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Woke up 17 years ago

It was good day

Opened my eyes and i was on way.

Not an ordinary poem about life,

But an honest recollection of strife.

Before, nothing had ever been hectic,

Then I ventured across the Atlantic

A millions miles away

All i wanted to do was stay.

Alienation with a bunch of misrepresentation

I came along way and never lost dedication.

The language was new,

But i knew that as i grew success would shine through.

 

Hardships come and go,

But as i grow they become mellow.

The anger’s subsided

And my determination becomes guided.

Not easy to make choices

So i think twice and listen to all the voices.

I got a few friends that advise me to take my time,

Step by step. Rhythm by rhythm

The pressure builds up

So im careful not to get stuck.

Experiences take a tole

Self searching i begin to find my role.

Impossible to predict the future

I analyze my past to make it clearer.

Like a lightening strike before my eyes

Seventeen years past, so i attempt to compromise.

Every second counts

But as they go faster and faster

I hold them tighter and unleash my anger.

Fighting an unstoppable force

I realize i need to live my life with no remorse.

Enjoying every change and charm

I embrace life, long and strong.

 

 

” Enjoy what you can, endure what you must”. This quote serves as the epitome of what I truly believe life should be about. I am Nikita a strong , persistent, passionate, loving , awkward 18 year old girl standing at the brink of my entire life. I have now began to make friendships that will last lifetimes and encounter people who will change my life. For all I know I may be sitting in the same room as my future husband. Who know?. Definitely not me, and that alone makes this whole experience so much fun.

As I enter this new journey I am constantly surrounded by amazing individuals who are fighting just like me to make it. Yet instead of this factor scaring me it only motivates me to work harder and push more to change my life into what I consider my fairytale. my dreams and desires roam my mind when I close my eyes, haunt my dreams when I sleep, but i know this is only because I want it so bad. Although becoming successful is one of my greatest hopes, I always keep in mind money doesn’t buy happiness, and success in life doesn’t always come with relief, so my greatest objective in life is to simply live it. My choices, my actions they depict who I am , and when I look back 50 years from now I want to know I regret nothing and I lived for every important moment, minute and second.

I know hard work is important but like the quotes says I want to enjoy and feel and touch every moment, but I know I have to endure the hard times that come with it simply because life is not easy. Even from the short 18 years I have lived I already know the struggle it takes just to wake up 5 in the morning run to school and then run to work. I know what it is to suffer from loss of a dear family member and come to terms with the some one dear suffering in an illness that renders you helpless to them. I know what it is to have no one, and then to be saved and realize I have everything I need in my parents. Life is a struggle and I guarantee no one has it easy, but having the inner strength to just keep moving and keep going is what can transform your struggle into your fairytale life. I believe that with everything I have.

 

Life is good. Life is good exactly the way it is. My motto and my goal in life is to realize that even at the worst and hardest times that life is good and that each and every one of us are so lucky. We really are. Even when we think that we may not be wearing whats most in fashion at the time or driving the nicest car around town, we should be thankful for what we do have and realize that life isn’t about all the materialistic things, what really matters is your personality and your views on life. For as long as I can remember, I recall my mom always talking about the power of positive thinking and every time I said that there was no way I can pass a test, she would always say think positive, believe, and you will pass. She would always say “if you believe, you will achieve.” I used to hate when she said that. I would hold my ears shut and start to sing loudly so that she wouldn’t say it again. Freshmen year in High School, my english teacher would write life is good on the bottom right corner of every single sheet of paper he handed out. I must have seen those three words over and over again to the point that I started seeing it on the bottom right corner of every sheet of paper I saw. I always knew life was good and I was always thankful for everything I had. I decided to give my moms whole positive thinking idea a chance. Till today, I think I am the happiest and luckiest girl and I now live by two mottos: positive thinking and life is good. If I can encourage even one person to take on this attitude, then I know I’ve done a lot.

A creative spirit is truly how I see myself, and I value all of the beautiful things in life. Music and writing are my two biggest forms of expression, and the beauty that surrounds me spring from these very sources. To be able to utilize words or play an instrument was always integral in my life, and it has shaped the way in which I view the world and myself. However, my life is not limited to these two outlets of creativity; I am a multifaceted individual.

I have unconventional dreams for myself, but I wouldn’t have it any other way. Stereotypes are meant to be broken, and this is ideology is one that I live by. For years, I was told by some of the most important people in my life that my goals and choices were unrealistic and unthinkable. Whenever I told someone that I wanted to do something other than nursing or another career in the medical field, the idea was basically ignored and shut down. People would question why I would chose to pursue a career that I loved if it was not as monetarily rewarding as medicine. But I could never imagine myself pursuing a career for which I have no passion and drive. Although many of this seems far fetched to many people, I will never allow this fact to dissuade me. What good is having an extensive amount of wealth when one’s happiness is compromised?

