It's a Wonderful World
I used to be a mold. I used to attempt to mold myself into the stereotypical Asian boy to make my parents happy. I found out I couldn’t accept it, so I rejected it. Don’t get me wrong, I still mold myself into images that will hopefully make people happy. It doesn’t work a lot of times, so I’ve decided to throw it away and live the way how I want it. No more worries about images anymore but only about the future. Just living the life, valving the significant things, and discarding the rest. A little too carefree? That’s your call, not mine.
I have been very concern about college ever since when I started high school. Image problem remember? List those concerns? I don’t know where to start spilling my words onto this blog but I don’t think it will fit the blog. I can group all my concerns under one umbrella : How am I going to live my life from now on? Well, from there the concerns come flowing in such as how am I going to make money, where am I going to reside, and etc. I don’t want to have no idea which path I am following in the future, I want a vague view at least if not a well-planned future. An empty future is scary, don’t you think?
Well to start off, college and high school are spelled differently! High school was very relaxing and perhaps too carefree for me. Since nothing really mattered and besides a high school education is free, right? However, coming to college has been a completely different experience for me so far. To start off, school isn’t free anymore, it’s painful to pay for each class; this is one main motivation to go to college. My grades actually determine which doors I open or close in the future; this is actually the main reason I don’t miss class anymore. Finally, my professors nag about anything, which is a little odd for the first time of my education years, I have to steer myself to success alone. Overall, the college experience is a 180 degree flip from what I have experienced in college.
Change has been a very common word ever since our current president has used it in his campaign, and everything is indeed changing. I am already changing in college, well at least people say that. I am no longer the mute person who only sits in class and daydream. I open my mouth and words come out of my moving mouth to answer a question, not to talk to my neighbor about random things. I don’t participate a lot but I do the minimum at least; in high school I usually don’t earn anything for my participation grade. I am very happy I have erased my name as the mute one and corrected it to my original name. I am very interested what other changes I am capable throughout my whole college experience. I have no idea how college change me, but I wish it will be for the best!