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Tell us how your experience at Baruch College has lived (or not
lived) up to your expectations. Has it exceeded your expectations? How well do you think your first semester went?

My expectations of Baruch College were completely met 100%. I knew coming to this college that its on the most boring colleges in the world, but I made a conscious choice to place a weight on future success rather than current fun. I would like to say that im sticking to it, but to me honest, I’m not even sure. After talking to people who have been the the college program and those who didn’t, Im seriously considering to not continue my education here. It seems to be that a good education is not worth as it used to be in the real world. Im really not the type to enjoy meaningless unmotivated learning, it really just stresses me out. I’d much rather be out there networking and making money that way. You only live one life, and your only young once, I don’t see any reason to waste it. I feel as if you meet enough people, your opportunities of finding work , and work that interest you is a lot easier. This realization came to me, when a NYU graduate messaged ME for a bartending position, why waste your youth, hard work and effort if its not guranteed to get you anywhere. Im not the education type, I could not ever in a million years see my self going to school passed 22, and in this society you need graduate school to get anywhere. I’d much rather live a stress free life now making a little less money over my lifespan than go through 6 hard years during the prime of my life.

Tell us how your experience at Baruch College has lived (or not
lived) up to your expectations. Has it exceeded your expectations? How well do you think your first semester went?

I never really had any expectations going into Baruch College, I was just going with the flow. I’d have to say that i like it way more than high school because there’s more freedom, overall it’s more interesting and you learn a lot of things. I don’t think my first semester has been going as well as it should be because I know I haven’t been trying my hardest in studying and all that.

What would you do differently if you could do it all again?

I’m not really the type to dwell on the past, nor would I change anything or do anything differently because I feel like everything that happens in a persons life always happens for a reason and there’s always something to learn.

How have you changed since you started at Baruch College?

Personality wise, I think I’m still the same person, I’ve kept a lot of old habits. Like always being late/ waking up late. But ever since i got a part time job I guess I’ve been learning with managing time which can be difficult for some including me.

So far, my time here at Baruch has honestly been dissappointing. I found that college classes are extremely dry and i had no idea that math could get any worse than what it was in high school. I am not discouraged however, at how i’ve performed this semester. I feel that i have grown substantially as a student and as an adult. I’m finally handing in papers on time and I’m getting a feel for maintaining a good study habit.

I would not do anything differently if I had a chance to do things over again. I feel that this was a valuable experience and introduction to College for me and I fully expect things to become more difficult which will be a challenge to me, but I fully accept this. I was frustrated and lost throughout this first semester, but this is a new environment for me so I guess in a sense it brought an obstacle before me.

As a student I’ve learned just how important education really is and how I am the one in charge of my own life. The recent protests here at Baruch have in a way influenced me even though I did not participate in them. I feel that as I grow up I have to deal with the obstacles of life one way or the other. I can only hope I can overcome them.

Tell us how your experience at Baruch College has lived (or not
lived) up to your expectations. Has it exceeded your expectations? How well do
you think your first semester went?

After having 3 months of college classes, I
still feel like “It doesn’t fit me”. Especially, I have two terrible
classes—-US History and US Politics. I have hated these two classes since I first
knew there are such classes. I couldn’t do well in classes without interests,
so I’m near the “F” grade.

What would you do differently if you could do it all again?

If I could restart my first semester, I
would drop history and politics classes. That is not my cake.

How have you changed since you started at Baruch College?

I started working since I started my college. It
was my first time to get out of the “umbrella”, living as a normal man. College
is the most turning point of my life. From that moment, my family became my
advisor instead of protector

I was expecting college to be stressful and boring. But actually if you manage your time WISELY it’s doesn’t have to be so overwhelming. College was what teachers said it was; reading and essays. I think it’s actually better then high school; you learn what your interested in and there’s no useless homework each night. But it’s not that party gone wild I was expecting it to be; it’s just I place you go in and out of each day for 4 years.

I definitely think I could have done much better. Unfortunately, I brought some of my old high-school habits along with me. So my goal next semester is to manage my time, STOP procrastinating, take the train on time and be the student I know I can be.

I would try to do my best and stop slacking off. I know that college will pay off so I’m going to stop being lazy. If restless nights are what I need to have a career I’m willing to sacrifice as many hours of sleep necessary. Also come out of my shell more and be the goofy girl everyone in family knows me for.

I’m thinking more about my future. I know I’ve made some academic mistakes but I know I can be better. I realize that college is just the beginning of a new life. College has allowed be to be less afraid of being independent and allowed to understand it’s not about making other people happy but about making myself proud of my own accomplishments.

My experience at Baruch so far has definitely lived up to its own expectations; I did not think I would meet such great people in such a short span of time but I have managed to do so, as they say, college is what you make of it and I have definitely made the best of it.  It has exceeded my expectations in such areas as socializing but as far as the academia is concerned, I need to improve on my studying skills specially in the area of mathematics.

Now that your first semester at Baruch College is nearly complete, how was it? Reflect on the following four questions and add media.

1. Tell us how your experience at Baruch College has lived (or not lived) up to your expectations. Has it exceeded your expectations?
2. How well do you think your first semester went?
3. What would you do differently if you could do it all again?
4. How have you changed since you started at Baruch College?

Normally, when i have an understanding, I cling to it; it makes me feel better.
And lately, every epiphane and revelation feels like it’s closing in around me, like it’s bearing down on me, like the air has all become water and I’m growing gills too slowly.
The things I want…it would be worse if I had them. I think about suicide but i know that it would make everything eternally worse. I think about doing drugs, but I know my body is God’s. I see my sin for what it is. And there is agony in still wanting it though I know it would kill me.
I see how lies encage now. But I still feel trapped; it’s like my eyes are open but I cannot see.
I can’t hold onto anything but God anymore. I see it. But it’s like I don’t yet have hands to hold onto Him…So i’m waiting for them to grow and looking at everything else, because everything else has signs and voices that tell me I can hold them with my feet or my mouth or my stomach. And yet they are lying to me. Because I have stepped there before; I have tasted that before; I have swallowed that before. And it cut. And I bled.
I have seen.
I know what the truth is.
And the truth is not yet something I can stomach.
So I wander around. There is no where for the daughter of man to lay her head.
There is no place for me to rest.
I am a girl acquainted with sorrow and affliction.
It is my heart that wars against me from the inside.
I am a sculpture looking to it’s creator with sewn up eyes, asking for hands, asking for the thread to be removed.
I am drowning in my own desires.
If I were to have every want satisfied, I would be consumed by them. If I were to follow every craving, I would only feel more like I do now than I do now.
I am hedged in. I have to believe that my darkness is familiar to the one who holds light for me.