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First monologue…Nervous…Here goes nothing… >_<…awkward turtle…

On the first few weeks of school, I would end up scared. Scared because the environment was completely different than my high school. For one thing, there are actually guys in the school. Normally I would just see girls everywhere since I went to an all-girl high school, but now, it’s totally different. To me, the guys are some strange species that need to be avoided at all cost.  I get completely shy around everyone I see since there are so many students and I’m pretty sure I won’t get to know all of them. Another thing would be the size of the school and the student population. Normally, classrooms would be a normal size with about thirty-two seats. But now, I see large classrooms that would have from a hundred to five hundred seats, and that’s really big. The student population is probably ten times bigger than my high school’s population. My high school population only had about four-hundred students in all four grades; with Baruch, there’s way more than that. I would always sit by myself while listening to the radio on my phone when I had my two hour break since I didn’t know that much people that went to Baruch and I was shy. I always had this feeling of insecurity and lost because college is so new to me; I am not used to this “independence” that I am getting.

So far two months have passed by. I am getting used to the environment and the school, but I am still having some slight problems, for instance, procrastination. I’ve been getting lazier and lazier with my work because I have more freedom in college than in high school, but I do get my work done. My classes aren’t that bad even though it’s a lot of studying and work, but I know as long as I pay attention in class and read the textbooks, I would be fine, sort of….maybe…probably…probably not… I made a couple of friends in my classes, and sometimes I would go hang out with them, which is a big step for me because I thought I wouldn’t make any friends in Baruch since my personality is kind of weird and childish, and I’m a quiet person in class. I am kind of getting used to guys being around the school even though I still ignore them, but when I do talk to them, I would talk to them as if I was talking to a girl, a trick my friend told me to use. I am enjoying my college life little by little and I hope to enjoy it even more as I continue this experience.

Hi, I am aoshuang. This is my first time to write the monologue and present in front of others, so I am very nervous about that. Though there are many challenges and troubles during my college life, I also find something that I am interested, which is my work study. To be honest, before I just thought about the salary, but now everything is changed. I work for the computer lab in the VC building or in library building. At VC building, I just need to stay in the front, fix the printer, and when somebody has trouble, I try to help them. Furthermore, I can use the computer and study whatever I want until I finished the time. You will say it’s kind of easy and relaxed, won’t you? Before I had a same thought as you until I worked at library. In this afternoon, my supervisor sent me to second floor at library. It’s my first time to work there without any training. I don’t know where is the key, how can I open the tray in the printers, and even where is the button to turn off the printer. So I kept running through the VC and library building to try to get help. I didn’t get any break until I almost finish my hours. However, when I saw someone I helped and they say thank you to me, I felt extremely happy and excited. Because I can see my value through them and I realized that I am useful.

travel or read, either mind or body should be on the way.
travelling and reading is my favourite.
when i was tired, i would like to walk in manhattan . i love nyc,a city that never sleeps. from long time ago, i have seen the pulse and new york different sights .but…to really,walk here in the heart of manhattan ,is just the utimate. new york although recognized a business pool,in reality, art is filled up in and out. and everyone has its sense of art by its unique dressing style. it doesn’t mean they are rich because money can’t buy style. it is because we think highly of art and benefit a lot from different culture. sometimes, i will find a nice accesories shop or card designer shop.and then i will take picture of the elegant goods there( i don’t have money to buy it). well,just looking at those fashionable window show, i feel great satisfaction. sometimes, i like to look for a nice coffee shop and enjoy a cup of coffee while smelling sweet bakery or something. swetness expand in the air and finally into my body. rumble … btw, i am determined to gather the valuable tour information by my own and write some comments about it,like ten must see attractions or some nice stores you probably don’t know. and maybe it will become a tour guide for other visitors.haha~
reading is also my favorite, hmm, i always read chinese books.recently ,i begin to push myself to read english books.because the library provide so much valuable resource to us ,if not use them,that will be a great loss of us. national geography worth reading. My Antonia
Immigrant is a good book ,too. it is about pioneers strive to adapt to the Nebraska prairies.
i feel like college makes me think more than ever. why? because it’s not very easy to make good social network in college.people are more mature in college. so if i want to make friends with an excellent person,i have to be excellent enough to socialize with him/her. the only way to achieve that goal is to learn more and become a person as thoughful and wise as that excellent person. right? social capital is based on your cultural capital.
so far so good, i still need to work harder ,but play harder.^.^

I am the only child in my family, thus my parents always want to give me the best things. However, there’s one thing I am still not satisfied with is that I don’t have any sibling to play with or talk to. Although I played with the kids in my neighborhood, still, it was a lonely childhood. And that’s probably the reason why I like to play with kids now. Most people who have little brother and sister might think kids are annoying, but I think kids are kind of interesting. I used to work at a summer camp, and I love to get along with kids because they reminded me of my passed childhood. They always loved to share their diary stories and play games with me which were so sweet, and that also reminded me innocence which I had missed for many years.

