Simplicity is easy to describe but difficult to achieve.
Our first free-write question asked us to write about one thing that we like about ourselves. I realize now that what I put, patience, is a quality that I don’t really have. When I can’t get something done I’ll let it bother me to no end. Hell, even if the person in front of me knocks me off my walking pace, I can’t help but get anxious and try my best to get around them.
Something that I do have, and like about myself, is understanding. There are some really ignorant people out there that think that everyone else is wrong. But I know that everyone has their own problems in life, and their own ways of dealing with them. But just because I understand why someone is the way they are, doesn’t mean that I have to agree with them. Or even like them.
I don’t like changing for others. If someone tells me that I should stop wearing or doing something, I’ll want to do the absolute opposite. If I want to change something, I’ll do it myself when I have the motivation to. Some of this attitude is also used towards my parents.
I have a weakness of insecurity. I usually take care of this through some sort of bodily movements. Either I’m shaking my leg up and down while sitting, tapping a pen against the desk, or just tapping my fingers. This isn’t very uncommon, I guess. I came into high school with not a lot of self esteem, and it took some building to set everything straight. I met some really beautiful souls there, who I hope will stick by me for the rest of it all.
My family has shaped a lot of me. Growing up, their only way of punishing me was by making me feel guilty. Which is worse than just getting grounded, I think. Their reverse psychology still stops me from doing some things that tempt me, because I don’t want to feel the guilt of being the reason for their anger. My mom is amazing when it comes to talking about family gossip, shopping, cooking, and basically anything emotional. My dad is there for intellectual talks. Even if I don’t respond, my dad could sit for a whole hour telling me about why this or that happened in history. It’s all very intriguing. My brother, who’s older than me by 4 years, and I have practically nothing in common. Maybe only that we both come from the same family.
I like to live by the quote, “Carpe Diem,” meaning, “seize the day.” This quote means that you shouldn’t let anything hold you back, and do more than just exist. I believe that things happen for a reason; that it’s more than just coincidence. So even if something wasn’t meant to be, life goes on.
I’d like to add a quote by Michael Scott from The Office:
“There are certain defining moments in a person’s life. The day he’s born. The day he grows hair. The day he starts a business and the day he sells that business back to Dunder Mifflin. What have I learned from all of this? It is far to early to tell. All I know is that I’m flying high and I don’t even want to think about it. I just want to enjoy it.”