Who Are WE? We're PR3!

There’s always been an internal struggle with me, a type of fight between my three beings. Who I am, who I’d like to be, and who I was, all struggle amongst one another for the dominant power. My mother once said to me “Eva, You need to stop being like everyone else, and figure out who you really are” Well, the problem with that statement is I DON’T know who i really am. I know i thrive in many facets. I know I’m very artistic and intelligent. I know I’m very outgoing and I know I have have a basic belief in human beings. I also know that I am very insecure. I know I am afraid of failure and defeat. I know that I cherish the words people say to me. I know that if I don’t succeed, especially in college, that it’d be more than a defeat to myself but to my family as well. I believe that school will always be the same: A social intsitution under the disguise of an intellectual one. It is however different from highschool in numerous ways. For one, it’s better. College is the way to see yourself in a new light, a light that is shined on you through others. You meet people who have the same interest as you, people who are real, and come from real backgrounds. People who know how to make things right, people who want to make the woorld a better place. And the classes are fantasic, even the worst of them. You learn from a person who has a real knowledge and love for the subject, and someone who is willing to share that knowledge with you, someone who WANTS to learn it. College, unlike high school, gives you opportunities that will take you as far as you want. Knowing all about all the things that college, in particular Baruch, can offer you, one can take on a lot of anxiety about it. I am soo nervous i will fail. I’m afraid that I won’t get into Zicklin and I won’t be able to achieve what’d I’d like to. I’m nervous that because I went to a commuter school that I won’t get the FULL college experience. The experience of partying and having fun. And most of all, I’m afraid I’ll leave Baruch without great friends. I always lived by “fear stimulates action.” So I know that no matter how much anxiety I may have about something, that i have the ability to make the best out of it. That is why I know that the first year of College at Baruch will be a  good one for me. I know that i will be able to use it to shape myself into a better person. I know that will meet a bountiful amount of great people who will be in acquaintance with for years to come. I know I will expand my knowledge of the world, humanity, and culture. I know my first year of college will be the most fruitful.