Monologue … I Guess

I am like many of you. A person entering an exciting new world filled with unexpected expectations and everyday questions like “damn, did I pass that art history midterm?” Yea like that. I’m a person who can understand the world in all its complexities and simplicities but at the same time the world would have hard time figuring me out. Still I can’t blame it. I guess I could only identify myself as a paradox, I’m simple to look at but I’m beyond understanding like an artist follows his gospel but can’t help to find the vanity that surrounds him so alluring. I don’t think that makes me a bad person because I still have the desire to see girls smile out of happiness and write things about things that can touch a person’s heart. If anything that makes me human so that’s good to know.
Still like many people I made my mistakes and bad decisions, a few which cost me big time so much that I can’t even tell you what they are but like some people I lived up to my mistakes and moved on. Thankfully I had family and friends who helped me through that process. I hope to make many friends during my college years, the kind that can be there for you and in turn you could be there for them no matter what. Fortunately I have made these kinds of friends and I’m glad. I believe that family and friendships are irreplaceable so that’s why I always treasure the ones I have. They’re the only people who sees my faults but accept me for who I am.
I have the weird goal in life to at least live ti the age 81. As weird as that sounds I do have my reasons. A family member of mine lived up to that age and lead a very exciting life. He had many adventures around the world and told me amazing stories of what it was like to “live.” It‘s funny I was told these stories at a very young age where it would be impossible to remember anything from that point but even now I can remember vividly remember the excitements that came from his trips from the Philippians, Spain, and various parts of the Caribbean. Just from hearing these things I was determined not only to live a long life but to make the most of it and have those experiences the kind that this important person shared with me.

Who do you think you are?

Hi!
My name is Jason Fagan and I am the kid with a whole lot of empathy. I tend to
understand a person’s feelings and do my best to help them in any way I can. I
am a kind, humorous, and down to earth individual who’s quite creative
especially when it comes to writing. I tend to write poetry, songs, and raps in
my spare time. I don’t know if that’s weird or not but it definitely helps me get
a better sense of the world. My hobbies include listening to music and once
again writing. I’m also an appreciator of urban areas so I’m grateful knowing I
attend a school in the city. I enjoy when a girl smiles and I hope to be part
of a circle of friends.

My top 3 concerns of my freshman year are involved with the subject of academics.
My first concern would be being able to make it to my classes on time because
knowing that being late a certain amount of times in class would result in
failure has made me determined not to slip up. My second issue was wondering if
I would be able to keep up with the work as classes demand that any work done
would be hand in on time as well as done with good quality. Lastly I want to be
able to maintain a social life even with all the hard work I’d have to put in.
College work truly has its toll on people’s social lives but that is something I
want to try and avoid.

Compared to high school itself, college so far is the experience of a lifetime.  I’ve been given more responsibility and
freedom that would truly reflect on how I matured. When it comes to assignments
I have to be sure to do it right and hand it on time. Not that it was different
from my high school requirements but certain circumstances in college wouldn’t always
guarantee me a second chance.

So far my first year at Baruch has been quite enjoyable. I’m hoping that in my
first year I will take part in many activities that will introduce me to new
experiences and new friends. I guess in terms of seeking change, I guess I hope
to change my interests so that I may truly be able experience a new adventure! J