As junior year of High School came around, the question of what I was supposed to do in college also came with it. I never had and still don’t have any particular passion I would like to focus on as my career, so it was difficult for me to settle on what I should do, and what I should major in and so on. As I began to think about what I would make of my future, I was almost forced to contemplate over who I was as an individual. Although I still do not have a concrete answer to that, I am now able to at least discuss who I might be.
In this mini period of self discovery I realized that my most valuable trait is also my biggest flaw. In order to be happy I need to make people happy which often times leads me to prioritize other people’s wants and needs. This characteristic is critical to my identity. My goal is always to satisfy others. In my home, I am always attempting to please my parents by bringing home good grades, taking care of the house work, and trying my best to not be a financial burden. With my friends, I never make the final decisions in any circumstance we are in. I always let others make the decisions because my satisfaction comes from theirs.
These actions are most likely rooted in the fact that I might just be scared to be alone. If I prioritize other peoples wants and needs I avoid being rejected by someone. However, I am perfectly happy when I am alone. But because I have people in my life that I love and love me, I know I actually will never be alone. No one ever really is. Which brings me to the only passion I have that I can think of; love. I am very passionate about my friendships and my relationship. My best friends are not just friends they are my brothers and sisters. They are my family. My friends, boyfriend and most importantly my immediate family are the people I will always remember no matter what situation I am in because of the love that bonds us. Love is what drives me to do what I do, to be what I am and isake in my life.