Tangled

My name’s Selina, and I’m 17 years old. I’d like to say that I’m an adventurous person, but others like to call me reckless. I don’t see how my actions are reckless, but maybe that’s the reckless part about it. Here’s an example, I’ll let you guys decide. This weekend I volunteered at a local community center for underprivileged children. We took them to a farm in New Jersey where they would be able to partake in a multitude of activities, including a corn maze. Yes, a corn maze is exactly what it sounds like: a maze of corn. The maze was only supposed to take half an hour, but with my fantastic navigational skills it took a bit longer.

Vowing to the other volunteers that me and my group of kids would be the first ones out I ventured out through the maze. After about an hour I got tired of walking in circles, so I had a brilliant idea: If I cut through the corn and keep going straight, I’m bound to find the end. Oh how wrong I was.

Now before we were let into the maze the workers warned us about 5 times not to let the kids get off the path and through the corn. So I led the kids off the path and through the corn. The kids told me that was wrong, but I assured them that I knew exactly where I was going.

That’s when things got bad. About 10 minutes in I realized that I was lost. The corn stood about 5 feet taller than me was so thick that I couldn’t see anything besides massive amounts of yellow and brown. So I panicked, I had absolutely no idea where to go. The kids on the other hand, were pissed.

As I trudged through the corn for about 3 hours with 8 kids basically cursing me out I began to think “How did I get myself into such a  tangled mess?” Then I realized that this maze of corn was an exact representation of my life, a tangled mess with no way out. An ongoing maze that led nowhere. What if all the “adventurous” decisions I make are just screwing me over? What if I’m leading a path of destruction and there’s really no hope for me? Just as I was about to restructure my entire life something amazing happened, I broke out of the corn.

A dirt path cut out a field of corn put me on cloud nine. A conspicuous sign carved into the side of a tree told me that if I took every right turn then I’d find my way out. Me being the one that always follows the advice of strangers did just that and found almost civilization in about 10 minutes.

So now I’m sick from the cold, and probably kicked out of that volunteering organization, but if I had a do over I’d probably do the same thing. If I stayed on the well traveled path I probably would have won, but I would never have had such a great adventure. Life’s a tangled mess, but what’s the point if you don’t get lost in it sometimes?

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Hey, my name’s Selina Yasin and I’m 17 years old. When people ask me who I am I honestly have no idea what to say except for that first line. The truth is I don’t know the answer to that question yet, but I’m hoping that college will help me figure that out. I guess I can start off by telling you guys (if anyone’s reading this) some things that I love and some things that I hate. I like being optimistic and always looking at the brighter side of things. My favorite color is orange. I love the rain, I hate when it’s too hot. I’d rather it be cloudy and cool. I love when old couples hold hands (I’m basically just writing down what I see around me). I love parks. I hate vegetables and I hate blogs.

Top 3 concerns about Baruch: 1. That I wouldn’t be able to cope with the school work because then my grades would slip and I’d flunk out of college, not get a job, and become a crazy train preacher or something. 2. That I would get trapped in a revolving door, again. (I got trapped in the revolving door to get into Baruch on my orientation) 3. That I would generally just hate it (I don’t so far so that’s a good sign).

I think that my Baruch experience will be different from my high school experience because it will be a more serious experience and I’ll start becoming more responsible, instead of my usual go with the flow attitude I’ll start making decisions that will help me shape my future.

I think my first year at college will help me realize who I want to be, and what I want to do with my life because I really have no idea what I want to be when I grow up. I just know that it’s not science/math related. I think it will also help me grow and become a better person.

Well that’s all I suppose, hope to see you guys on Monday 🙂