Who Are WE? We're PR3!

There’s always been an internal struggle with me, a type of fight between my three beings. Who I am, who I’d like to be, and who I was, all struggle amongst one another for the dominant power. My mother once said to me “Eva, You need to stop being like everyone else, and figure out who you really are” Well, the problem with that statement is I DON’T know who i really am. I know i thrive in many facets. I know I’m very artistic and intelligent. I know I’m very outgoing and I know I have have a basic belief in human beings. I also know that I am very insecure. I know I am afraid of failure and defeat. I know that I cherish the words people say to me. I know that if I don’t succeed, especially in college, that it’d be more than a defeat to myself but to my family as well. I believe that school will always be the same: A social intsitution under the disguise of an intellectual one. It is however different from highschool in numerous ways. For one, it’s better. College is the way to see yourself in a new light, a light that is shined on you through others. You meet people who have the same interest as you, people who are real, and come from real backgrounds. People who know how to make things right, people who want to make the woorld a better place. And the classes are fantasic, even the worst of them. You learn from a person who has a real knowledge and love for the subject, and someone who is willing to share that knowledge with you, someone who WANTS to learn it. College, unlike high school, gives you opportunities that will take you as far as you want. Knowing all about all the things that college, in particular Baruch, can offer you, one can take on a lot of anxiety about it. I am soo nervous i will fail. I’m afraid that I won’t get into Zicklin and I won’t be able to achieve what’d I’d like to. I’m nervous that because I went to a commuter school that I won’t get the FULL college experience. The experience of partying and having fun. And most of all, I’m afraid I’ll leave Baruch without great friends. I always lived by “fear stimulates action.” So I know that no matter how much anxiety I may have about something, that i have the ability to make the best out of it. That is why I know that the first year of College at Baruch will be a  good one for me. I know that i will be able to use it to shape myself into a better person. I know that will meet a bountiful amount of great people who will be in acquaintance with for years to come. I know I will expand my knowledge of the world, humanity, and culture. I know my first year of college will be the most fruitful.

Live. Laugh. Love. These are the three words that harmonizes my life. I’m living my life to the fullest, laughing to my heart’s content and loving beyond all words possess. My life continues to grow day by day as I become more aware of the person I am. Eighteen years of life’s obstacles have made me the chill, knowledgeable, mature, understanding and optimistic individual today. I approach situations in a realistic manner and highlight the goods behind every bad. My ambition to succeed and be true to myself, involves my chapter of life in Baruch College. As a freshman, I’m fresh to the school. My concerns in Baruch are being involved with the school community, living up to grade expectations and balancing out school life with social life. I am also new to the city itself so I don’t wish to stay out too late, but all the clubs and activities don’t start until later in the day. I need to be accustomed to my surroundings first before I can be committed to multiple clubs. Doing well in school is the main focus of my interest and that means in order to do well, I have to worry about living up to the independence of college level studies. Then comes balance of both, doing well and having a life. How will I manage for both aspects to grow evenly and keep me sane?

School is always going to be school, whether it be high school or college. There isn’t much difference except for the level in material and independence. We learn through time to adjust with our dependence on others and we become more prepared for all that we have to face. In essence, Baruch is not much different than high school. Perhaps people are not as interested or close knit with each other initially as if it would have been in high school; but it takes a friendly reach out to make people a part of your social network. That is something that I am shy about, but I believe after my first year in college it will all change. I will be a more outgoing individual and initiate my friendships, initiate my social life and initiate my control on the people person I want to become.  I would hope that after being a freshmen at Baruch, that I’ve grown more mature and independent in everything. Change is the main drive to Obama’s victory for presidency and change will be my main success in life.

Day by day I will grow from the friendships I acquire, the professional relationships I encounter, the individual dependency I must live up to and finally the knowledge I obtain to better myself and the community. One year is enough to make me a little more prepared in life and one year is enough to uncover a bit of potential inside of me. So, Baruch will be a ground for learning, discovering, experimenting and growing if I give it my all. After all, life is consistently prone to changes and it wouldn’t be put to it’s test without the college experience.