Music and writing are my passions, and my goal is to incorporate my two loves into a successful career. I am on a life quest to fulfill my life’s plan: to find happiness AND success within my family, my career, and my life as a whole.

 

 

Who I am…. I am a daughter of a strong woman… and a “forever young” man… A sister to two guys, one being the teenager so full of angst and the other a member of the United States Air Force. I am a granddaughter to a lady who has truly loved and truly lost… I am a niece to an uncle, who almost gave up on himself… I am a cousin to a young lady that hopes to follow in my footsteps… But above all, I am Chelsea.

Packing up my belongings and saying my good-byes in Florida, moving to the city that never sleeps, and going to a school where I knew no one was what I thought to be the toughest events yet in my eighteen years of life. The transition wasn’t as difficult as I imagined it would be. People were welcoming, supportive, and oh so friendly. I thought at this point I had figured out who I was and where my life was heading.

Then, on an old regular Thursday, October 6 to be exact, a crack in my perfect was world was revealed. There was nothing interesting about that day; I woke up, got dressed, and went to class. Walking up the stairs during club hours to meet the rest of the softball team for practice, my phone rang. It was a familiar name that popped up on the screen, a familiar voice that answered when I asked “Hello?”, but the information I received was not so familiar. At that moment, I found out he was dead. “He” was someone I had dated, had known, and had truly loved. “He” blamed me for his crazy outbursts and reckless behavior. “He” was the one who was driving, drunk, and crashed into two trees. And after speaking to his mother and closest of friends, I, I was the only girl he ever loved, and the one he was planning on chasing after his whole life.

Being a thousand miles away from everyone I knew, speaking through texts at his memorial, receiving a large amount of texts and phone calls about the situation, hearing his mother say she missed and loved me, and sending the eulogy I had to write, in an email, was the hardest set of things I’ve ever experienced. But, this event was the one that truly revealed who I am. I am a young lady who doesn’t always have the right answers or always know the perfect thing to say. I have imperfections that bother me, but no one will ever see. I am a giver, of my heart and mind. I am the one who believes in love. I adore my family more than anything in this world. I have a passion that shines so brightly, it is often misunderstood. I am the one who cries for others, when they are too weak to do so themselves But, I am strong, willing, and able and I am the girl who will live in honor of him, and his love of life. I am, Chelsea. .

Who am I? I am young, bright, and free. I have a loud, infectious laugh that can fill up an entire room. Loud?  Maybe. Sweet? Of course. Temper? Sometimes. I love, love, love to laugh, and choose to surround myself with
positive people in order to gain a positive outcome.

“Laugh as much as you breathe, and love as long as you live.” This simple sentence, so short and sweet, has formed the basis in which I live my
life today. I have learned from experience that not everything goes as planned, but you just have to be able to roll with the punches. Be flexible, be
carefree, be open, because life is too short to be anything but that.

In this competitive world that we live in, it is easy to get caught up in the negativity and lose yourself, but we can’t lose sight of what is truly important in life. To me, the saying, “money can’t buy you happiness,” is true, though some may strongly believe that it isn’t. Although having material things can satisfy you temporarily, they can’t suffice you with long-term happiness. Be unafraid to take chances and
look silly. Smile, laugh, live, love, be young, wild, and free while you still have the chance because before you know it your adolescence will be over, and you will certainly regret it. Maintaining a positive attitude can solely open doors for you and is a vital trait for an independent and successful leader to have.

At this time of my life, filled with new experiences and new people, I plan to apply these positive mottos to every aspect of my life. I don’t want to overwork myself to the point that I can’t enjoy myself as a normal college student. I’m sure that the combination of hard work, dedication, persistence, and of course, a positive attitude, will take me exactly where I want to be in life.

Hi! My name is Prattasa. And I think I’m very much like any other teenager living in New York City. I love to hang out, eat, go to the movies, and shop all day long if possible. I can sit in front of the TV or my computer all day and never get tired of it. I love to explore new places and be independent.

Something interesting about me might be the fact that I am a bi-lingo. I can speak fluent Bengali. I have spent more than half of my life back in Bangladesh, and the other half in the United States. These two places are totally different from each other. It is like I always have to put a little extra effort to fit into the two different environments. I have to handle things a certain way when I’m at home or with people from my culture; but once I get out of there, I like to mix in with the NYC crowd. I love this city and its people.

 ART! I love art. It is the one thing I had with me throughout my entire life. And it is always going to be there for me. I started drawing since I was a little kid. Before, I used to just sketch random stuff on scrap papers or on the margins of my notebooks. But I became very attached to it during high school. I took AP courses and learned the proper techniques of Art. In those classes I was introduced to a whole new level of art. It just completely blew my mind. I learned that there is actually no right or wrong art. People might criticize your work, but they can never tell you what to do. It is entirely based upon you and your imagination. Right now in Baruch I definitely plan to minor in art or graphic designing or any field related to it. And yes, even though I’m really hating my Art History class right now, however, I still love art.

