What i like best is organization.  I say this bcuz im a terribly unorganized person.  My life is in a perpetual state of disarry usually by own doing or should i say undoing.  I stress myself out to the point that i dont know what it iz like to be unstresed.  suks  -_- What i dislike would be the opposite of what i like: disorganization.  This word pretty much defines my life before and since.  As i mentioned before disorganiztion = stress = gray hair which i have omg suks -_- im too young.   I would describe myself as critical and pessimistic.  Both of these probably stem from my aforementioned problems above.  Whats important to me iz living.  I mean getting the most out of life although i dont feel ive been doing that lately. 

Im afraid of failing.  should be made into a phobia if there isnt probably one out there.  should probably look that up later.  Failng = disappointment which isnt something i want people to feel about me.  Im most happy wen surrounded by people and having intimate discussions.  There’s nothing better than a stimulating conversation with people who are in the same boat as you.  I like the feeling of belonging. 

I feel guilty wen i say i will do something but dont.  I wont be specific but i do that alot, itz something that i should work on.  I feel empowered wen i know something that others dont.  I get the childish urge to just blurt it out or be the first to say it.  I also feel empowered wen im speaking aloud and people are actually paying attention.  I dont hav a motto because i cant think of one right away.  I also dont want to force it by looking or “shopping’ around for one on the internet or something.  If one doesnt come to mind right away i think it means i havent found one i identify with. 

Umm i wrote something really weird for freewrite # 4 and i cant remember what the assignment or question was. i made some kinda list, see what u get out of it  -___-

(1) Pretty Decent

(2)Music

(3)New York

I have no idea what these are i think theyre answers to questions i must’ve been really lazy or something sry. . .

and that concludes my monologue i figure Ari & Ben will be mad at us Monday bcuz no one did their blog on time lol

THE END (?)

Just In Time I Hope!  Now to describe myself.  Well i am a chronic procrastinator with major issues with getting my work done.  I hope my time at baruch will correct that quirk of mine.  I love the City which is why i go to baruch.  One day i will get a  respectable job and live here.  But thats going way ahead.  For now i live in Queens and itz a pretty quiet life.  I like pizza and t.v. Superficial things, i kno but i dont want to get too deep on the first post.  Im looking forward to really getting into collage life.  I dont know what club to join though the peer mentors sound interesting.  plus they get paid.  lol.  I really like my Peer Mentors Ari and Ben bcuz they are the super cooolest ever!!!!  No im not being sarcastic.  I look forward to see how this semesters going to unravel.  Hopefully in a good way 🙂