When I was little, I used to either stick with my parents or stay home watching TV. As I grow up, especially when I first came to the United States without knowing anyone, I try really hard to meet new friends and like to hang out with them because I don’t want to be alone again. With my friends, I am very comfortable; thus in front of them, I can open myself to be the real me.  We used to gather together, we talk, we sing, we laugh, and we cry, and I cherish our friendship a lot. Now we are split apart to different college, and I really miss them and the time we spent in high school.

Being active enough, sometimes I just feel like to be a loner for a while after all my busy days. Then I will disappear from my social network because I would love to be quiet and free at that time. I know I am weird, but I just want to relax and don’t like someone interrupt me while I am enjoying my own time listening to music or watching movies.

I enjoy eating.  I mean if I have to list out the things that make me happy, eating would be rated top of it.  Whenever I arrive home after school, I am always looking for something to eat, even if I’m not so hungry.  My dad said it’s due to “pressure”, and I’m not sure of it.  But one thing I’m sure is that I love going out with my friends, shop and eat together because it’s fun to hang out with them while having some delicious food in front of you.  Back in high school, I used to just go to school, pay attention in class and go straight home to do my homework and study for exams.  I rarely hang out with my schoolmates or friends.  Most of the times when my friends asked me to hang out with them, my reply would most likely be “sorry…I can’t, maybe next time”.  Since going to college, I’ve changed a little bit and started hanging out more often with my friends.  I want to have some excitements and explore more…  Then I discover I enjoy a lot when going out with my friends to shop, explore and try new delicious food together.  Last time, we went to the Italian fair at Little Italy and for the first time, we tried the fried Oreos and fresh strawberry gelato.  We also went to 34^th street to shop around; afterwards, we spent an hour chatting while having delicious Green Tea Frappuccino at the bakery called Paris Baguette.  Since the food is so great there, each of us has bought home cheesecake and pastries for family to try.  Just about a week ago, we visited a Japanese tea lounge at Aster Place, called “Cha An”.  Although the place is tiny, it was cozy and we had some Jasmine Pearl tea along with a tasty snack set consisting of mochi, ice-cream, and many more!  In addition to that, we tried out the Takoyaki, a famous Japanese snack, at the nearby store and it was so yummy!  Last Thursday during lunch break, we went to a nearby bakery shop and tried out the macaroons in different flavors: passion with chocolate, green tea with sesame, raspberry and more.  I love the green tea macaroons and I am craving for more now!  I really enjoy hanging out and exploring new things with my friends and I hope to try more different types of food with them!

Every single person has had a moment in his, or her, life when he, or she, felt empowered. There was a moment in my life when I felt empowered. This happened in fifth grade during the table tennis tournament where my elementary school played in against another elementary school. I defeated every single opponent I faced in the tournament. Therefore, I received the MVP award that was given to my team. I felt empowered here, since I won against every single opponent when my teammates all lost to at least one opponent they played against. There was a similar moment in my life when I also felt empowered. This happened in twelve grade during the AYTTO High School Team Championship Tournament where at least ten teams joined to play in. Again, I defeated every single opponent I faced in the tournament. Furthermore, my teammates played their best and did not let me down. I also felt empowered here, since my team, which represented Brooklyn Technical High School, won against the other team we played against in the finals, which represented Benjamin Cardozo High School. So, my team was announced as the champion of 2011 in the New York metropolitan area.

same thing different day. i wake up a little over an hour before class, take the bus, take the train, walk into school, and dig into my oversized backpack for that tiny torn beat crumpled piece of paper called my schedule. i look at the day and check which room i’m in. then i check my phone and see i have 5 minutes until classes start. then i go walk up that first flight of stairs and there, my biggest decision of the day comes to me. to take the “escalators” or not to take them. that is the question. whether ’tis quicker to suffer the  elevator packed like a clown car full of morning breath and blasting iPods or to man up and face these what seems to be endless flights of steps of a so called escalator. then by the time i make up my mind on taking the elevator, three of them had just left the second floor to make its way up to the 11th, leading me to take the escalators. however i always get to class on time… well all but this one.

