Who am I? I know my name is Crystal Lee. That’s as far as it goes. Who do I think I am? I like to consider myself as a driven individual. I’m far from perfect, but I try. I know that I’m kind of weird, eccentric, and quirky. I’m quiet, shy, awkward and standoffish to people that don’t know me too well, but to others I’m just plain blunt. I know that I’m sometimes contradictory and always self conscious, but I always try to be nice and see the best in people. It’s hard for me dislike people and even harder for me to hold grudges. I may not be the smartest person anyone’s ever met, but I still believe that intelligence is important, and sometimes overlooked. I believe that creativity and expression are the best outlets in the world. Most importantly, I prefer to take everything one day at a time and enjoy the little things.
I’m not going to lie, I was a bit nervous about Baruch. It’s just so different to me. My top three concerns are failure, failure, and my future. Well, there are other things that i’m worried about, like having to pull all nighters again, drifting apart from people, and just not enjoying the experience. And what if, in the end, I didn’t find any guidance as to what I was looking for in my future. That really freaks me out.
I was comfortable in Brooklyn Technical High School. I got to know some amazing people, and all of the secrets of the building. Like the northeast entrance of the cafeteria is never guarded, the elevators on the west side don’t work, and there’s secret rooms scattered everywhere. Teachers knew me by name, or at least face. Now in college, no one tells you when to eat, security guards don’t stop you if you’re not in class, math teachers don’t check homework, and everything is done at your own free will. College has more choices and more freedom that I’m not used to. I like that I have, at most, 4 classes a day this semester, as opposed to 7 or 8. There are so many new faces, but a lot of familiar ones. The elevators don’t stop at every floor, and I have a lot more time to myself. It’s a lot more independent. It’s just something that I’ll have to adjust to. I’ve adjusted to 5,000 students in high school, I’ll get used to the 17,000 somehow. I think i’ll be fine here, though. I kno that i’ll grow more independently, and I’ll mature. I know that i have a lot to learn, and not to sound like a loser, but i’m eager to learn. I know that Ill meet some awesome people. I thought I was missing out on the whole, going away college experience, but I realized the city can be pretty amazing. I know it like the back of my hand now. And I just have to take things one day at a time. You know, enjoy the little things.
“If you don’t stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it”