Author Archives: Kimberly

YOU, HIM, and I

I thought I was in love once.

It turns out that the third time isn’t always the charm.

I thought it was me, was I doing something wrong?

I tried to change for YOU.

I tried to “BE AGGRESSIVE, BE BE AGGRESSIVE!” ‘Cause I knew YOU liked those types of girls instead of quiet girls who “lived inside the box”, which YOU once said I was.

YOU broke my heart three times. But of course YOU would never admit to that.

YOU would play the victim like always.

For almost two years YOU were the reason I was either super happy or super sad.

I felt bi-polar, there was no in between.

I wanted to hate YOU, I really did. But I couldn’t bring myself to.

I remember praying once and saying that if I couldn’t make YOU happy then I just wished that YOU found someone else who could and even though it wouldn’t be me, I would be happy for YOU.

YOU took me for granted; YOU thought I was weak, didn’t YOU?

But you know what? I want to thank YOU.

YOU gave me the two greatest gifts of all without even knowing it.

First off, YOU gave me confidence.

You see, I did a little soul searching while YOU were bust breaking my heart.

I realized then that there was nothing wrong with me. To me, I was perfect.

YOU helped me to find the strength to “live outside the box” and see that I didn’t really love nor need YOU.

And second, YOU gave me HIM.

At once, I knew I was in love.

HE makes me laugh and smile.

HE tells me I’m perfect for him and that he wouldn’t even change one little thing about me, unlike YOU.

HE read me the poem Queen by Pablo Neruda and said this is what he thinks of me,

That even if no one else can see my crystal crown, HE can, “And when you appear all the rivers sound in my body, bells shake the sky, and a hymn fills the world.”

HE’s the reason I sing and dance all around my room when no one is home to a whole bunch of love songs.

I wouldn’t have met HIM without YOU.

So at the end, all I have to say is thank YOU.

Orianthi- According To You

Hi, my name is KimberlyAnn but people usually just call me Kim or Kimmy. I’m Puerto rican and i’ve lived in bedstuy pretty much all of my life. I’m close to my parents and my older sister even though we don’t always get along. I’d like to think that i’m a pretty calm person. I can get really shy around new people but over time I ease up. I’m usually a peace maker. I have a really open-mind about anything and try to not judge people. I may be quiet at first, but once I get to know you, you won’t be able to get me to shut up. Once i take a liking to someone and call them a close friend, they’re stuck with me for life and i’ll always be there for them. 🙂 I want to major in psychology so my friends usually come to me when they need a good listener.

One fear I have about my freshman year is that i won’t know how to schedule my classes for the next semester, or that i won’t have a good schedule. Another fear i have is that I won’t get my g.p.a. as high as i want it to be. My last concern about my freshman year at Baruch is that i won’t make a lot of friends. I know that a lot of people have that fear and all that but it still doesn’t make it any more simple to make friends, especially since i’m kind of shy.

College has definitely  been SOOOO much more different from my high school. I came from a very small all girls high school of only 288 students. This college is so huge and has all types of people in it! Being in college gives me a lot more freedom than high school did. I feel like the teachers actually treat as like adults, and we have to take care of ourselves. No one harasses us which is definitely a good thing. College is also not about conformity. You actually get to be and express yourself however you want to.

I think that my first year of college will change me a lot. Even though the semester has just started, I’ve already noticed some changes in me. I’m becoming less shy and self-conscious (slowly but surely, hey it’s a working process okay!) and i’m also becoming more independent and taking on responsibilities that my family usually took care of for me. I’ve been more confident in myself, and more organized (which my mother loves). I hope I see more of these kind of changes throughout my college experience.