YOU, HIM, and I
I thought I was in love once.
It turns out that the third time isn’t always the charm.
I thought it was me, was I doing something wrong?
I tried to change for YOU.
I tried to “BE AGGRESSIVE, BE BE AGGRESSIVE!” ‘Cause I knew YOU liked those types of girls instead of quiet girls who “lived inside the box”, which YOU once said I was.
YOU broke my heart three times. But of course YOU would never admit to that.
YOU would play the victim like always.
For almost two years YOU were the reason I was either super happy or super sad.
I felt bi-polar, there was no in between.
I wanted to hate YOU, I really did. But I couldn’t bring myself to.
I remember praying once and saying that if I couldn’t make YOU happy then I just wished that YOU found someone else who could and even though it wouldn’t be me, I would be happy for YOU.
YOU took me for granted; YOU thought I was weak, didn’t YOU?
But you know what? I want to thank YOU.
YOU gave me the two greatest gifts of all without even knowing it.
First off, YOU gave me confidence.
You see, I did a little soul searching while YOU were bust breaking my heart.
I realized then that there was nothing wrong with me. To me, I was perfect.
YOU helped me to find the strength to “live outside the box” and see that I didn’t really love nor need YOU.
And second, YOU gave me HIM.
At once, I knew I was in love.
HE makes me laugh and smile.
HE tells me I’m perfect for him and that he wouldn’t even change one little thing about me, unlike YOU.
HE read me the poem Queen by Pablo Neruda and said this is what he thinks of me,
That even if no one else can see my crystal crown, HE can, “And when you appear all the rivers sound in my body, bells shake the sky, and a hymn fills the world.”
HE’s the reason I sing and dance all around my room when no one is home to a whole bunch of love songs.
I wouldn’t have met HIM without YOU.
So at the end, all I have to say is thank YOU.
