Here I am, in college. It seems like it should be some life changing event, and in some ways it is but yet I’m still myself. I am a hardworking and a success driven girl and I will do what needs to be done when it needs to be done no matter what. I have a really strong pride in my ability to multi task: my school, work, family, friends; I like the adrenaline that I get from being on a tight schedule, deadlines work for me because they give me structure. Excuses don’t fly with me, if I need to get something done; it will get done no matter if I’m sick, or if there’s a hurricane outside. I have this sick need to succeed in the things I do. My education and my family are the most important things in my life. These two building blocks shape and guide my progression. There’s a saying that you have to surround yourself with positive people, but believe me, my family is not positive. There isn’t a quiet moment in my house, and that works for me. My friends are no different, they are all loud and obnoxious but I love them and they wouldn’t be my friends if I didn’t. I said that I was driven by the need to succeed, but I’m not afraid of being unsuccessful, I’m afraid of letting down the people closest to me such as my family. Their support and their confidence in me scare me a little because if I let them down that wouldn’t work. Their support in my goals and aspirations empowers me. It gives me a feeling of achievement. I also get that feeling when I actually accomplish something, whether it is a good grade, or doing something good at work or beating my brother at basketball. Basketball and SING used to be an important part of my life, my social life revolved around my teams and that’s the core of my friend base from High school. But I see them less and less as we grow more assimilated into our own college experiences and I fear that I will lose those friendships which took years to form and held up through so much. College is a whole new thing for me, and it’s a little difficult that I don’t always know where I am going or where I am suppose to go. I’m taking it slower and I think that’s okay. When I’m comfortable enough with the technical parts of college, like classes, I will get deeper into the college social life. I’m excited for it and to really continue to develop myself and meet new people and find new interests. I think that all of those opportunities are open and that’s a great feeling to have. Time is my biggest problem, there just isn’t enough of it to go around and I don’t think I can make more time, but I can figure out ways to use it well. What needs to stay in there is time for fun, time to do things that I actually like doing: going to the gym or watching a movie. I don’t want to lose myself, I want to live my life and I want to succeed in doing it. It’s a tall order, and I might fail at it, but I will keep trying and hoping that the next experience will be better. I live my life by the notion that “what goes around, comes around”, I do good things to people and I hope that good things will happen to me. A pet peeve is my inability to control things like peoples actions. All I can do is play my part and hope that everything else will fall into place. For that reason I am super crazy about the things that I can control, if it will give a better chance than I’ll take it. I don’t know what sense I made just now, and I cannot try to summarize this train of thought. But that’s me and that’s the only person I can be- “believe in yourself and all that you are.
know that there is something inside you that is greater than any obstacle.”