I feel so weird trying to describe myself. I fell like anything that I say will just be a cliche. I could say that college has changed me- because it has, but that wouldn’t be enough. Life is so different than it was 6 months ago, but I wouldn’t change a thing.

I went to a high school that was also my middle school, and my elementary school, AND my kindergarten. 13 years with the same people was just ridiculous- everyone knew every detail of your life, whether you wanted them to or not. That’s why I was so attracted to Baruch. For the first time since kindergarten, I’d be able to be a new person. No one would know that my mom passed away when I was 11 years old, no one would say “cancer”, and then look at me as if I were about to explode.

Oh, now you guys know too. My mom died when I was 11 years old. November 5th will make it 7 years. She was first diagnosed when I was 6, then she went into remission. It came back though, but she didn’t get help until it was too late. I was sick with a cold when she started to get severe symptoms. Taking care of me was her top priority. That, and finishing her masters degree in teaching.

I’ll never be able to forgive myself for how I was the last time I saw her. I was so rude and mean- but she was my mom, I thought that she’d always be there, so I’d just apologize tomorrow. Well, “tomorrow” came, and everything changed. I wasn’t the little girl with a teaching mother and a military father anymore. I was a girl who was just, there. My mom was my best friend, and she was gone. Forever. When she died my world was empty. (Told you that there’d be cliches).

It took me a very long time to feel (nearly) whole again. Right now I’m living in the Upper East Side, and going to a college that will get me where I want to be in life. Everything is just how my mom and I imagined it would be. So Who Am I? I’m just a girl who wants to make her mother proud.

When I was 16 I began emailing businesses and labels about internships and helping out in anyway. I received a couple remarks about my age being an issue and a ton of empty responses but I kept trying and over a year ago I got a really good break and interned at a company called Doghouse Records/ Working Group Artist Management based here in the city for about a year. I learned so much about what I was capable of, the importance of passion, and the realities of dreaming. It had a profound effect on the person I am at in this moment and helped me further envision the life I want to lead. Over the Summer I worked at a music store packing up records and found an appreciation of a good 12″ record as opposed to an mp3. I chose to open up with what I’ve done rather than hobbies or tales of my childhood because I largely value people by what they’ve done and what grants them happiness rather than how they look or sound. In my case it sums up a large portion of my character and who I am as an individual. My passion is music and bands; It motivates me and is the source of my faith, happiness, and overall drive. I seek out a higher education not for external reasons or outside influences but for myself and the for the artists I hope to manage in the future. My ultimate goal is to own a succesful band management company based here in the city before I’m 30 years old and I work relentlessly hard both in and out of school to get there. In my free time I also own a website called Unsigned & Unleashed that focuses on unsigned artists and bands around the country in addition to being part of the Music Department here at Baruch College.

On a more personal level I’m a person that’s largely driven by the connectivity between people and the effects that events and situations have on us. A lengthy talk on music or common interests can make me an extremely happy person. I love trying new things and occasionally dabbling in trying new restaurants and spots around the city. I’ve also been known to get pretty nerdy when it comes to independent and foreign movies. I hope that my time at Baruch will help me become more sure of what I’m capable of and less reserved and I also hope that it will help me learn more about myself. I plan on studying abroad and I can’t wait! I’m just a girl that believes in a dream that grows.

Post a monologue you’ve developed in your seminar, along with a self portrait (which can be a photograph, an image, a cartoon or some other depiction of how you see yourself).

I’m the typical teenager who likes to do the typical things. I like to eat, sleep and go out. I graduated from William Cullen Bryant High School in Long Island City. With a 40% drop out rate, it wasn’t the best, but I have to say it wasn’t the worse either. I was able to meet friends and I was able to explore. I found out what I liked and what I wanted to do with the rest of my life. I found out that I loved poetry. None of that Shakespeare sonnet stuff or Ayaz’s poems. I love real legit modern poetry. I also started planning my career path at the end of my High School years. I want to be an event planner. I want to intern at different companies and land a real part time job before I turn 20 and a full time job when I hit 23. It doesn’t seem quite realistic, but when I look back at what my siblings did, I start to believe in myself.

Two of my sisters also graduated from Baruch. They both found internships and worked their way up to a part time position then full time before they even turned 22. At such a young age, they found out what they wanted to do and never stopped pushing forward to achieve it. They are who I want to become when I grow up. Just like how everyone else looks up to someone, my two sisters are my role models.

To hit that level of success like my sisters did, I know I’ll have to open up more and start networking. I knew I had to get involved with things so I basically signed up for every club there was at Baruch. Even though I haven’t had the time to actually participate in every club, I can now proudly say that I am part of the USG Campus Affairs Committee and one of a million photographers of the Ticker.

I am the typical undergrad student. I am no different from any other student here at Baruch. I am lazy, I procrastinate but at the end of the day I work hard to play hard. And like everyone else, I learned to love Baruch College.