My name is Mark Belio. Coming to Baruch is a completely new experience for me, as for junior and high school I was in the same school for a total of 6 years. The school was a small one, with about 60 people in my entire grade. I knew every face I saw in the hallways, every face in my class, as it never changed. I even knew every face basically on the bus and train going and coming from school, as it never changed. I knew what every day would be consisted of, this daily routine that never changes, only following the same cycle. I had somewhat of a relationship with everyone in my grade, no matter how small that relationship was. I just got an invite on Facebook for a party next Saturday that is going to have basically my whole grade there. My high school has become so ingrained in my being that leaving it and completely changing my daily routine seems like it would take a little adjusting.
Going to college is like being thrown off an airplane with just a parachute and a knife into the wild to fend for yourself. That’s a bit dramatic, but it’s an extremely hard thing to adjust to. You’re so used to seeing the same faces and not having to strain yourself to create a new relationship because you already have these year-long relationships. No one will care for you if you stumble somewhere; in my high school I couldn’t leave the building until 2:10 everyday yet here I can leave in the middle of class if I so wish. Freedom is something that everyone says that they want, but if you’re so constrained for so many years in this this tight schedule and then suddenly have the ability to do basically anything, it sucks. I don’t know what to right now, but I guess at first no one does, and I’m just going to have to figure out on my own and fill all the empty space that’s in my life.