what i realized is… I have to fix that. High school was different to college because well, it was free. public schools grant an opportunity for kids, of whom most take for granted, like me. to realize this now has really hurt my academic life and college was a way for me to start over. especially growing up in a household that highly regards education and schooling, i feel pressured to do well. i’ve already started pulling all nighters studying for midterms and i think most of it has paid off. I’ve learned my lesson of procrastinating and i know how to prepare next time. and along my next couple of years of college, i’m hoping to form new friendships and keep the old as well as maintain a good gpa. this sounds so cliche so i’m going to stop here.

It’s 7:00 PM; one game of League of Legends won’t hurt. It’s 8:00 PM; time for dinner. It’s 8:30; time to play some 2K12. It’s 10:00; I’ll only be on Facebook for ten minutes. It’s 11:00; is there any food in the fridge? It’s 12:00; this Youtube video looks interesting… Its 1:00; oh man I have an essay to do.

Procrastination has always been a weakness of mine. Whether it be essays, homework, or studying for tests; I always wait until the last minute. Just two days ago I waited until the day before to study for my Art History midterm. I felt like I did well enough to receive a decent grade, but I could have done better if I hadn’t procrastinated. Even now, I’m typing up this monologue at 11:00 PM.

Procrastination will be the end of me; especially now that I’m in college. It should be diagnosed as a disease or something. Symptoms include prolonged delaying of work, and lack of sleep. Medication for procrastination would be the best invention ever. Some NZT for my lack of focus would be nice too. My lack of focus is amazing: a minute break from a paper I’m doing can lead to two hours of unproductive Youtubing, but I guess that can also be considered procrastination. Should I try to break away from procrastination? Certainly. How do I? No clue. How do other people deal with procrastination? Same way I have learned to. Accept and embrace it.

Already, the first month of college flew by really fast.  So far, things aren’t going the way I wanted them to be. Before starting college, I was determined to try my hardest; paying attention in class, finishing homework on time, and studying. However, everything seems to be going in the opposite direction. My homework is piling up and even worse, I doze off in most of my classes.  Somehow, I better start fixing these flaws before something bad happens.

Before my stressful days began, I lived a relaxed, comfortable life. Sometimes, I wish I can relive my carefree moments. I remember the time I went picnicking with my family and friends. There were many activities there. We had three-legged race, piggyback ride, volleyball tournament, and even a hula-hoop contest. The most humiliating moment happened when my uncle offered me money to do some pull-ups on a large tree branch. He said he would pay me $5 for each pull-up. I couldn’t resist the easy money. The branch snapped after a couple of pull-ups and I landed on my back. About twenty people saw this and my dad thought I was trying to kill myself. Luckily, it was time to go, so I quickly packed my things up and left.

Although I experienced one of the most embarrassing moments in my life, I consider this day worth reliving. I wouldn’t mind having a day without any thoughts about upcoming midterms and unfinished homework. Nevertheless, this is reality now and I cannot give up if I want the best possible future for myself.

Hi, I am yiru, I think most of you guys may not know my name since I am a kind of quite person in this class. Today, I want to talk about my personal trait. I feel nervous when I am standing in front of people to do the presentation. When I was writing this monologue, I could image the moment that I spoke, I might be blushing. I cannot control it, unfortunately. I blush easily no matter when I feel nervous, angry, embarrassing. People can know my thoughts just by looking at my face. I think it makes me immature and childish. I also want to talk about my bad habit which might ruin my life, I still have a lot of subjects to catch up especially political science which is a big challenge for me. I am not interested in history and political stuff. Even before the exam, I might wasting my whole day by pursue myself like “oh, I will work really hard after I finishing this movie. Or I need some food so that I can have enough energy. In the middle of night, I must be regret and worried because I am not ready for the exam. I really have to organize my time to work efficiently. Time goes really fast when I spend on watching movie and play games. I feel like I just take few classes after September, and suddenly, it is midterm. And next few weeks, there is second-round of midterms of some of my classes. Next month, it is time for the final. Do today’ job and do leave things to tomorrow, otherwise, you will be frustrated in the end.